Wow, Rachel. My eyes watered up reading your story. My husband has always been with me. I couldn't imagine a day without him coming home. The idea itself breaks my heart. It took an extraordinary amount of bravery, not to mention a rock solid emotional foundation in your marriage to do something so brave like that.
Has my gut ever told me to do something? It told me to marry my husband after only knowing him for months, it told me having kids with him was the right thing to do, and it told me to start writing almost eight years after we got married. All of the above were truly gut feelings I went with. I haven't regretted any of them, and I suspect, never will.
Life is funny, isn't it? You never know what will cross your path, who you will meet, what kinds of relationships you will form along the way, and who will mean the most to you when it's all said and done. I couldn't be happier than I am right now. So blessed. :*)
Also, I honestly can't think of anyone else I'd rather have as my editor. You never cease to amaze me.