Kristine woke with a start to find Erik standing beside her
bed. He had been so angry earlier, she hadn’t expected him
to come to her that night. Recalling the rage that had
burned in his dark eyes when he found her in his room still
had the power to make her tremble.
He had extinguished the light she kept on the table at her
bedside. In the darkness, he loomed over her like the
shadow of certain death.
After unfastening his breeches, he threw the covers aside,
flung her gown up over her hips. Unreasoning panic rose up
inside her as his body covered hers. She didn’t want him to
take her like this, as if she were no more than a receptacle
for his lust, some tawdry harlot whose favor he had
purchased for the night. She knew he didn’t care for her,
but she was his wife. Surely she deserved some small
measure of respect.
She felt his hand on her breast, and suddenly, in the
darkness, it was Lord Valentine lying atop her, his hot
sweaty hands groping her. She closed her eyes, and
Valentine’s image rose up before her, his thick lips pulled
back, his pale blue eyes filled with lust as they raked her
body.
“No,” she whimpered softly. “Leave me alone, please just
leave me alone!”
Trevayne froze as she began to thrash beneath him.
“My Lord Valentine,” she sobbed, her eyes tightly shut.
“Don’t! Oh, please, please, let me go!”
“Kristine.”
Lost in the nightmare of the past, she writhed beneath him,
tears coursing down her pale cheeks.
“Kristine, it’s me, Erik,” he said, and then wondered why
that knowledge should soothe her. He had given her no
reason to trust him.
“No, don’t...don’t...” She sobbed the words.
Swearing softly, he sat up and drew her into his arms.
“Kristine, you are safe here. Listen to me! I will not
hurt you. No one will ever hurt you again, I swear it.”
Opening her eyes, she stared at him blankly a moment. “My
lord?”
“You’re safe now, Kristine,” he murmured. “I’ll not bother
you again.”
Carefully, he lowered her back onto the mattress, drew her
gown down over her hips, and pulled the covers up to her
chin.
Turning away from the bed, he fastened his breeches, then
walked toward the door. He was reaching for the latch when
she called his name.
“Erik?”
“What?”
“Will you not stay with me?”
He went still, hardly daring to breathe. “Why?”
“I don’t want to be alone. I...I don’t want you to be
alone.”
“We can’t always have what we want.”
“Please, my lord, won’t you stay with me until I fall
asleep?”
Every instinct he possessed urged him to leave the room.
Instead, he retraced his steps to the side of the bed and
sat down on the edge of the mattress. “Go to sleep,
Kristine.”
He could not see her face in the darkness, but he heard her
soft sigh as she snuggled under the covers.
“Thank you, my lord.”
He made a soft, wordless sound deep in his throat. He
wondered how long she had spent in prison, if that was the
reason she feared the darkness, the reason she kept a lamp
burning at her bedside throughout the night.
He took a deep breath, his nostrils filling with the warm
sweet scent of her - the soap she had bathed with, the
peppermint she used to sweeten her breath, the scent of
lilacs that clung to her skin. It was part of the curse,
his heightened sense of smell, of taste. His hearing was
more acute. He could hear each soft breath she took.
He clenched his left hand, shoved his right hand into his
pocket to keep from touching the curve of her cheek, the
short silky cap of her hair.
Desire rose within him, a desire to bury himself within her.
He yearned to shed his clothes and his accursed mask and
enfold her in his arms, feel the heat of her skin against
his ...
His body hardened painfully. Why was he sitting here,
torturing himself with her nearness? He was not her
nursemaid, nor her governess. If she was afraid of the
dark, she had a lamp at her bedside.
But he didn’t leave the room, only continued to sit there,
his hands tightly clenched, until the soft, steady sound of
her breathing told him she was asleep.
Hating her, hating himself, he lit the lamp at her bedside
and then left the room, left the house.
Outside, he removed his mask, ripped off his glove and his
shirt, and then he began to run. He threw back his head,
and the deep-throated sound of his despair pierced the
darkness in a long mournful howl.