It seems that lately the best books I have read are the ones that just happen
to fall in my lap. I was sent All The Numbers by
Judy Merrill
Larsen from Random House. They have the knack of sending me books that
pull at my heart strings. Emotional and full of drama, these books make
excellent choices for a book club discussion. This particular novel has a sweet
cover depicting a child and perhaps his mother. Immediately, it grabbed my
attention. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined the intense emotions
that would surface when I read it. All too often we hear that life is a precious
gift. Don't waste it! There is no dress rehearsal! You only get one chance!
Carpe Diem! You've heard all these phrases, but have you stepped back and
examined your life to see if you are following this sage advice? In All The Numbers,
Judy quite eloquently takes the reader on a journey that punctuates the reality
of these well worn phrases.
Like the main character in the story, I, too, am a mom of two boys. As I
voraciously turned each page, it felt like I was on an emotional rollercoaster
ride. Judy touched upon every emotion in my body as I sobbed and sniffled
through the pages. I can honestly say that I have NEVER cried so much while
reading a book and I actually wanted to finish it! This one hooked me. It is
well written, emotionally raw and surprisingly uplifting, which is a
difficult task for an author, especially a debut author none-the-less, to
accomplish so elegantly. If this is what we can expect from Judy in every
subsequent novel, I definitely want to read everything she ever writes. Mark my
words! This author is one to watch!
My favorite part of the entire interview process is getting to know the
writer through Email. Judy is so pleasant and down-to-earth. I truly enjoyed
working with her. As part of this interview, Judy has generously donated five
books to Fresh Fiction! As always, check at the end of the column for a chance
to win a copy for yourself! Good Luck!
Go grab a
glass of iced tea and get to know Judy Merrill
Larsen!
Jen: Please tell us a little bit about your educational and
professional background.
Judy: I graduated from The University of Wisconsin (Madison) with a
degree in English and Education in 1982. I taught high school English until 1987
in Madison. I then was lucky enough to be able to stay home with my sons when
they were little, and then I returned to the classroom in 1993 after we had
moved to St. Louis. I taught in Florissant for 7 years (during that time I
received a Master's Degree from Washington University) and for the past 5 years
I have been at Kirkwood High School. I am leaving the classroom at the end of
this school year to write full-time, which is a little scary but also very
exciting.
Jen: Have you always dreamed of becoming an author?
Judy: Yes. I first wrote away to a writing school (I think from the
back of a matchbook or the TV Guide) when I was 10. My first rejection letter
was from Tiger Beat in about 1971. I had entered the "Dream Wedding" contest. I
think my dream groom was Bobby Sherman. In high school I filled notebooks with
bad teenage poetry and took several creative writing classes in college.
Jen: What made you take the leap and actually write the book?
Judy: I had set a goal for myself that I would get to Europe and
write a novel before I turned 40. So, in the summer of 1999, I took my sons to
Europe for 17 days and then came home and wrote the first draft of this book. I
turned 40 the following April.
Jen: Take us inside your mind. Exactly how do you write? Plot first?
Characters? Outline? Summary?
Judy: It's a combination of characters and plot. For All the
Numbers, I had a moment sitting on my best friend's dock at her lake house where
I imagined the jet-ski accident and then saw the final scene. So, the plot and
the characters were completely intertwined. I then started writing, letting
Ellen, the main character show me how she got to that final scene.
Jen: From start to finish, how long did it take for you to complete
the novel?
Judy: I wrote the first draft in six weeks. But that first draft was
only one-third of what it eventually became. I spent the next four summers
filling in the spaces as the characters let me know them more and more. The very
first scene, the prologue, was actually the last thing I wrote. When I tell
people that it was a five or six-year process they seem amazed, but it was all
truly a labor of love. It became, in a way, something that I couldn't NOT
do--when I'm writing, I find myself thinking about my characters all the time,
so when I actually sit down with my legal pads to write or revise, it all just
flows out of my pen.
Jen: Whose opinion do you value most when it comes to critiquing your
work?
Judy: Well, the person who has turned out to be my best critic is my
husband. He was first pretty nervous about saying this needed to be changed or
that needs to be expanded, but I trust him completely because his comments are
so right on target. He was the one, very early on, who suggested ways to make
the trial scenes more powerful in All the Numbers. And that made such a
difference. When I am in the middle of a book, I love to sit and talk with him
about it--he listens incredibly well and often the ideas just start to flow. But
then, of course, I have to get up from whatever we are doing and jot down what
we just talked about.
Jen: Tell us about the process you went through to get your book
actually published.
Judy: I truly had no idea what was involved when I first started
out. I was introduced to my agent after attending a summer workshop at The
University of Iowa in 2004. That was absolutely my lucky break. Once I signed on
with her, I did another revision, and then she submitted it to editors. In her
first round of submissions, I received the offer from Ballantine, which has been
wonderful. I worked on another round of revisions, and then it was done.
Jen: I read All The Numbers in two days because I just had to
find out what happened at the end. How did you come up with the premise?
Judy: I was sitting on a dock at a lake and it came to me in a
flash. My children were playing with family friends and a jet skier went past
them. And I looked at them and at my friend and just began to wonder and imagine
the worst. At the time, I didn't know it would become a novel, but everyday that
school year, as I drove to and from school (at that time it was a 40 minute
commute each way) my mind would wander to Ellen and her sons and what they were
going through and who they were becoming. So, in June, when I sat down to write,
the story was fully in mind. Friends have asked if it's hard for me to go back
to the lake house, and it isn't. I love the lake house just as Ellen and her
sons do. I almost feel like the book, in a sense, is a love letter to the lake
and the friendships that have flourished there.
Jen: The lake plays a major role in the development of the plot. Did
you grow up on a lake or vacation on one?
Judy: As I mentioned before, I am lucky enough to have a best friend
with a lake house, and for the past 25 years I've been able to go there every
summer. It's one of my favorite places in the world. It was easy to write about
the lake and Madison because I feel so at home there; I know it so well.
Jen: Ellen, the main character, has experienced a failed marriage.
Why did you chose that fate for her rather than giving her a happy marriage torn
apart by a tragedy?
Judy: You know, I never even considered it any other way. That's the
way Ellen presented herself to me and so I just wrote her story. Being a single
mom is who she was. That was never in my power to change. There's probably a lot
of me in Ellen (I was a single mom with two boys, I'm an English teacher, I'm
not the greatest housekeeper, I love to cook) but I didn't necessarily decide to
have a main character like me. I think that since the idea of the story came to
me when I was with my best friend and our children, the characters have some
similarities. But, whenever a friend would refer to Ellen as me (or one of the
sons as one of my own sons), I would clarify that these were invented
characters. I had to have that distance so I could write honestly. That's also
why I didn't write it in first person narration. I needed that distance between
the character's voice and the author.
Jen: The emotions throughout the book are so gripping and at times
frankly raw that it felt as if you, too, had experienced a tragedy in your life.
Have you experienced a similar loss?
Judy: Fortunately, I have not experienced the loss of a child. But,
as a mother, I have had terrifying moments when I thought I might. And when I
hear of parents whose children have died, I am in awe that they can continue to
function. So, as I got to know Ellen, I put myself, as much as could in her
shoes. I tried to think, IF I had to deal with such a loss, what would my
reaction be. I don't think I'd be noble or reflective at first--I know I'd be
angry. So I just imagined the very worst. At times it was really hard to do
so--and as Ellen grieved, so did I.
Jen: At times, it was frustrating to see the pain Daniel was going
through as his mom stood by oblivious to his suffering. Did you do a lot of
research to accurately portray the emotions that a child and mother would
experience when faced with a tragedy?
Judy: Again, I think my research was more soul-searching. I have two
sons, and I know there have been times when I've been too caught up in my own
worries or stress or sadness and they've slipped from my focus. I hated when
that happened, but I know that it did. As a high school teacher I've also had
the opportunity to observe lots of other kids, so I'm sure I drew on that at
times as well. I think I also wrote as a way to deal with my fears. Whenever I
start worrying that I have some new illness or that something has happened to
one of my children, one of the ways I deal with that is to play it all out in my
mind--whom would I call, then what would I do, then what and etc. So, since as a
mother, my greatest fear is losing a child, I tried to face this fear through
Ellen
Jen: Ellen's best friend played a crucial role in the novel as a supportive
friend and confidant. I think the scene where they confront each other with
their thoughts of silently hoping it was the other's child and not their own who
got hit by the Jet Ski was quite moving. It's something we all would think but
never would say. Why was this confession so crucial to the plot and to their
friendship?
Judy: I think it's just totally honest. And for Ellen and Anna,
given what has happened in their lives, there is no room for anything but
honesty. I think grief and trauma do that--it strips away the façade and leaves
just truth. Again, I don't formally outline what the characters are going to
say. Sometimes I feel like an eavesdropper on their conversations. I often don't
know what they are going to say until my pen records it for me.
Jen: Of course, organ donation is an essential part of this book. Why
did you add this element to the already heartbreaking death scene of James?
Judy: Over the years, I've seen people on the news who have donated
a loved one's organs after an accident, and I'm always struck by how calm they
seem. How they sometimes even say that this helped them in their grief. And I've
always thought, wow, they must be totally in shock or I'm a much less giving
person. While I believe in organ donation and have told everyone that I want to
be a donor when I die, I just think that for me, in the moment, especially if it
was my child, while I'd definitely donate the organs, it wouldn't make me feel
better anytime soon. That's just what I believe my honest reaction would be.
Jen: Who is your favorite character in this book and why?
Judy: Oh, it changes. I most relate to Ellen because we're quite a
bit alike. My heart goes out to Daniel though--he's suffering and in many ways
is the real catalyst for Ellen's change. I was also surprised to find out how
much empathy I began to feel for Ben Buchanan (the driver of the jet-ski) as the
book progressed. And of course I still tear up at times over James.
Jen: Ellen experiences a self-discovery of sorts. What did she take
away from the tragic accident?
Judy: I think she learns forgiveness. And that revenge isn't usually
the cure. I hope she learns that love survives no matter what, even in death.
And that life goes on even when we don't think it possibly can. And there can be
happiness again.
Jen: What did you learn from writing this book?
Judy: I learned to never ever give up. I learned that you might have
to fail a few times before you taste success. And I learned that I will never
get on a jet ski.
Jen: If the book were made into a movie, who would you like to see
play Ellen?
Judy: Oh, this is one of my favorite games for my friends and me to
play. I've often suggested Helen Hunt because I think she's wonderful. Or Tea
Leoni or Reese Witherspoon. Maybe Maura Tierney who plays Abby on ER. I've also
joked that I want Dennis Quaid to play Bob Hansen, but then I'd want to be the
kiss-double for whoever plays Ellen.
Jen: Are you writing a new book? If so, what can you tell us about
it?
Judy: I am working on a second book. It's about a woman who teaches
cooking classes and is fed up with bad dates, which she hates almost as much as
she hates shaving her legs. So, she decides that if she never shaves again
she'll never have to go out on a date. Of course, as soon as she makes that
decision she meets a great guy. It's funny and sweet and full of recipes.
Jen: Any appearances planned for the Baltimore Area and do you have a
web site?
Judy: None yet! I do--JudyMerrillLarsen.com--it is just getting put together and
will feature my upcoming schedule as well as contests for readers and other
links.
Thank you so much, Judy, for an awesome interview. I look forward to reading
your next book!
Until next month...Jen
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