Once upon a time I was the queen of anxiety. Terrified of riding in cars or going anywhere new. Flying in a plane? Excruciating panic overload.
But I never imagined anything other than my own issues might be behind it until, back in autumn 2021, I was at my eye doctor’s office. I was in for a quick laser procedure to clear away scar tissue that had developed in my left eye after cataract surgery.
This was truly no big deal. It took five minutes tops when it occurred. But while I waited my turn, I developed full blown panic so bad that part of me sat back and said, Whoa! This is way out of proportion. I was reacting like I was in a plane going down.
Afterward I suspected something else was going on. I asked my spirit guides, my inner community, and Mother-Father God to help me get to the bottom of it.
About that inner community. As a Sunan storyhealer, I do a daily meditation that enables me to talk to all parts of my energy-consciousness. I converse with the spiritual, mental, physical, and emotional aspects of my whole self.
Those aspects are my inner community. Our discussions are frank, fruitful, and often highly emotionally charged. But such daily exchanges are essential for my healing and self-growth.
One of those aspects, my emotional body, shows herself as a tall Zulu warrior with a long spear who calls herself Zula. Fast forward to mid-2022. I became aware that Zula had that spear out and was hunting for something. The chase through my field of energy-consciousness took an entire weekend (my time).
Finally, she caught it on that spear and showed it to me. It was a dark mass of nothingness. A demon. Lurking in my consciousness for who knows how long.
With my wholehearted agreement, she cast that entity out of my energy. Then I and all my aspects did some heavy-duty cleansing and releasing. I felt lighter and more hopeful.
A couple of weeks later, however, a stranger phoned, pretending to be from my bank, reciting the last four digits of my social security number, obviously wanting more such info. I spent the entire morning freezing my credit and setting up extra bank security measures.
And I knew I had unfinished demon business, just as the heroines in my high fantasy series, Stoneslayer, literally wrestled with multiple demons. I asked Zula to start another hunt. I also asked to know how/when/why I had let these nonentities into my energy/consciousness.
The answers, in Part 2, were chilling yet profoundly healing. And after that, a joyous huge surprise awaited me that I never planned on or even thought possible.
Candace Lynn Talmadge is a USA-based author of dark high fantasy about political intrigue, demonic warfare, and spiritual awakening. Get a free excerpt from Stoneslayer: Book One Scandal when you sign up for her free author newsletter on her Substack channel, Wider Realities.
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