Roz Lee | Fix or Replace - The Relationship Dilemma
April 22, 2014
We live in a disposable society. Given the abundance of inexpensive products and
rapidly changing technology, most people choose to toss out their
underperforming items rather than attempt to fix them. Toaster not toasting? Not
a problem. There are a dozen or more to choose from at your local department
store, or better yet, order one online without leaving your favorite chair. Your
shiny new toaster will arrive on your doorstep within days, if not hours.
It seems to me, relationships have fallen prey to this same toss and replace
attitude, becoming revolving doors of half-hearted attempts at finding and
nurturing love. Why bother to diagnose and repair when there's another
potentially less demanding, less stressful, new and untarnished situation around
the corner, or better yet, on the internet, just waiting for you to log on?
So, what constitutes a relationship worth saving?
I'm a firm believer that as long as two (or more) people love each other and
still want the same things, then the relationship has a chance of survival. It's
a matter of working together to find a way past the obstacles in the way of
happiness. In the real world it's a sad truth that no matter how hard a couple
tries, sometimes they can never get back to what they had before. Thankfully,
I'm in the business of writing happy-ever-after endings! :-)
In SPRING TRAINING - Mustangs
Baseball #5, Brooke and Todd, who you first met in FREE AGENT, have come to a
crossroads in their relationship. After taking the big step of living together
in a full-time Master/slave situation, they're on the brink of tossing away over
a year of happiness together because the path they've taken has proven more
difficult to traverse than they could have imagined. Fearing he will lose Brooke
forever if he doesn't do something to repair the damage, Todd takes advantage of
the Mustangs extended trip to Arizona for Spring Training to order up some
coaching—for both of them. After all—it takes discipline to play the
Readers - What's your take on the revolving door relationship mentality?
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After months of frustrating failures, Todd's relationship with Brooke is
teetering on the edge of self-destruction. Entering into a full-time
Master/slave lifestyle without proper instruction was a mistake he's determined
to correct, so, after arranging a training program at home for Brooke, Todd
heads to Arizona with the Mustangs for some Spring Training of his own.
Overwhelmed by her lessons, and suspicious as to what her master is doing,
Brooke pulls a disappearing act on her instructor, showing up in Arizona to find
the Mustangs' Training Camp isn't the only work out Todd is receiving. The
training is brutal, but with the help of Mistress Lola the couple learn to live
the lifestyle they've chosen.
Todd hated to leave her, but what choice did he have? Spring
Training wasn't an "if you feel like attending" event, and the way things had
been between the two of them, he couldn't take Brooke with him. They needed to
consider her bakery, too. Baked by Brooke thrived, thanks to her hard work and
determination. Leaving the business in the hands of her hired help for six weeks
wasn't an option.
His grip tightened on the handle of his computer bag. Taking a deep
breath, he relaxed his fingers, setting the chocolate-colored leather case, a
Christmas gift from the woman standing across the room, next to his
Tears streamed down Brooke's flushed cheeks. Her usually luminous
eyes were flat and rimmed in angry red.
"Brooke." He took a step toward her, and she took an answering step
She'd been his sub long enough to recognize the tone of voice he
used when he expected her complete attention and compliance. Though from her
defiant stance, he wouldn't know it. Reining in his anger, he tried once again
to reason with her.
"I know you trust me, so I don't understand why this is so difficult
for you. You've literally put your life in my hands countless times, babe." He
hoped the use of the endearment would get through to her, but her arms remained
knitted over her midsection as if she was trying to hold herself together. Maybe
if he stated the obvious one more time.
"I can't stay, and you can't go with me."
"I know that!"
Her insolent reply cut him to the core. How did we get to this
point? With only a few minutes left to affect a change in her thinking, he
didn't have time for another pointless argument.
Deliberately dropping his volume so she'd have to concentrate to
hear him, he ignored her outburst. "We've been over this. You said you wanted a
deeper relationship when we left The Dungeon. You said you wanted a
twenty-four/seven arrangement, but you've defied me at every turn. I don't know
anything else to do but this. Have you forgotten what our contract
She shook her head, indicating she understood the clause he referred
to, but there had been too many misunderstandings already, so he spelled it out
for her. "You agreed to abide by my judgment on all things regarding your
training and discipline. All things, Brooke. If you've changed your mind,
then say so. We can void the contract right now if that's what you
Fresh tears followed the tracks left by her seemingly non-stop
crying. Each salty drop was like acid, eroding away his conviction. He didn't
want to end their relationship, but they couldn't continue the way they'd been
going. Something needed to change, one way or another.
"Do you want to end this, Brooke?"
Her gaze snapped to his. Finally. "No! God, no."
"Then you will submit to my will in this." He stepped closer, close
enough to touch her, but his hands remained fisted at his sides. "The way we've
become... It's my fault. I promised to see to your needs, and I haven't. I let
you keep things to yourself. I let you defy me, and I withheld punishment when I
knew better. I apologize for my shortcomings as your Master. Trust me, Brooke,
this time apart will be good for both of us. Frank is well respected as a
trainer. He'll take good care of you while I'm gone. He has my full permission
to deal with you as he sees fit. He'll do whatever it takes to teach you how to
live the life you claim you want."
"I want to be your slave, not his."
Todd stifled a sigh. He'd enjoyed Brooke's sassy personality at The
Dungeon, but dealing with it in a complete slave/Master relationship had proven
difficult. "Don't use that tone with Frank," he warned. "He won't appreciate
A flicker of something flashed in her eyes. Fear? God, he hoped
"He's prepared a discipline program that you will adhere to. If you
deviate, you'll take whatever punishment he thinks necessary." He let the
warning sink in before reassuring her. "Remember, I'll see every minute you
spend with him. I'll watch the live feed whenever I can, and when I can't, I'll
watch the recordings. I'll follow your progress closely. For the next few weeks,
Frank will be your Master, but everything he does, he does because I
"Thank you, Master."
His blood heated at her soft-spoken concession. Ever since he'd told
Brooke about his plan, she refused to use the title he, admittedly, didn't
deserve. That she used it today gave him hope.
"I promise you everything will be all right."
"I want to make you proud, Sir." The slump of her shoulders nearly
broke his heart.
"None of this is your fault, subbie. I couldn't be more proud of you
than I am right now. I've seen you struggling to interpret my needs without
proper direction. I made you a promise when we signed the contract, and I didn't
fulfill that pledge. This time apart isn't a punishment. Think of it as a
learning period." For both of us.
He was determined to understand what it was like to be a sub so he
could be a better Master for Brooke. "Scared out of his mind" didn't half cover
the ice-cold fear running through his arteries. Frank had hooked him up with a
woman in Phoenix willing to take him on. She'd vowed to initiate him into the
world of subservience in six weeks. Although he couldn't imagine what that would
entail, he knew it wouldn't be pretty. But, as they say, failure wasn't an
option. Brooke needed him to be a better Master, and the only way he could do
that was to understand what went on in her mind.
He wanted nothing more than to make her wishes come true, if only
she would tell him what they were. "What? Tell me."
I'm not a fan of the revolving door relationship mentality. (Pam Howell 10:03am April 22, 2014)
You hit the nail on the head when you said "when two (or more) people love each other and want the same things." It takes a lot of work to keep a relationship together, but when one party does all of the work, only to have the other party sit there stagnant, the working party can fall out of love very easily. That would be one case for them to walk away from the relationship. There are also other cases, such as spousal abuse, etc., which would be reasons to not walk, but run away from the relationship. I've been there, and it isn't fun to walk away, after devoting so many years to a person, but sometimes you just have to. Would seeking help work?? I don't know, but he suggested it when it was too late. I had told him a million times what was wrong, and he ignored me. I walked on the million and first time. That's when it was too late!! You can't say I wasn't patient, and I won't go into specifics. Although there will always be a small part of me with him, I can't go back in time. I know how he is to live with, and that's the impossible part. I now have a new life, and have been happily married for over 30 years to the person I should have married in the first place!! (Peggy Roberson 10:34am April 22, 2014)
Would rather resolve than revolve! (Elaine Seymour 12:11pm April 22, 2014)
i really cant wait to read this sounds really good (Denise Smith 12:48pm April 22, 2014)
I don't like revolving door relationships. I think there should be some form of commitment between all the parties involved in the relationship. (Marcy Shuler 5:21pm April 22, 2014)
No revolving relationships in this house! We just celebrated our 53rd anniversary last month! (Patricia Cochran 10:05pm April 22, 2014)
I give the revolving door relationship thing a big thumbs down. (Donna Long 5:13pm April 23, 2014)
Thumbs down! I think it takes time and effort to build a good relationship. (Sue Ahn 2:29am April 24, 2014)
Thumbs down, would make you feel lost. It takes lots of work to understand and care about someone else, it it worth it! (Darci Paice 10:03am April 24, 2014)
i think i must read this one (Debbi Shaw 12:29pm April 24, 2014)