Seanan McGuire
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October "Toby" Daye, a changeling who is half human and half fae, has been an outsider from birth. After getting burned by both sides of her heritage, Toby has denied the Faerie world, retreating to a "normal" life. Unfortunately for her, the Faerie world has other ideas...

The murder of Countess Evening Winterrose pulls Toby back into the fae world. Unable to resist Evening's dying curse, which binds her to investigate, Toby must resume her former position as knight errant and renew old alliances. As she steps back into fae society, dealing with a cast of characters not entirely good or evil, she realizes that more than her own life will be forfeited if she cannot find Evening's killer.

Excerpt

I woke up just after sundown with a pounding head and the vague, nagging feeling that something was wrong. Cagney and Lacey had somehow managed to open the bedroom door while I was sleeping, and had migrated from the couch to the warmer and hence more desirable bed. They started to wail as soon as they realized I was awake, Siamese voices vibrating my head like buzz saws. I groaned, clapping my hands over my ears. “Can't you two be quiet?” They didn’t oblige me. Cats never listen. They're dependable that way; when Rome burned, the Emperor's cats still expected to be fed on time.

The fae have always lived with cats. They’re the only mortal animals that can stand to have us around, and that holds true for all of us, even half-breeds like me. Dogs bark and horses shy away, but cats can look at Kings, and a lot of the time, they do. Cats put up with us, and in exchange, we treat them with respect, and we feed them. We’re related in a way, and I don’t just mean through the Cait Sidhe. We both tend towards pointed ears, stealing cream, and getting burned alive when the wind changes. It was only natural that we’d form an alliance where both sides said "I don't need you" and both answered "you'll still stay."

"All right, you win. I'll feed you. Happy?" I pushed Cagney off my chest. She jumped off the bed, joining Lacey on the floor, where the two of them continued to yowl as they made it clear that no, they wouldn't be happy until the food was in the dish. I rolled out of bed, retrieving my robe from the floor. The cats twined around my ankles, doing their best to trip me, and I pushed them ineffectively out of the way with my bare feet, heading for the door.

I got the cats so I wouldn't be so lonely. I was starting to reconsider that idea. Maybe lonely was a good thing. Lonely certainly got more sleep. In my blackest moods, I tried to tell myself the increased sleep was the one good thing about losing my mortal family; living with Cliff and Gilly forced me to pretend to be diurnal, and left me with a coffee addiction that verges on the epic. I don't know how much caffeine it takes to kill a changeling, but I may someday find out.

The cats fell back once I reached the hallway, letting me walk unencumbered to the kitchen, where I filled their bowl with kibble. As they descended on their feast, I put a pot of coffee on to brew and made myself a quick nighttime breakfast of toast and scrambled eggs. Protein, carbohydrates, and best of all, cheap as hell. Combine "minimum wage" with the San Francisco housing market, and that sort of thing becomes an issue.

My food was still cooking when the cats finished theirs. Cagney wandered out into the living room, while Lacey sat down in the middle of the kitchen floor and started to wash her paws, purring loudly.

"Laugh it up, brat," I said, eyeing the level of the still-brewing coffee as I waited, none-too-patiently. "We'll see how much cat food you get after we've been kicked out for not paying the rent." None of my magic was strong enough to make the landlord believe I'd paid him. I'd be out on my ass if I gave him the slightest excuse. He'd be fitting a new happy couple into my previously rent-controlled apartment before I had a chance to find myself a cardboard box to live in. Evening wouldn't solve my housing situation twice.

The fog in my head cleared as I ate, and I almost felt like myself by the time I'd finished my second egg on toast and third cup of coffee. I tossed the dishes into the sink, rumpling my hair with one hand as I walked back towards the bedroom. The answering machine light was still flashing. I paused.

"It's probably Stacy, but it could be work," I mused. "If it's work, it probably means coming in on my night off. But it also means there might be money left after I pay the rent. Guys? Opinions?"

The cats didn't answer. Cats are good that way. Their lack of answer saved me from needing to explain my secret, lingering fantasy, the one that woke every time the answering machine flashed: the hope that Gillian might have found my phone number forgotten on her father’s desk somewhere and decided to reach out for the mother she hadn't seen in fourteen years. It was never going to happen, but it was a wonderful dream.

What the hell. I needed the money, and it wasn't like my creditors could threaten me with anything I hadn't heard before. If it was Stacy, I could just delete the message. I leaned back against the wall, sipping my coffee, and pressed the button marked "play."

The speakers crackled, intoning, "You have three new messages," in a bland mechanical voice that cut off with a strident beep. I winced and reached for the volume control, intending to turn it down. I was still reaching when the playback began, and I forgot about everything but the message.

"October, this is Evening. I believe I may have a problem. In fact, I'm nearly sure of it." Her tone was clipped, tight with some unacknowledged worry. She always sounded repressed, but this was new; I'd never heard her sound scared. It takes a lot to scare most purebloods. It takes a lot more to scare someone as naturally scary as Evening herself.

"Evening?" I straightened.

Evening wasn't just someone I called to fish me out of jail cells: she was Countess of one of San Francisco's smaller fiefdoms, and sometimes, she was even a friend. I say "sometimes" because she and I had very different ideas about what "social standing" meant. She thought it meant she got to order me around because she was pureblooded and I wasn't. I disagreed. So we hated each other about half the time, but we spent the other half helping each other survive. I found the man who killed her sister and I cleared her name when she was accused of being behind the destruction of the Queen's Court; she bailed me out when I got a little too enthusiastic following the Duchess of Dreamer's Glass. If there was a pureblood other than Sylvester that I'd trust with my life, it was her.

Damn her anyway, for making me care.

"If you're there, please, please answer your phone. It's truly essential that I speak to you immediately. Call me as soon as you can. And October..." She paused. "Never mind. Just hurry." She hung up the phone, but before she did, I could have sworn I heard her crying.

The second message started immediately, before I had a chance to move, or even breathe. It was Evening again, sounding even more harried than before.

"October? October, are you there? October, this is Evening." There was a long pause. I heard her take a wavering, unsteady breath. "Oh, root and branch...October, please pick up your phone. I need you to answer your phone right now." It was like she thought she could order me to be home. There was no telling how much time had passed between messages, but it had been enough for the worry to stop hiding and come out to the surface of her voice, obvious and raw. The only other time I'd heard that much emotion in her voice was when her sister died, and while Dawn's death had broken the shell of her calm, even that hadn't lasted long. This wasn't sorrow. This was sheer and simple terror.

"Please, please, October, pick up the phone, please, I'm running out of time..." The message cut off abruptly, but not abruptly enough to hide the sound of her crying.

"Oak and yarrow, Eve," I whispered, "what did you get yourself into?"

I thought I wanted an answer. And I was wrong, because the last message answered me more completely than I could have dreamed.

The speakers crackled, once, before her voice began to speak for the final time.

"October Daye, I wish to hire you." The fear was still there, but the command and power that was her nature shone clearly through it, brilliant and terrible. She was looking at the end of everything, and it was enough to remind her of who she really was. "By my word and at my command, you will investigate a murder, and you will force justice back into this kingdom. You will do this thing." There was a long pause. I was starting to think the message had ended when she continued, softly, "Find out who did it, Toby, please. Make sure they don't win. I need you to do this, for me, and for Goldengreen. If you were ever my friend, Toby, please..."

She'd never called me Toby before. We'd known each other for more than twenty years, and I'd never been anything but October to her. I knew then what had happened to her, even though I didn't want to. I knew as soon as she started speaking, and I still wouldn't let it be true. I couldn't let it be true. Not moving, not breathing, I listened in stunned silence as she brought down what little remained of my world.

There was another long pause before she whispered, "Toby, there isn't much time. Please, pick up. I can't leave, and you're the only one I trust enough to call, so dammit, please! Answer your goddamn phone!" I'd never heard her curse before. The night was full of firsts, and I wasn't even out of my bathrobe yet. "I know you're there! Dammit, I am not going to let your laziness get me killed! Toby, damn you..."

She took a breath then, before continuing in a firm cadence. By the time I realized what she was doing, it was too late; I'd heard the binding begin, and I would listen until the end.

"By my blood and my bones, I bind you. By the oak and the ash, the rowan and the thorn, I bind you. By the word of your fealty, by my mother's will, by your name, I bind you. For the favors I have done you in the past, you promised that I could ask anything of you; this is my anything. Find the answers, find the reasons and find the one who caused me this harm, October Daye, daughter of Amandine, or find only your own death. By all that I am and all that I was and all the mercies of our missing Lord and Ladies, I bind you..."

I felt the curse catch hold, sinking thorny talons into my skin as the bittersweet smell of dying roses flooded my nose and mouth. I dropped my coffee cup and staggered backwards retching, clapping a hand over my mouth as I tried not to throw up. Promises bind our kind as surely as iron chains or ropes of human hair, and Evening had bound me with the old forms, the ones anyone with a trace of fae blood can use. No one uses the old bindings anymore, not unless things are so bleak that even our missing King and his Hunt couldn't mend them. They’re too strong, and too deadly.

The fae never swear by anything we don't believe in. We don't ask for thanks and we don't offer them; no promises, no regrets, no chains. No lies. If Evening said failure would kill me, it would kill me. I just hoped she had a good reason, or I was going to have to kill her myself.

"Oh, Toby, I'm sorry," she said, and put the phone down, not quite in the cradle. The connection continued. I don't know whether that was an accident or not, but I don't think it was. She wanted me to hear. She knew that if I heard what came next, I wouldn't even try to break the binding she had thrown over me.

It doesn’t matter. I’m still never going to forgive her.

The story the message told next was one I'd never wanted to hear, not on the worst of all my bad days. A door, slamming open; the sound of footsteps. Evening shouting something I couldn't quite make out...and a gun going off. Her voice rose in a soaring scream, only to be silenced by another gunshot.

I jumped to my feet, bile rising in my throat as I shouted an involuntary "No!" at the phone. Evening screamed again. The gun fired a third time, and the message ended, the machine hissing on for several seconds before it stopped with a small, final "click."

Somehow, that was what made it all seem real. I stared at the machine for a moment, breath hitching in my throat, then turned and bolted for the bathroom. I was fast enough, barely; I got to the sink before I threw up.

Time never runs backwards when I need it to. Not for me, and not for anyone else.

October Daye

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