"You're awake." Scratchy with sleep and deep enough to
start my heart fluttering, it's the voice that's haunted my
dreams. And tortured plenty of my waking moments too.
Scott.
A part of me relaxes at the same time an unmistakable
tension enters my body. I slept with Scott for almost a year
so I'm quite familiar with that tension. Headache and the
heartbreak of the past are forgotten in that moment. Heat
pools between my thighs and the dull throbbing is now
centered there.
He could always do this to me if I let him get close
enough. Make my body ache, make me want him like he's a drug
and I'm addicted. As if sensing the war my body is fighting
with my mind, his hand drifts lower until it's splayed over
my lower stomach, his finger dancing just above the top of
my lace–edged thong.
At the light touch of his fingers just there, I'm
returned to reality.
Whoa. What the hell is he doing in my bed?
It's not easy—I haven't had sex in over a
year—but I forsake the pleasurable warmth of his
touch, roll abruptly away and almost end up on the floor.
His hand hooks around my waist before I can fall. With a
semblance of my sanity and balance regained, I scramble to a
kneeling position before clumsily sliding off the edge of
the bed. Now I'm standing in one of my long white
t–shirts that I don't remember putting on.
Scott on the other hand is wearing a wife–beater
that showcases his muscled chest and arms. He also has his
customary morning erection. My sex contracts as I hastily
avert my eyes from the sight of it tenting his navy boxer
briefs. "What are you doing in my bed?" If I thought his
voice was scratchy, mine sounds and feels like a
well–used Brillo Pad courtesy of second–hand
smoke and alcohol.
Watching me intently, he throws off the comforter that
had been covering his lean, muscled thighs and swings his
legs until his feet are planted on the floor. My toes curl
into the carpet. Not a self–conscious bone in that
gorgeous body. God, I hate him. I hate that he still has
the power to make me—make me feel this.
Quivery. On edge. Horny.
Shh. I didn't say that.