The worst day of Cydney Parrish’s life was a Monday. The
last Monday in October. It began when she woke with a
start at 7:12 a.m. Her clock radio should have wakened her
at six, but the alarm was set on p.m. instead of a.m.
She’d forgotten to check it at 2 a.m. Sunday when she
turned the clocks back an hour from daylight savings time.
Cydney was particular about things like that. Obsessive,
her sister Gwen said, but if the Kansas City Star said set
your clocks at 2 a.m., Cydney set her clocks at 2 a.m. Who
cares when you set the damn clock, Gwen argued, so long as
you set it? Cydney cared, that’s who, and Cydney sprang
forward and fell back exactly at 2 a.m. every April and
October.
When she saw how late it was, she wanted to fall back
under the covers, but she sprang forward—into the shower,
into her clothes, into her office to grab her briefcase,
her portfolio and her camera case. She stopped just long
enough to pound on her niece Bebe’s bedroom door and yell
at her to get moving or she’d miss her first class.
Cydney was late for her first appointment. She dropped
into a chair in the lobby of Stellar Publications, one of
her biggest and best accounts, breathless and annoyed. She
was always on time, always. Unlike Gwen, whose tardiness
on photo shoots was legendary.
“They can’t start without me,” she’d say. “I’ve got the
camera.”
And an ego to match her genius with a 35mm Nikon in her
hands. Gwen Parrish had two Pulitzer Prizes. Cydney had a
mortgage and Bebe, Gwen’s nineteen-year-old daughter from
her first marriage. And spider veins, she thought sourly,
rubbingthe thready little red spot she’d found on the back
of her knee in the shower. She hoped it was just a bruise.
Thirty-two was too young for spider veins.
It was also too young to be hit on by Wendell Pickering,
art director of Bloom and Bulb magazine, a lanky man with
thinning hair and pale eyes. He made the pass once he
finished nitpicking the six-page spread on perennial
borders Cydney had stayed up until 3 a.m. to finish.
“I’m afraid I can’t approve this,” he said. “I might be
able to over dinner this evening if you think you can make
the corrections by seven-thirty.”
Then he smiled and laid his hand on her tush.
It was now 2:30 in the afternoon. Cydney had a parking
ticket in her purse, a headache and no Tylenol, a notebook
computer with a blown graphics card that thought it was an
Etch A Sketch, a roll of film a client had accidentally
exposed and would have to be reshot, a broken heel on her
best pumps, and now a man with a neck like a chicken who
actually thought she’d go out with him to salvage a $2500
photo layout.
“I’m busy tonight, Wendell,” Cydney said in her iciest
voice. Sticking my head in the oven, she thought. “Now
take your hand off me while you still can.”
He did. Quicker than you can say “sexual harassment.”
Cydney shoved the layout in her portfolio, told Pickering
she’d deliver the corrections to his secretary in the
morning and flapped out of Bloom and Bulb in the old pair
of loafers she’d dug out of the back of her blue Jeep
Cherokee when she broke her heel. The loose nail in the
left sole scraped the sidewalk and made her teeth clench
as she slid behind the wheel and slammed the door hard
enough to rock the truck.
Gwen was in Moscow interviewing Vladimir Putin for
Newsweek. She was in Kansas City, Missouri, fending off
Wendell Pickering. What was wrong with this picture?
I’m glad you asked, said the little voice that
occasionally made itself heard from the depths of her
psyche. I’ve been waiting for years to tell you.
“It’s a rhetorical question,” Cydney muttered, rubbing the
throbbing bridge of her nose. “I love my life.”
And she did. She really did. She loved her family and she
was proud of Sunflower Photo, the freelance photography
and graphics studio she’d built without any help from Gwen
or their parents. It was a rotten day, that’s all. A
thoroughly rotten day. Throwing in the towel wasn’t in
Cydney’s nature, but she’d simply had enough. She dug her
cell phone out of her briefcase, postponed her last two
appointments of the day till Tuesday, and drove to the
grocery store.
In the produce aisle she slipped on a grape and wrenched
her left ankle. She didn’t realize she was out of checks
and had only twenty bucks in her wallet—and no credit or
ATM cards—until the checker rang up $34.17. The people in
line behind her shifted and muttered while she gave back
fourteen dollars and seventeen cents’ worth of stuff.
“I’m going home.” Cydney gritted her teeth as she limped
the groceries out to her truck. “I’m going home and I’m
going to scream.”
And that’s exactly what she did, once she dumped the two
paper sacks on the kitchen table, walked down the hall,
opened Bebe’s door and saw her niece naked on the bed
underneath a young man with long blond hair. Bebe
screamed, too. So did the young man on top of her.
Cydney slammed the door and went back to the kitchen,
cheeks burning, hands shaking, brain reeling. She put the
milk away, took a dozen eggs out of a sack and dropped
them when Bebe came pelting through the doorway wrapped in
the sheet that moments before had been tangled around her
ankles. Her throat was flushed, her face shining as she
thrust the diamond ring flashing on the third finger of
her left hand in Cydney’s face.
“Look, Uncle Cyd!” she squealed. “I’m engaged!”
Egg yolk dripped into Cydney’s shoes. Dread dripped into
her heart. Sweet little Bebe, who didn’t have sense enough
to think her way halfway around a BB, was engaged.
Her niece’s smile faded and she bit her lip. “You don’t
look happy for me, Uncle Cyd.”
“This isn’t a good time to call me Uncle Cyd,” Cydney
warned. “This is a good time to call me long distance.”
“Because you caught us in bed?” Bebe thrust her hands on
her hips. Wisps of red hair worked loose from her long
single braid curled around her face. “Really, Aunt Cydney.
Aldo and I are engaged! I called Mother in Moscow. She is
delighted. She told us to celebrate our love!”
“Of course she did! She’s ten thousand miles away! She
doesn’t have to deal with this!” Cydney clapped her hand
over her mouth and the frustrated “I do!” she wanted to
shriek at Bebe. Instead she drew a breath and forced
herself to smile. “I’m sorry, Bebe. I’ve had a bad day,
that’s all.” She held out her arms. “C’mere, Red. I’m
happy for you.”
I think, Cydney thought, until an awful possibility struck
her. “You don’t have to get married, do you?”
“No, Uncle Cyd.” Bebe laughed and pulled out of her
embrace. “We want to get married.”
“For God’s sake, why?”
“That’s what Grampa Fletch said.”
“You called him, too?” Wonderful, Cydney thought. A long
distance call to her father in Cannes to add to the one to
Gwen in Moscow. “Did you call Gramma George?”
Bebe bit her lip and lowered her big brown eyes. “Uh—no.”
Of course not. Georgette Parrish, Cydney and Gwen’s mother
and Fletcher Parrish’s first wife, was a local call.
“I’ll do it,” Cydney said. As usual, she thought, lifting
her right foot out of a pool of egg yolk. “I suggest you
and—what’s his name?”
“Aldo.” Bebe beamed. “Aldo Munroe.”
“Right. Aldo.” The name Munroe rang a bell, but Cydney was
too rattled to think why. She kicked off her loafer and
made a face at the egg dripping off her stockinged
toes. “You and Aldo get dressed and we’ll talk.”
“Sure thing.” Bebe turned to leave, but spun back, her
eyes wide. “Oh, I almost forgot! Guess what? Mother is
getting married, too!”
“I’ll call a press conference,” Cydney shot back, ripping
a paper towel off the roll and stuffing it in her shoe.
“That’s really sweet of you, Uncle Cyd, but Mother said
she’d do it herself when she gets home from Moscow.”
And away Bebe went, twirling out of the kitchen like a
lithe young goddess. She had Gwen’s innate grace and her
grandfather’s knack for looking drop-dead delicious in
anything. Or nothing.
On the inside of Bebe’s closet door hung a blowup of the
seminude Playgirl centerfold that Cydney and Gwen’s
father, Fletcher Parrish, New York Times best-selling
author of umpteen-jillion spy novels, had posed for when
Bebe was two years old. He’d done it as a birthday
surprise for his Nymphet Wife Number Three. Gwen had taken
the photo and given the poster to Bebe on her fourteenth
birthday. Cydney thought Bebe hanging the poster in her
room—even on the inside of the closet door—was creepy.
Bebe thought it was a hoot.
So why was she surprised, Cydney wondered, that she’d come
home in the middle of the day and found Bebe in bed with a
boy? Despite Gwen’s claim that she wanted a solid and
stable upbringing for her daughter, she’d spent the last
fifteen years that Bebe had been in Georgette and Cydney’s
care undermining the values she said she wanted for her
child. The poster, the birth control pills when Bebe was
sixteen—for which Cydney was suddenly grateful—the red
Mustang convertible, whirlwind shopping sprees to New York
to buy designer school clothes.
Why, indeed, was Cydney surprised? And why was she
standing in a puddle of broken eggs watching the
peppermint stick ice cream she’d bought melt through the
bottom of the grocery sack and drip off the edge of the
table?
Because Gwen was getting married, that’s why—for the fifth
time—and because Wendell Pickering was the best offer
Cydney had had since the last time Gwen had called a press
conference to tell the world she was getting married.
“Gwen is so much like Fletch,” Georgette was fond of
saying. “So focused and yet so carefree and impetuous. And
what charisma!”
What horse-hockey, Cydney’s little voice said, but she
ignored it and shoved the half-melted ice cream into the
freezer.
Gwen and Fletcher Parrish were driven and ruthless—People
magazine said so—their stunning successes and stellar
careers nothing more than overcompensation for failed
personal lives. Cydney had been so incensed by People’s
Father’s Day cover story—“Like Father, Like Daughter”—that
she’d canceled her subscription.
She’d also sent a blistering letter to People’s mail
column. She was Fletcher Parrish’s daughter, too, and she
wasn’t a failed anything. She owned her own home and her
own business, had lots of friends and a full social life.
So what if she wasn’t rich and famous like her sister
Gwen? What did wealth have to do with success?
“Oh, nothing much, honey,” her father said to Cydney on
the phone when he’d read her letter to the magazine. “Just
everything.” And then he’d laughed.
“How many times, Cydney,” Georgette said, “have I told you
to look before you leap?”
“If I’d known you felt so left out,” Gwen said, “I would
have insisted that you be included in the article.”
Well why wasn’t I? her little voice had demanded, but not
Cydney. She’d been too mortified to admit how hurt she’d
felt at being left out. Bebe was included. After all, she
was Gwen Parrish’s daughter. So was Georgette, who was
Gwen’s mother and a nationally syndicated etiquette
columnist ranked right up there with Miss Manners. People
had even sent a photographer.
The thing that hurt the most, besides the photographer
asking Cydney to drive him to the airport, was that her
family didn’t understand about the letter. Her point was
that fame and money were only two tiny little inches on
the ruler of success. There were lots of other inches,
like self-reliance and self-respect, being a giver and not
just a taker. Like being loved for your own sake, not for
who or what you are.
Cydney wiped the last of the eggshells off the floor and
threw the paper towel away. While she washed her hands,
she gazed out the window at the big maple tree shedding
vivid red leaves over the brick patio.
“I think I’ll go outside,” she said, “come back in and try
that screaming thing again.”
Go ahead, her little voice said, but it won’t change a
thing.