
Love ties them together. Death can't tear them apart.
Best. Birthday. Ever. At least, it was supposed to
be. With Logan's band playing a critical gig and Aura's
plans for an intimate after-party, Aura knows it will be the
most memorable night of her boyfriend's life. She never
thought it would be his last. Logan's sudden death
leaves Aura devastated. He's gone. Well, sort of.
Like everyone born after the Shift, Aura can see and
hear ghosts. This mysterious ability has always been
annoying, and Aura had wanted nothing more than to figure
out why the Shift happened so she can undo it. But not with
Logan's violet-hued spirit still hanging around. Because
dead Logan is almost as real as ever. Almost.
It doesn't help that Aura's new friend Zachary is so
understanding—and so very alive. His support means more to
Aura than she cares to admit. As Aura's relationships
with the dead and the living grow ever complicated, so do
her feelings for Logan and Zachary. Each holds a piece of
Aura's heart...and clues to the secret of the Shift.
Excerpt “You can hear me, can’t you?” I punched the green print button on the copier to drown out
the disembodied voice. Sometimes if I ignored them long
enough, they went away—confused, discouraged, and
lonelier than ever. Sometimes. Okay, almost never. Usually they got louder. No time to deal with it that day. Only one more set of
legal briefs to unstaple, copy, and restaple, then I could
go home, trade this straitjacket and stockings for a
T-shirt and jeans, and make it to Logan’s before
practice. To tell him I’m sorry, that I’ve
changed my mind, and this time I mean it. Really. “I know you can hear me.” The old woman’s
voice strengthened as it came closer. “You’re
one of them.” I didn’t flinch as I grabbed the top brief from the
stack on the conference room table. I couldn’t see
her under the office’s bright fluorescent lights,
which made it about one percent easier to pretend she
wasn’t there. Someday, if I had my way, none of them would be there. “What an intolerably rude child,” she said. I yanked the staple out of the last brief and let it zing
off in an unknown direction, trying to hurry without
looking like I was hurrying. If the ghost knew I
was getting ready to leave, she’d spit out her story,
no invitation. I carefully laid the pages in the sheet
feeder and hit print again. “You can’t be more than sixteen.” The
lady’s voice was close, almost at my elbow.
“So you were born hearing us.” I didn’t need her to remind me how ghosts’
ramblings had drowned out my mother’s New Agey
lullabies. (According to Aunt Gina, Mom thought the
old-fashioned ones were too disturbing—“down
will come baby, cradle and all.” But when dead
people are bitching and moaning around your crib at all
hours, the thought of falling out of a tree is so not a
source of angst.) Worst part was, those lullabies were all I remembered of her. “Come on,” I nagged the copier under my breath,
resisting the urge to kick it. The piece of crap picked that moment to jam. “Shit.” I clenched my fist, driving the staple
remover tooth into the pad of my thumb. “Ow! Damn
it.” I sucked the pinpoint of blood. “Language.” The ghost sniffed. “When I
was your age, young ladies wouldn’t have heard such
words, much less murdered the mother tongue
with…” Blah blah…kids these
days…blah blah…parents’ fault…blah. I jerked open the front of the copier and searched for the
stuck paper, humming a Keeley Brothers’ song to cover
the ghost’s yakking. “They cut me,” she said quietly. I stopped humming, then blew out a sigh that fluttered my
dark bangs. Sometimes there’s no ignoring these people. I stood, slamming the copier door. “One condition. I
get to see you.” “Absolutely not,” she huffed. “Wrong answer.” I rounded the table and headed
for the switches by the conference room door. “Please, you don’t want to do that. The way
they left me—” I flipped off the light and turned on the BlackBox. “No!” The ghost streaked toward me in a blaze
of violet. She stopped two inches from my face and let out
a shriek that scraped against all the little bones in my ears. Cringing? Not an option. I crossed my arms, then calmly
and slowly extended my middle finger. “This is your last warning.” Her voice crackled
around the edges as she tried to frighten me. “Turn
on the light.” “You wanted to talk. I don’t talk to ghosts I
can’t see.” I touched the BlackBox switch.
“Sucks to be trapped, huh? That’s how I feel
listening to you people all day.” “How dare you?” The woman slapped my face, her
fingers curled into claws. Her hand passed through my head
without so much as a breeze. “After all I’ve
been through. Look at me.” I tried to check her out, but she was trembling so hard with
anger, her violet lines kept shifting into one another. It
was like trying to watch TV without my contacts. “Those shoes are beyond last year,” I said,
“but other than that, you look fine.” The ghost glanced down at herself and froze in astonishment.
Her pale hair—gray in life, I assumed—was tied
in a bun, and she wore what looked like a ruffle-lapelled
suit and low-heeled pumps. Your basic country-club queen.
Probably found her own death positively scandalous. “I haven’t seen myself in the dark.” She
spoke with awe. “I assumed I would be…”
Her hand passed over her stomach. “What, fat?” “Disemboweled.” I felt my eyes soften. “You were murdered?”
With old people it was usually a heart attack or stroke.
But it explained her rage. She scowled at me. “Well, it certainly wasn’t
suicide.” “I know.” My voice turned gentle as I
remembered to be patient. Sometimes these poor souls
didn’t know what to expect, despite all the public
awareness campaigns since the Shift. The least I could do
was clarify. “If you’d killed yourself, you
wouldn’t be a ghost, because you would’ve been
prepared to die. And you’re not all carved up because
you get frozen in the happiest moment of your life.” She examined her clothes with something close to a smile,
maybe remembering the day she wore them, then looked up at
me with a sudden ferocity. “But why?” I ditched the patience. “How the hell should I
know?” I flapped my arms. “I don’t know
why we see you at all. No one knows, okay?” “Listen to me, young lady.” She pointed her
violet finger in my face. “When I was your
age—” “When you were my age the Shift hadn’t happened
yet. Everything’s different now. You should be
grateful someone can hear you.” “I shouldn’t be—this way—at
all.” She clearly couldn’t say the word
dead. “I need someone to make it right.” “So you want to sue.” One of my aunt
Gina’s specialties: wrongful death litigation. Gina
believes in “peace through justice.” She
thinks it helps people move past ghosthood to
whatever’s beyond. Heaven, I guess, or at least
someplace better than Baltimore. Weird thing is, it usually works, though no one knows
exactly why. But unfortunately, Gina—my aunt,
guardian, and godmother—can’t hear or see
ghosts. Neither can anyone else born before the Shift,
which happened sixteen and three-quarters years ago. So
when Gina’s firm gets one of these cases, guess who
gets to translate? All for a file clerk’s paycheck. “My name is Hazel Cavendish,” the lady said.
“I was one of this firm’s most loyal
clients.” Ah, that explained how she got here. Ghosts can only appear
in the places they went during their lives. No one knows
why that is, either, but it makes things a lot
easier on people like me. She continued without prompting. “I was slaughtered
this morning outside my home in—” “Can you come back Monday?” I checked my watch
in ex-Hazel’s violet glow. “I have to be
somewhere.” “But it’s only Thursday. I need to speak to
someone now.” Her fingers flitted over the string of
pearls around her neck. “Aura, please.” I stepped back. “How do you know my name?” “Your aunt talked about you all the time, showed me
your picture. Your name is hard to forget.” She
moved toward me, her footsteps silent. “So
beautiful.” My head started to swim. Uh-oh. Vertigo in a post-Shifter like me usually means a ghost is
turning shade. They go down that one-way path when they let
bitterness warp their souls. It has its
advantages—shades are dark, powerful spirits who can
hide in the shadows and go anywhere they want. Anywhere, that is, but out of this world. Unlike ghosts,
shades can’t pass on or find peace, as far as we
know. And since they can single-handedly debilitate any
nearby post-Shifters, “detainment” is the only
option. “I really have to go,” I whispered, like
I’d hurt ex-Hazel less if I lowered the volume.
“A few days won’t matter.” “Time always matters.” “Not for you.” I kept my voice firm but kind.
“Not anymore.” She moved so close, I could see every wrinkle on her violet
face. “Your eyes are old,” she hissed. “You
think you’ve seen everything, but you don’t
know what it’s like.” She touched my heart
with a hand I couldn’t feel. “One day
you’ll lose something important, and then
you’ll know.” # I ran for the car, my work shoes clunking against the
sidewalk and rubbing blisters on my ankles. No time to
stop home to change before going to Logan’s.
Should’ve brought my clothes with me, but how could I
have known there’d be a new case? I’d wussed out, of course, and let the old woman tell
my aunt her nasty death story. The ghost was angry enough
that I worried about what she’d do without immediate
attention. “Shading” was still pretty rare,
especially for a new ghost like ex-Hazel, but it
wasn’t worth the risk. The leafy trees lining the street made it dark enough to see
ghosts even an hour before sunset. Half a dozen were
loitering outside the day care center in the mansion across
the street. Like most of the buildings in the Roland Park
area, Little Creatures Kiddie Care was completely
BlackBoxed—its walls lined with the same thin layer of
charged obsidian that kept ghosts out of sensitive areas.
Bathrooms, military base buildings, that sort of thing. I
wish Gina and I could afford to live there—Roland
Park, I mean, not a military base. I stopped for a giant Coke Slurpee and guzzled it on my way
toward I-83, wincing at the brain freeze. I usually prefer
to use the spoon end of the straw, but after
ex-Hazel’s intake session, I desperately needed the
massive caffeine-sugar infusion that only pure,
bottom-of-the-cup Slurpee syrup could provide. The long shadows of trees cut across the road, and I kept my
eyes forward so I wouldn’t see the ghosts on the
sidewalks. Lot of good it did. At the last stoplight before the
expressway, a little violet kid waved from the backseat of
the car in front of me. His lips were moving, forming
words I couldn’t decipher. An older girl next to him
clapped her hands over her ears, her blond pigtails wagging
back and forth as she shook her head. The parents in the
front seats kept talking, oblivious or maybe just unable to
deal. They should trade in that car, I thought,
while that poor girl still has her sanity. The on-ramp sloped uphill into the sunshine, and I let out a
groan of relief, gnawing the end of my straw. After almost seventeen years of hearing about grisly murders
and gruesome accidents, you’d think I’d be
tough, jaded. You’d think that ghosts’
tendency to over-share would eventually annoy instead of
sadden me. And you’d be right. Mostly. By the time I was five,
I’d stopped crying. I’d stopped having
nightmares. I’d stopped sleeping with the lights on
so I wouldn’t see their faces. And I’d stopped
talking about it, because by that point the world believed
us. Five hundred million toddlers can’t be wrong. But I never forgot. Their stories are shelved in my mind,
neat as a filing system. Probably because I’ve
recited many of them on the witness stand. Courts don’t just take my word for it, or any
one person’s. Testimony only counts if two of us
post-Shifters agree on a ghost’s statement. Since
ghosts apparently can’t lie, they make great
witnesses. Last year, me and this terrified freshman
translated for the victims of a psycho serial killer.
(Remember “Tomcat”? The one who liked to
“play with his food”?) Welcome to my life. It gets better. I pulled into Logan’s driveway at 6:40. I loved going to
the Keeleys’ house—it sat in a Hunt Valley development that
had been farmland only a few years before. Newer
neighborhoods had way fewer ghosts, and I’d never seen one
at the Keeleys’. At the time, anyway. I checked my hair in the rearview mirror. Hopelessly
well-groomed. I pawed through my bag to find a few funky
little silver skull-and-crossbones barrettes, then pinned
them into my straight dark brown hair to make it stick out
in random places. “Yeah, you look totally punk in your beige suit and sensible
flats.” I made a face at myself in the mirror, then leaned
closer. Were my eyes really that old, like ex-Hazel said? Maybe it
was the dark circles underneath. I licked my finger and
wiped under my brown eyes to see if the mascara had smeared. Nope. The gray shadows on my skin came from too little
sleep and too much worrying. Too much rehearsing what I
would say to Logan. As I walked up the brick front path, I heard music blasting
through the open basement window. Late. I wanted to hurl my bag across the Keeleys’ lawn in
frustration. Once Logan got lost in his guitar, he forgot I
existed. And we really needed to talk. I went in the front door without knocking, the way I had
since we were six and the Keeleys lived around the block in
a row home like ours. I hurried past the stairs, through
the kitchen, and into the family room. “Hey Aura,” called Logan’s fifteen-year-old brother Dylan
from his usual position, sprawled barefoot and bowlegged on
the floor in front of the flat-screen TV. He glanced up
from his video game, then did a double-take at the sight of
my Slurpee cup. “Bad one?” “Old lady, stabbed in a mugging. Semi-shady.” “Sucks.” He focused on his game, nodding in time to the
metal soundtrack. “Protein drinks work better.” “You bounce back your way, I’ll bounce my way.” “Whatever.” His voice rose suddenly. “Noooo! Eat it! Eat
it!” Dylan slammed his back against the ottoman and jerked
the joystick almost hard enough to break it. As his avatar
got torched by a flamethrower, he shrieked a stream of
curses that told me his parents weren’t home. Mr. and Mrs.
Keeley had apparently already left for their second honeymoon. I opened the basement door, releasing a blast of guitar
chords, then slipped off my shoes so I could walk
downstairs without noise. Halfway to the bottom, I peered over the banister into the
left side of the unfinished basement. Logan was facing
away from me, strumming his new Fender Stratocaster and
watching his brother Mickey work out a solo. The motion of
his shoulder blades rippled his neon green T-shirt, the one
I’d bought him on our last trip to Ocean City. When he angled his chin to check his fingers on the fret
board, I could see his profile. Even with his face set in
concentration, his sky blue eyes sparked with joy. Logan
could play guitar in a sewer and still have fun. The Keeley boys were like yin and yang, inside and out.
Logan’s spiky hair was bleached blond with black streaks,
while Mickey’s was black with blond streaks. Logan played
a black guitar right-handed and his brother a white one
left-handed. They had the same lanky build, and lots of
people thought they were twins, but Mickey was eighteen and
Logan only seventeen (minus one day). Their sister Siobhan—Mickey’s actual twin—was sitting
cross-legged on the rug in front of them, her fiddle resting
against her left knee as she shared a cigarette with the
bassist, her boyfriend Connor. My best friend Megan sat next to them, knees pulled to her
chest. She wove a lock of her long, dark red hair through
her fingers as she stared at Mickey. The only one facing me was Brian, the drummer. He spotted
me and promptly missed a beat. I cringed—he was sometimes
brilliant, but he could be distracted by a stray dustball. Mickey and Logan stopped playing and turned to Brian, who
adjusted the backward white baseball cap on his head in
embarrassment. “Jesus,” Mickey said, “is it too much to ask for a fucking
backbeat?” “Sorry.” Brian twirled his stick in his thick hand, then
pointed it at me. “She’s here.” Logan spun around, and I expected a glare for
interrupting—not to mention leftover hostility from last
night’s fight. Instead his face lit up. “Aura!” He swept the strap over his head, handed his guitar
to Mickey, and leaped to meet me at the bottom of the
stairs. “Oh my God, you won’t believe this!” He grabbed
me around the waist and hoisted me up. “You will not
believe this.” “I will, I swear.” I wrapped my arms around his neck,
grinning so hard it hurt. Clearly he wasn’t mad at me.
“What’s up?” “Hang on.” Logan lowered me to the floor, then spread my
arms to examine my suit. “They make you wear this to work?” “I didn’t have time to change.” I gave him a light punch in
the chest for torturing me. “So what won’t I believe?” “Siobhan, get her some clothes,” he barked. “Choice,” she said. “Say please or kiss my ass.” “Please!” Logan held up his hands. “Anything to keep your
ass in the safe zone.” Siobhan gave Connor her cigarette and got to her feet. As
she passed me, she squeezed my elbow and said, “Boy thinks
he’s a rock god just because some label people are coming
to the show tomorrow.” My mind spun as it absorbed my biggest hope and fear. “Is
she kidding?” I asked Logan. “No,” he growled. “Thanks for blowing the surprise,
horseface!” he yelled as she slouched up the stairs,
snickering. I tugged on his shirt. “Who’s coming?” “Get this.” He gripped my shoulders. “A and R dudes from
two different companies. One’s an independent—Lianhan
Records—” “That’s the one we want,” Mickey interjected. “—and the other is Warrant.” I gasped. “I’ve heard of Warrant.” “Because they’re part of a major major major humongous
label.” Logan’s eyes rolled up in ecstasy, like God
himself was handing out record contracts. “We’ll use Warrant to make Lianhan jealous,” Mickey added.
“But we’re not selling out.” Logan pulled me to the back side of the stairs, where the
others couldn’t see us. “This could be it,” he whispered.
“Can you believe it? It’d be the most amazing birthday
present ever.” I steadied my breath so I could get the words out.
“Hopefully not the best present.” “You mean the Strat from my folks?” “Not that either.” I reached up under the back of his
T-shirt and let my fingers graze his warm skin. “Is it something you—wait.” His eyes widened, making the
silver hoop in his brow glint in the overhead light. “Are
you saying—” “Yep.” I stood on tiptoe and kissed him, quick but hard.
“I’m ready.” His gold-tipped lashes flickered, but he angled his chin to
look at me sideways. “You said that before.” “I said a lot of things before. Some of them were stupid.” “Yeah, they were.” His eyes crinkled, softening his words.
“You know I’d never leave you over this, either way. How
could you even think that?” “I don’t know. I’m sorry.” “Me too.” He traced my jaw with his thumb, which always
made me shiver. “I love you.” He kissed me then, drowning my doubts in one warm, soft
moment. Doubts about him, about me, about him and me. “Here you go!” Siobhan called from the stairs, a moment
before a clump of denim and cotton fell on our heads.
“Oops,” she said with fake surprise. I peeled the jeans off Logan’s shoulder and held them up in
salute. “Thanks, Siobhan.” “Back to work!” rang Mickey’s voice from the other side of
the basement. Logan ignored his siblings and gazed into my eyes.
“So…maybe tomorrow night, at my party?” He hurried to add,
“Only if you’re sure. We could wait, if you—” “No.” I could barely manage a whisper. “No more waiting.” His lips curved into a smile, which promptly faded. “I
better clean my room. There’s like a one-foot path through
all the old Guitar Worlds and dirty laundry.” “I can walk on a one-foot path.” “Screw that. I want it to be perfect.” “Hey!” Mickey yelled again, louder. “What part of ‘back to
work’ is not in English?” Logan grimaced. “We’re switching out some of our set
list—less covers, more original stuff. Probably be up all
night.” He gave me a kiss that was quick but full of
promise. “Stay as long as you want.” He disappeared around the stairs, and immediately Megan
replaced him at my side. “Did you make up? You did, didn’t you?” “We made up.” I sat on the couch to remove my stockings,
checking over my shoulder to make sure the guys were out of
sight on the other side of the stairs. “I told him I’m ready.” Megan slumped next to me and rested her elbow on the back of
the sofa. “You don’t think you have to say that to keep
him, do you?” “It’s something I want too. Anyway, who cares, as long as
it works?” “Aura…” “You know what it’s like, going to their gigs.” My whisper
turned to a hiss. “Seeing all those girls who’d probably
pay to get naked with Mickey or Logan. Or even with Brian
or Connor.” “But the guys aren’t like that—well, maybe Brian is, but he
doesn’t have a girlfriend. Mickey loves me. Logan loves you.” “So?” I slipped on the jeans. “Plenty of rock stars have
wives and girlfriends, and they still screw their groupies.
It comes with the territory.” “I find your lack of faith disturbing,” she said in her best
Darth Vader impression, forcing a smile out of me. I unbuttoned my white silk blouse. “What should I wear?” “Same stuff as always, on the outside. That’s the way he
likes you.” Megan snapped the strap of my plain beige bra.
“But definitely do better than this underneath.” “Duh,” was my only response as I slipped Siobhan’s black and
yellow Distillers T-shirt over my head. I’d made a covert
trip to Victoria’s Secret weeks before—the one way up in
Owings Mills, where no one would recognize me. The
matching black lace bra and underwear were still in the
original bag, with their tags on, in the back of my bottom
dresser drawer. “The first time doesn’t have to suck,” she said, “not if you
go slow.” “Okay,” I said quickly, in a deep state of not wanting to
talk about it. Luckily, at that moment Brian tapped his sticks to mark
time, and the band launched into one of their original
tunes, “The Day I Sailed Away.” The Keeley Brothers wanted to be the premier Irish-flavored
rock band in Baltimore. Maybe one day go national, become
the next Pogues, or at least the next Flogging Molly, with
a heavy dose of American skate-punk ’tude. As Logan began to sing, Megan’s face reflected my bliss and
awe. With that voice leading the way, the Keeley Brothers
didn’t have to be the next anyone. Two record labels. I closed my eyes, ignoring the way my
stomach turned to lead, and savored the sound that Megan
and I would soon have to share with the world. I knew then that everything would change the next night. It
was like time had folded in on itself, and I could remember
the future. A future I already hated.
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