This is a difficult question, if I knew what I knew now 10 years ago, I would do anything in my power to save someone close to me. But in the meantime, a lot of my friends and people I don't even knew, told me through my experience they started to appreciate their loved ones. This is difficult, my heart thinks if I could change everything, I could have saved my loved one, but my mind is telling me, you don't go and change the circle of life. In reality no, but I would love to read your book.