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Confessions on the 7:45

Confessions on the 7:45, October 2020
by Lisa Unger

Park Row
Featuring: Selena Murphy; Martha
352 pages
ISBN: 0778310159
EAN: 9780778310150
Kindle: B082Q4Q1MZ
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"Be aware of what you confess to strangers, it can change your life!"

Fresh Fiction Review

Confessions on the 7:45
Lisa Unger

Reviewed by Kathleen Kelly
Posted August 11, 2020

Thriller Domestic

CONFESSIONS ON THE 7:45 is a psychological thriller featuring protagonist Selena Miller. She is late one evening getting home and the train suddenly stops. A young woman by the name of Martha is sitting next to Selena. They start chatting and feel comfortable with each other. Martha shares her secret and Selena feeling comfortable with Martha tells her that she thinks her husband is sleeping with the nanny. In parting, Martha says what if your problems disappear? They part ways, never to see each other again. Or so Selena thought.

Then the nanny disappears, coincidence? Maybe, maybe not. In alternating chapters, the reader learns more about Selena and her failing marriage, her love of her children, and her relationship with her ex Will, who is now the family lawyer. Who is Martha, and what does she want? Her husband's infidelities finally catch up with him to the point of being dangerous and Selena needs to figure out what she wants to do in her marriage. Stay for the boys or leave, but fate takes that decision out of her hands. Her seemingly perfect life, the perfect husband will never be the same. 

The reader is swept away into each character's story, a diabolical story with murder and family secrets that keeps the reader turning the pages. I love a good mystery/thriller and Lisa never fails to create a story that will have the reader wanting more. The lies, deceit, and an ending that totally surprised me! I have not read a Lisa Unger novel in a long time and she certainly did not disappoint.

So if you are looking for a book that will become one of the best of the year, well in my mind,  similar to STRANGERS ON A TRAIN this one is for you! I totally recommend CONFESSIONS ON THE 7:45! 

 

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SUMMARY


From master of suspense Lisa Unger comes a riveting thriller about a chance encounter that unravels a stunning web of lies and deceit.

Be careful to whom you tell your darkest secrets…

Selena Murphy is commuting home from her job in the city when the train stalls out on the tracks. She strikes up a conversation with a beautiful stranger in the next seat, and their connection is fast and easy. The woman introduces herself as Martha and confesses that she’s been stuck in an affair with her boss. Selena, in turn, confesses that she suspects her husband is sleeping with the nanny. When the train arrives at Selena’s station, the two women part ways, presumably never to meet again.

But days later, Selena’s nanny disappears.

Soon Selena finds her once-perfect life upended. As she is pulled into the mystery of the missing nanny, and as the fractures in her marriage grow deeper, Selena begins to wonder, who was Martha really? But she is hardly prepared for what she’ll discover.

Expertly plotted and reminiscent of the timeless classic Strangers on a Train, Confessions on the 7:45 is a gripping thriller about the delicate facades we create around our lives.

Excerpt

PART ONE

All Our Little Secrets

“If you want to keep a secret, you must also hide it from yourself.”

George Orwell, 1984

Prologue

She watched. That was her gift. To disappear into the black, sink into to the shadows behind and between. That’s where you really saw things for what they were, when people revealed their true natures. Everyone was on broadcast these days, thrusting out versions of themselves, cropped and filtered for public consumption. Everyone putting on the “show of me.” It was when people were alone, unobserved that the mask came off.

She’d been watching him for a while. The mask he wore was slipping.

He, too, stood in the shadows of the street, a hulking darkness. She’d followed him as he drove, circling like a predator, then finding a place for his car under the trees. He’d parked, then sat as the night wound on and inside lights went out, one by one. Finally, he’d stepped out of his vehicle, closed the door quietly, and slipped across the street. Now, he waited. What was he doing?

Since she’d been following him, she’d seen him push his children on the swings in the park, visit a strip club in the middle of the day, drink himself stupid with his buddies viewing a game at a sports bar. She’d watched as he’d helped a young mother with a toddler and baby in a carriage carry her groceries from her car into her house.

Once he’d picked up a woman in a local bar, then out in the parking lot, they romped like animals in his car. Later, he went to the grocery store and picked up food for his family, his cart piled high with ice cream and Goldfish crackers, things his kids liked.

What was he up to now?

The observer only sees, never interferes. Still, tonight she felt the tingle of bad possibilities. She waited in the cool night, patient and still.

The clicking of heels echoed, a brisk staccato up the deserted street. She felt a little pulse of dread. Was there no one else around? No one else glancing out their window? No. She was the only one. Sometimes didn’t it seem like people didn’t see anymore? They didn’t look out. They looked down, at that device in their hands. Or in, mesmerized by the movie of past and future, desires and fears, always playing on the screen in their minds.

The figure of the young woman was slim, erect, confident. She marched up the street, sure-footed, hands in her pockets, tote over her shoulder. When he moved out of the shadows and blocked her path, the young woman stopped short, backed up a step or two. He reached for her, as if to take her hand, but she wrapped her arms around her middle.

There were words she couldn’t hear, an exchange. Sharp at first, then softer. On the air, far away, they sounded like calling birds. What was he doing? Fear was a cold finger up her spine.

He moved to embrace her, and she shrunk away. But he moved in anyway. In the night, he was just a looming specter. His bulk swallowed her tiny form, and together in a kind of dance they moved toward the door, at first jerking, awkward. Then, she seemed to give in, soften into him. She let them both inside. And then the street was silent again.

She stood frozen, unsure of what she’d seen. Later, when she realized what he’d done, who he truly was under the mask, she’d hate herself for staying rooted, hiding in the shadows, only watching. She’d tell herself that she didn’t know then. She didn’t know that beneath the mask, he was a monster.

  

Chapter One

Selena

 

            Selena loved the liminal spaces. Those precious slivers of time between the roles she played in her life.

She missed the 5:40 train because her client meeting ran long, knowing before she even left the conference room table that there was no way she would be home in time for dinner with her husband Graham and their two maniac boys Stephen and Oliver. The wild hours afterwards – showers, pajamas, random horseplay, vicious but brief sibling battles, television maybe if she could get either of them to sit still a minute -- that concluded in story time would have to unfold without her. Selena didn’t often work late; she made a point to be home on time. Chaotic as their evenings often were, that was the best part of her day.

            But when she did miss the train that night, it created a space that hadn’t been there before.  Just a little over two hours between the 5:40, which she normally took, and the 7:45 which she intended to catch after finishing up a few things at the office.

In that gap, she could feel herself expand. She wasn’t working. She wasn’t mothering. She just was. She could think. And truth be told, Selena did have some things she needed to think about. These things were a white noise in the back of her mind.

            She slipped out of the cab she’d taken back to the office, into the cool autumn evening. The noise of the city washed over her, the manic rush of people on their way home after a long day.  Then she stepped into the hush of the quiet lobby, with its marble floors and gleaming walls. Selena nodded to the doorman who knew her, then swiped her card through the gates. Up the elevator alone.

Here her heart started thumping, mouth going dry. Her bag was too heavy, the tote pulling down on her tight shoulder muscles. She hadn’t missed the train on purpose; she really hadn’t wanted to cut the client off as he went on and on.

But.

            The office was empty. The literary agency had a small staff; most people with families. Many of the parents left before school pick up, then worked at home in the afternoons. Beth, her boss, also her lifelong best friend, had things set up like that so that people could work well and take care of their families – imagine that. It was the rare humane workplace.

            She didn’t bother flipping on the light in her office, enjoying the glittering downtown view through her big window. A rush of heat to her cheeks as she dropped her bag. She shifted off her jacket and sat in front of the computer and took a deep breath, before opening the lid on her laptop.

It was after 6:15 now. The boys would have had their dinner. If Selena knew their nanny Geneva and the efficiency with which she ran the show, Oliver and Stephen would also be showered and in jammies. She probably had them settled in front of the television already.

Selena leaned back in her ergonomic chair, felt its pleasant tilt.

She hadn’t planted or hidden the camera. She had just moved it from the boys’ bedroom, and told neither Graham nor Geneva about it.

She paused another second. Her desk was cluttered with framed pictures of the boys and Graham, drawings from school, a ceramic owl Oliver had made at art camp. She picked up the glazed misshapen thing; he’d carved his name in the clay bottom. She touched the ridges of the wobbly “o,” the backwards “e.” Somewhere she heard a vacuum cleaner running.

Her wedding picture – where her smile beamed, and Graham was dashing in his classic tux. He’d whispered to her while the photographer snapped away – dirty things, funny things. Then: This is the best day of my life. His breath in her ear, his arms around her. Her whole body tingled with joy, with desire. Nearly ten years ago now. God, it was a heartbeat, a blink, a single breath drawn and released.

She put the photo down. Then, she clicked on the app that would allow her to watch on her laptop the video feed from the camera she had placed in the boys’ playroom.

It took a moment for the image to load.

When it did, she was not surprised by what she saw.

Graham, her husband, was fucking Geneva, her nanny, on the activity rug that Selena and Graham had carefully selected together at Ikea.

The volume was down, so she was spared their grunting and moaning.

When had she started to suspect? About two weeks ago. She happened to catch a glance between Graham and Geneva. Something that small, a millisecond, a micro expression.

No, she’d thought. Surely not.

But she’d moved the camera.

This was the second time she’d watched them. A weird calm came over her, a kind of apathetic distance from the whole thing.

Geneva wasn’t that hot, Selena thought, as she watched the young woman who had shiny, wheat colored hair, and flushed cheeks. Selena leaned closer to the screen, to see the girl more clearly. Attractive, certainly. But not much more so than Selena.

Okay. The other woman was a bit younger -- but only by a few years. Maybe there was a softness to her that Selena lacked, a freshness. But she was nothing special. In fact, Geneva’s just slightly above average looks was a point that Selena had taken into consideration when hiring her as a nanny. Geneva was a reasonably attractive, smart, personable career child care professional with a long list of glowing references. She was no bombshell. No glowing twenty-something with glossed lips and inappropriately placed tattoos she would later regret. Most women, Selena included, knew better than to bring some nubile hottie into her home on a regular basis. It just wasn’t good business.

Besides, Geneva was known to Selena – coveted, in fact. They’d met on the playground during Selena’s first year home with the boys. Work, the commute, the race to pick up from pre-school, the balancing act that never quite balanced. It had worn her to a nub. She and her husband Graham decided that she should stay home for a time – indefinitely. They could afford that – Graham made good money. There wouldn’t be Range Rovers and trips to Tahoe every spring break. But they would be fine.

Selena had loved the way Geneva was with the Tucker boys, Ryan and Chad. She was sweet but firm, prepared but not anal. The boys listened to her. Eyes on me, she’d say brightly, and so it was. Geneva wasn’t like the other nannies Selena observed at the park – millennials staring at their phones while their charges ran amok or stared at devices of their own. Geneva chased, pushed swings, played hide-and-seek.

And, you know, she was not that hot.

Lovely features—a button nose and full lips, dark, heavily lashed doe eyes, buxom but just the tiniest bit – pleasantly – plump. Broad in the beam, as her father used to say. In a nice way, the way of strong women built for physical labor. Selena was long and slim, a genetic boon for which she was grateful because god knows she didn’t have the time anymore to work for it.

She turned up the volume a little, listened to them groaning. Did it sound – forced?

Selena and Geneva had chatted almost daily. Selena’s boys – Oliver and Stephen loved her. Is Geneva going to be there? Oliver, her older, sometimes asked as they were headed to the park. Probably, Selena would answer, wishing that she had someone like Geneva, even just part time. Someone with whom she felt good about leaving her children. But she was happy enough to be home. She didn’t miss her publicity job. She’d never had that drive to accomplish that so many of her friends seemed to have. She just wasn’t wired that way. She liked working – the independence of it, the comradery, the satisfaction of doing something well. The money. But it had never defined her.

Graham: Oh, yeah. That’s so good.

She bumped the volume down again. Picked up one of the framed pictures of the boys, gazed into their flushed, joyful faces.

Motherhood defined Selena in a way that work hadn’t, the idea that she was there for her children – that she cooked their meals and kept their house, their schedules, their doctor appointments and haircuts. That she was there on car line, at parent-teacher conferences, school Halloween parties. It wasn’t sexy. It wasn’t always easy. There wasn’t a ton of cultural praise for the role, not really. But she found a level of satisfaction in it that she hadn’t found elsewhere.

Then Graham unexpectedly – well, did anyone ever expect it? -- lost his job. Not his fault, really. Publishing was shrinking, and his big salary was hard to justify in a flailing self-help imprint. That very same week, over cocktails, Selena’s good friend Beth serendipitously offered her a huge job – a licensing director position at Beth’s literary agency. Selena’s salary would be more than Graham’s, plus bonuses. Of course, there would have to be a nanny. Because Graham, well, he wasn’t exactly hardwired for caregiving. And finding a job is a full-time job, babe.

So, it felt like kismet when during a chat at the park – the very next day, when Selena was grappling for solutions to their problem --  Geneva told Selena that she was about to lose her job. Mrs. Tucker wanted to be home for a couple of years, she said.

When things were easy like that, it meant you were in the flow, didn’t it?  Isn’t that what they said these days? It made it easy for Selena to go back to work. It wasn’t necessarily what she wanted. But you did what you had to do, right? Graham would find another job. It wasn’t forever – though the money was nice.

The way the camera was positioned, Selena had the best view of Geneva – who apparently liked to be on top. Was it Selena’s imagination? Geneva didn’t seem that into it. Though from the look on her face and the movement of her lips, she was surely making all the appropriate noises.

On the other video feed from the downstairs camera, the boys were slack jawed in front of Trollhunters. They were both scrubbed clean, fed, and in their jammies, waiting for Selena.

Geneva was faultless on that count, which was odd to note in a moment like this. But Selena had really appreciated that Geneva wasn’t one of those nannies that tried to be the mommy. As soon as Selena returned home in the evenings, Geneva took her proper place, eagerly leaving as soon as she could, sometimes before Selena even came back downstairs from changing. The house was always clean, the boys were usually calm-ish – as calm as boys 5 and 7 could ever be. But they weren’t wild like they were when Graham was at the helm. On the rare occasions when Graham had the kids for the day, they’d be filthy, over-stimulated, out of routine – desperate for order and a way to calm themselves. Graham thought he was one of them, acted more like a corrupting older sibling than a parent.

Like now. As he boned the nanny in the playroom while his young sons watched television downstairs.

Why wasn’t she angrier about this?

It had been a buzz in the back of her head since the first time she’d watched them three days ago. A barely audible thrum, something she pushed away and pushed back, down, down, down. Why wasn’t she weeping with anger, the sting of betrayal, jealousy? Why hadn’t she raced home after the first discovery, raging, and tossed him out, fired Geneva? That’s what anyone would do.

But Selena was only aware of a kind of numbness that had settled after the first time, a mean, heartless apathy. But no. Beneath that numb layer inside was something else.

Now, Geneva had her head back in pleasure. Graham wore that helpless look he had right before he was about to climax; he kind of lifted his eyebrows a little, lids closed the way violin players did sometimes when they were rapt in their music. Selena realized she was clutching the arms of her chair so tightly that her hands ached.

She was distantly aware of another feeling, one she deeply pressed down for a good long time, long before this. At some point after the birth of their second child, Selena had started to dislike her husband. Not all the time. But with shocking intensity – the way he interrupted her when she was talking, hovered over her in the kitchen micromanaging, the way he claimed to share the housework, when he didn’t. At all. Surely it was true of all couples who had been together for a long time. Then he lost his job – sort of gleefully it must be said.

Oh, well, I was looking for a change. And you said you were missing work.

Had she said that? She didn’t think so, since she hadn’t been missing work.

At some point after that, when she’d come home to find him in the same athletic pants two days in a row, or when she checked the browser history on the computer and couldn’t find a shred of evidence that he’d been looking for a job at all, she started to hate him a little. Then more. That svelte and charming man in the tux, the one who made her laugh and shiver with pleasure, he seemed like someone from a dream she could barely remember.

Now, as she leaned in to turn up the volume and heard him moan beneath Geneva, the depth and scope of her hatred was primal. She understood for the first time in her life how people might kill each other – married people who once loved with passion and devotion, who once cried happy tears at the altar, and took a magnificent honeymoon, conceived beautiful children, built a lovely life.

That thing lurking inside her, it was pounding to get out. She could hear it. But she couldn’t quite feel it.

She’d been on autopilot with Graham, going through the motions, rebuffing his advances. If he’d noticed her distance, he hadn’t said anything. The truth was, it wasn’t the first time he’d cheated. But she thought they’d moved past it. There’d been counseling, tearful promises. She’d – foolishly it seemed – forgiven him and allowed herself to trust him again.

“Graham.”

The voice startled Selena, snapped her back to the present moment.

Geneva had climbed off Selena’s husband, already pulled her skirt down. Both times there had been hasty dressing afterwards, averted eyes and frowning faces. At least they had the decency not to lie around after sex, not to luxuriate on the playroom floor.

“This has to stop,” said Geneva. Selena heard the notes of shame, regret. Good. Good for you, Geneva!

Graham had pulled up his pants, sat on the couch and dropped his head into his hands.

“I know,” he said, voice muffled.

“You have a nice family. A beautiful life. And this is – fucked,” Geneva said, her face flushed.

Oh, Geneva, thought Selena crazily, please don’t quit.

“I think I should give notice,” said Geneva.

Graham looked up, stricken. “God, no,” he said. “Don’t do that.”

Selena laughed out loud. No, it wasn’t love. He wasn’t afraid of losing the lovely young Geneva. He was terrified that he would have to be the primary caregiver for Stephen and Oliver while he “looked for another job.”

“Selena relies on you,” he said. “She appreciates you so much.”

Geneva let out a little laugh, which made Selena smile, too, before she caught herself. How could Selena still like the woman who she’d just watch fuck her husband? She must be losing her grip. That’s what working motherhood did to you; it robbed you of your sanity.

“I doubt very much that she’d appreciate this,” Geneva said.

“No,” said Graham. He was pale with shame, rubbing at his jaw. He looked up and, with a strange rush of relief, for a second Selena saw him – her husband, her best friend, the father of her children.  He was still there. He wasn’t a fiction she’d created.

“Then, look,” said Geneva. She wrapped her arms around her middle, started moving toward the door. “You need to be around less. You need to find a job.”

“Okay,” he said. His hair was wild; it looked like he hadn’t shaved in days.

What did Geneva see in him? Truly? At least he and Selena had a history; their love affair had been epic, their travels full of adventure, their home life quite lovely. His infidelities, prior to this one, had been relatively minor. That’s what she’d told herself anyway – not affairs exactly. He’d been a decent husband until recently, a provider. He was her best friend, the person she wanted to share everything with first. Funny. Charming. Smart. Even now, in this ugly moment, she wished she could call him to talk about her monstrous husband who was fucking the nanny. He’d certainly know what to do.

 “Yeah,” he said. “I know.”

“It’s not a good idea for men to be home,” Geneva went on. “I’ve seen it a lot in recent years. It’s just – a bad idea usually.”

“Yeah,” he said again, sounding ever more dejected. Poor Geneva. She didn’t know she would have to be Graham’s nanny, too.

Selena slammed the lid on her laptop closed with more force than she’d intended, slipped it into the case, stuffed the case into her bag. She shouldered on her dark wool jacket, feeling a churning in her stomach.

She was angry, hurt, betrayed – she knew that. But it was dormant, lava churning in a deep chasm within her, pressure building. She’d always been this way, the surface calm, the depths rumbling. She pressed things down, away – until she couldn’t. The eruptions were epic.

By the time she’d reached the street, a pall had settled over her again. The gray numbness. The city was a crush. She pushed her way through the crowded streets to the subway, then through the bustling station to the platform, just catching her commuter train home.

She walked through the cars as the train jostled from the terminal.

There. A seat beside a young woman, who, for a moment looked almost familiar. She had straight black hair, mocha eyes, a slight smile on red lips. Svelte, stylish – even from a distance Selena instantly liked her. Seeing Selena move toward her, the other woman lifted her tote to make room. And Selena sank into the space beside her issuing what must have been a telling sigh. She clutched her People Magazine in her hand. All she wanted to do was lose herself in those fluffy, glossy pages for the next forty minutes, a blessed escape from her problems.

“Rough day,” asked the stranger. Her expression – a half smile on full lips, a glint in her dark eyes -- said that she knew it all. That she had been there. That she was in on the joke, whatever it was.

Selena half laughed. “You have no idea.”

 


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