Chapter One
Autumn
Somewhere in the Atlas Mountains
Morocco
It was coming again.
She'd counted out the intervals between the agonizing
jolts of electricity and they were always the same.
One–hundred and eighty seconds. Three short
minutes.
Not enough time to completely stop the involuntary
muscle spasms from the last one, but enough time to hope it
wouldn't come again.
It always did.
Still, a more experienced interrogator would vary the
duration of both the torturous jolts and time between them,
but these were the underlings. Men who were obviously not
used to interrogating women. Though they didn't seem to
mind hurting Rachel. Nor did they get overt pleasure out
of it like the man she'd been investigating would.
Abasi Chuma. Egyptian financier and trader with ties to
the nomadic people who still carried goods (and Rachel
suspected information secrets and illegal weapons) across
the desert and country borders on the backs of camels.
He was also a sick, sadistic asshole whose sexual
proclivities ran to inflicting pain to get his rocks off
and who thought nothing of leaving bruises on his young and
still innocent fiancée. The woman had been
Rachel's "friend" and unwitting informant for the past nine
weeks. An information asset that Rachel could not give up.
Would not give up.
So, she continued to play the nosy tourist caught
snooping where she shouldn't have been role. And they kept
asking the same darn questions over and over again. That
in itself was as torturous as the pain wracking her body.
Chuma was coming here tomorrow and she had to hope he
didn't recognize Rachel as the woman who frequently had
coffee with his fiancée at a café near Jamila's home on
weekday mornings. To Rachel's knowledge, Chuma had never
seen her with Jamila, but she wouldn't trust the other
woman's safety to that belief. If she was ever again in a
position to do something about Jamila's welfare.
That required getting out of here first. Wherever here
was. And it had to be soon.
Her captors had let slip that two of the top dogs would
be arriving after morning prayers the next day to continue
her interrogation. If things went on as they were, she
just might be alive to meet them.
She was certain one of the men would be Chuma, but three
months of undercover work in Egypt had not revealed his
partners. Rachel had her suspicions, but so far no way to
confirm them.
Well, she'd know one tomorrow. For all the good it
might do her, or her agency, The Goddard Project.
She had to escape alive to pass the information on.
And inexperienced in the art of torture did not equate
to sloppy holding techniques for prisoners with her captors.
An agony of stabbing needles shot through her entire
lower half. Against her will, Rachel's legs strained
against the restraints holding her to the chair in the
middle of the room. The minor pain of having already raw
wounds rubbed added to the agony of the electric shock.
She screamed the one word that would make no sense to
them, but gave her the only comfort she expected to get.
The acrid scent of her own urine mixed with the bile
from a vomiting fit brought about by her last encounter
with the car battery.
The smells and bitter taste of acid in her mouth only
registered faintly as her mind took her to the one place in
time when pain wasn't a daily part of her life.
To the time before Linny's death...before Kadin decided
he didn't love Rachel any longer.
To the sweetness of summer when she was eighteen.
#
"Abort. Abort." The one word Kadin had not expected to
hear in the humidity of Morocco's moonless night came over
his ear piece.
"Hold that order," he barked in a whisper. "Why?" he
demanded of his second in command, Neil Kennedy, otherwise
known as Spazz and a fricken whiz with computers and all
things electronic.
"She's screaming your name, Trigger. They have to know
we're here."
If Kadin hadn't been belly down on the ground, commando
crawling toward their target, his legs would have given out
on him.
"My name?"
"Yes. The first time, I thought she was just screaming
something like your first name, but she just
shouted, ‘Kadin Marks, don't you leave me behind.' She
doesn't sound good, boss, but we can't risk going in if
they're expecting us."
"They're not."
"But—"
"She's remembering the past, not begging us to rescue
her in the present." Rachel Gannon had no reason to
believe that Kadin would there for her these days.
He'd given up on being her hero a long time ago.
"Trig?"
"Belay the order to abort. The mission is still on,"
Kadin said through the communication ear buds.
His five man team affirmed they'd heard the order and
Kadin began moving forward again. The urge to hurry burned
inside him, but he couldn't risk this mission going FUBAR.
Not when it was Rachel's life on the line.
He'd let her down enough already for any one lifetime.
Kadin had walked away when they were old enough to be
considered adults, but had still been kids really. At
least she had. By the time he was twenty, he'd earned his
nickname Trigger as a trained and highly effective MARSOC
assassin.
A sniper with more kills than he ever wanted her to know
about, he'd walked away so the violence of his life didn't
touch hers. But she'd taken her own path into service of
their country and lost more than anyone should have to
while doing it.
Her only sister had committed suicide while Rachel was
undercover for the DEA. The ten years since their last
meeting wouldn't have changed Rachel enough for that not to
have had a devastating effect on her.
There was no surprise in the fact she had taken the
dangerous assignment in Egypt following up on the intel his
team and another Goddard Project agent had garnered in
Zimbabwe six months before.
The only shock was that Rachel still cried Kadin's name
when she was in need. She had to have learned he was no
knight in shining armor ten years ago, and still she called
for him.
This time he would not let her down.
#
Rachel's "interrogators" conferred in the corner of the
starkly lit room, apparently unaware that one of the four
languages she spoke fluently was the Farsi they were
using. She understood another five well enough to
eavesdrop with effect, but not to converse.
Not that her special affinity for languages was going to
do her any good here. Even though she could understand
every word they spoke, she couldn't do anything about it.
The tallest, and coincidentally youngest of the three
men, was shocked she had not yet broken. After all, she
was only a woman. He was convinced she was what she
claimed to be: a simple tourist who had been foolish enough
to be caught in the wrong place at the wrong time.
An older man with clear military bearing, and who the
other two deferred to, said she had to have training in
anti–interrogation techniques. Which meant: he did
not believe her overly curious tourist story.
The third man evinced no opinion, simply glancing over
at Rachel with unreadable eyes. He was the one who had
attached her to the car battery and tightened her
restraints by tiny increments every once in a while. They
weren't cutting off circulation yet, but they were close.
And it hurt. A lot.
Not enough to make her tell them the truth though. She
was a highly trained operative, but her best preparation
had come from life. She knew what kind of pain could break
a person like her, but they didn't have access to the means
to do it. After all, she'd already lost everyone that
mattered.
Her parents and Linny were dead. Grandma was in a home
with Alzheimer's and hadn't recognized Rachel in two
years. Kadin had left before she ever lost Linny.
There wasn't anyone left to lose.
And they couldn't break her with her body. Oh, she'd
welcome death when and if it came. The torture was
destroying her mind and her perspective, but Rachel would
protect her unwitting source of information no matter what
they did to her body. Jamila Massri reminded Rachel too
much of Linny. An innocent young woman desperate for love
caught up with a sadistic man.
It would take more than physical agony to force that
name from behind the barriers Rachel had constructed in her
mind.
She'd planned her escape route if those barriers started
to fail and the idiots in the corner had no clue.
All she had to do was tip her chair sideways when the
battery leads were connected to her body. She'd fall into
the puddle of urine and water they'd tossed on it to keep
down the smell. The electricity would pass through her
heart, but more importantly through her brain.
Instant fried cerebral matter.
And if she was lucky, the cement floor connecting with
her head would kill her before the electricity even.
She hadn't taken her only out yet because the part of
her that wanted to do her job wouldn't let go, the little
part of her that still hoped, still believed in good
winning over evil. She wanted to know who the top players
in this information war were.
And maybe, just maybe...her agency would send someone to
extract her in time for her to share that important news.
TGP didn't leave their agents behind, but time was
running out and she wasn't counting on rescue. She never
counted on anyone being there for her anymore.
Another bolt of electric agony jolted through her as she
forced her mind to go over the escape plan again and again,
even as she screamed the name of the one person she was
absolutely sure she would never see again.
#
Kadin could hear the screams through the walls of the
facility. His heart stopped in his chest as the agony in
that voice paralyzed him.
He'd heard Rachel Gannon's voice lifted in pleasure,
he'd heard it broken with pain, but he'd never heard it
scream like this. In that moment, he realized it was the
one sound that might well break him.
"Hey, buddy, you okay?" Cowboy asked as he drew level
with Kadin.
Kadin jerked his head in a nod and started moving
again. He had to be all right, damn it. He couldn't let
himself get distracted. Rachel's life depended on him
keeping his head in the game and hearing the proof of what
was happening to her could not get in the way of that.
Not even when it came special delivery with his name on
it.
One damn thing he had never expected was for her to call
out to him in her time of need. It had to be a mind game
she played with herself to keep her real secrets locked
inside, but hell if it wasn't wreaking havoc on his brain
too.
#
Rachel was on count seven–hundred and twenty when
she realized it had been longer than three minutes since
the last shock. She opened her eyes slowly, but even so,
it took a moment to focus. Her vision was so blurry at
first, the room appeared dark. But it wasn't. The single
light in the ceiling was still on and the stark light cast
by it revealed that the men tormenting her were no longer
in her cell.
She hadn't heard them leave.
That was not good. Maybe she was farther gone than
she'd thought.
Had the time come to take her escape route?
She took several deep breaths, trying to assess her
condition and how close she might be to revealing something
she did not want to without realizing it.
As Rachel contemplated her options, limited though they
were, the door opened and an old woman shuffled in. She
muttered a prayer in Farsi under her breath as she offered
a cup of water to Rachel to drink.
Rachel didn't bother asking for help. This woman was as
trapped as she was. The first couple of sips of water were
as bitter as the acid in Rachel's mouth, but then the clear
cold flavor of well water took over and Rachel's eyes stung
with gratitude.
The woman helped her drink the whole cup before stepping
back.
"Thank you," Rachel croaked out in Farsi.
With a nod of the cloth covered head, the older woman
turned to leave.
"Wait." The word cost Rachel, coming out of a throat
raw from screaming.
The woman turned, her eyes filled with resigned
sadness. "I can do nothing else for you."
"You can tell me where we are."
Though Rachel could make a good guess based on the way
the woman was dressed.
"We are in the mountains, far from any city."
"In what country?"
"Morocco."
Okay, that was a lot further from Helwan, the small city
outside Cairo she'd been conducting her investigation in
than she'd expected. She must have been out a lot longer
before arrival than she'd thought, or they flown her here.
Either way, she now understood why she'd been left alone
for almost a day after being dumped in this less than
hospitable room. The fact the big dogs hadn't arrived yet
made more sense too.
Moving her to Morocco was smart, but hopefully not as
clever as the locator chip in Rachel's hip that Vannie at
TGP headquarters had installed.
"Thank you. What is your name?"
The woman shook her head and left without answering.
"Mine is Rachel," she croaked out as the door closed.
Her head dropped, the tiny reserve of energy draining from
her.
She had no doubts her people would find her, but she was
fairly sure at this point that it wouldn't be alive.
Moments later, the door opened again – this time
silently. Only the shift of air in the room giving the
movement away. So, not her captor's return.
But who? Had her agency sent a rescue team? Hope
seared through her as worry rose up to meet it.
A man stepped inside, closing the door behind him with
an economy of movement and absolutely no sound. She would
not know he was there if she could not see him with her own
eyes. Big, both tall and broadly muscled, he wore the
newer black digital camouflage. His face was covered by a
cotton ski mask, but his eyes were eerily familiar.
She blinked her own, unable to process what her brain
was telling her. But her rescuer had Kadin's eyes.
She knew with every particle of her remaining sanity it
couldn't be Kadin. Not here. Not now. Just her fantasies
playing tricks with her mind. This was much worse than
losing track of time during her torture. Reality was
colliding with imagination and that terrified her.
She had to keep her mental faculties together. It was
the only weapon she had left. And apparently, she needed
to stop using old memories to fight the horror of the
present.
"Kadin," she whispered almost silently, the fear she'd
refused to give into up to this point nearly overwhelming
her.
The man heard her. His head jerked, but he didn't say
anything. He moved forward on quick, silent feet, dropping
to one knee beside her. He flicked open a lethal looking
blade and put it against the zip tie holding her wrists
together.
"Wait!" she gasped.
He stopped. "Don't worry, Rachel. I'm not here to hurt
you."
It was Kadin's voice. Her mind had snapped.
Even knowing that, she asked, "Kadin?"
"Yes."
Impossible, but he'd just said he was Kadin. Maybe her
rescuer would have agreed to anything; maybe men like him
were trained to deal with delusional torture victims like
her that way. One thing she was certain of. The man,
whoever he was, was here.
"I'm not dreaming." She said it aloud because she needed
to convince herself.
She was fairly confident that she was in too much pain
to be dreaming though. Besides, in all her dreams Kadin
had never shown up in commando gear.
The Marines had taken him from her; she wasn't about to
have fantasies of him dressed like a soldier.
"No." He brushed her cheek with a black gloved
hand. "You're not dreaming."
That voice again. It could not be and yet somehow, her
nearly broken mind kept insisting that it was. "It's you.
Really."
"Yes." Never one for long speeches, her Kadin.
No, wait. Not hers anymore. Not for a very long time.
"How?"
"It doesn't matter. We have to get you out of here."
"No."
He made a sound a cross between shocked gasp and
growl. "Yes."
"No. Two of the top guys in the organization are coming
tomorrow. One of them is an expert on interrogation." And
she was sure she knew which one held that dark claim to
fame in his underlings' eyes. "I know one, but not the
other. We need that information."
So, okay...her brain was still functioning. Which meant
this man really was Kadin because she wasn't so far gone
she was turning fantasies into reality in her mind. She
hadn't done that for almost as long as Kadin hadn't been
hers.
"Then get it another way," he growled in an almost sub
vocal whisper directly against her ear. "You are not
staying here to be tortured some more."
"They're finished for the night." At least she hoped
they were.
"Bullshit. They're giving you a chance to think it's
over before coming back and trying to break you."
A more experienced interrogator might do that, but these
guys? She was hopeful not. "They haven't broken me yet."
The sound of plastic snapping came from behind and then
Kadin's big hands were on her arms, massaging them as he
slowly allowed them to relax downward. "This is going to
hurt like a sonsabitch, but you can handle it, angel."
The pain started then and she didn't bother wasting
breath on trying to argue or demanding he never, ever use
that endearment again. She had to handle this and a lot
more quietly than she had her torture. Yelling out Kadin's
name right now could get them both killed.
Once her arms hung at her sides, he made quick work of
the ties hold her legs to the chair and then he swept her
up into his arms. "They aren't getting the chance."
"Chance for what?"
"To break you."
"And I won't get the chance to identify the other major
player either."
"I'll leave a team to do surveillance."
"There's no guarantee the bosses will show once it's
discovered I'm gone."
"Is she for real, boss?" someone asked and Rachel
realized Kadin was wearing an earbud communicator.
She wouldn't have heard the voice except her head was
right next to his. He should be carrying her in a
fireman's lift, so he had one hand available.
The fact he wasn't messed with her head in a way the
torturers hadn't been able to.
"Boss?" the voice asked again.
"Yes." Kadin didn't sound happy when he said it either.
"Tell her we'll take care of it," another voice, this
one with a distinct Texas twang, said.
Another day, another time...Rachel would have demanded
to know how, but right now? It was taking every single one
of her stay–with–it molecules to keep from
passing out, puking or ignominiously doing both.