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At Dark, I Become Loathsome by Eric LaRocca

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Also by Eric LaRocca:

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At Dark, I Become Loathsome, February 2025
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AT DARK, I BECOME LOATHSOME
By: Eric LaRocca

Big Bald Head
February 2025
On Sale: January 28, 2025
175 pages
ISBN: B0CZ4MXVZF
EAN: 9798212179027
Kindle: B0CZQGCTYT
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Horror | LGBTQ

From Eric LaRocca—Bram Stoker Award–nominated and Splatterpunk Award–winning author of Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke—comes At Dark, I Become Loathsome, a grim yet gentle, horrifying yet hopeful, intense tale of death, trauma, and love.

"If you're reading this, you've likely thought that the world would be a better place without you."

A single line of text, glowing in the darkness of the internet. Written by Ashley Lutin, who has often thought the same—and worse—in the years since his wife died and his young son disappeared. But the peace of the grave is not for him—it's for those he can help. Ashley has constructed a peculiar ritual for those whose desire to die is at war with their yearning to live a better life.

Struggling to overcome his own endless grief, one night Ashley finds connection with Jinx—a potential candidate for Ashley's next ritual—who spins a tale both revolting and fascinating. Thus begins a relationship that traps the two men in an ever-tightening spiral of painful revelations, where long-hidden secrets are dragged, kicking and screaming, into the light.

Only through pain can we find healing. Only through death can we find new life.