Chapter One
March 4 Norfolk, Virginia
He stood out in his flannel shirt and jeans, but so far
none of the sailors had made the mistake of assuming he
was a civilian. Air Force Major Bruce "Striker" Stanton
warily watched them continue to arrive and crowd into his
sister's backyard, and he wondered how many sailors Jill
had invited from the aircraft carrier USS George
Washington to come to the predeployment party. It would be
like her to invite them all so as not to leave anyone out.
All five thousand plus of them.
He felt like he had invaded enemy country. The sailors,
the average age of which was twenty-one, looked like
children. They got younger every year. And those for whom
this was their first six-month sea tour tended to travel
together in clusters like penguins. A few of his friends
cut from Air Force cloth were here but had long ago been
swallowed up in the sea of white.
Striker maneuvered through guests to the chair he had
staked out on the patio, doing his best to ignore the stab
of pain from his right knee at every step. His dog was
curled up asleep under the chair. Bruce used his left foot
to push the dog's tail farther under the chair to protect
it from being stepped on. A party, food, and many willing
hands to offer treats, and what did his dog do? Sleep. He
had yet tofigure out this yellow Labrador he had acquired
two months ago from the pound.
Bruce nodded a greeting to one of the Navy SEALs he knew
as he settled into the chair and prepared to stay put for
a while. Sprinkled in the mix among the young sailors
there were a few grown-ups. The ship's officers, SEALs,
and naval aviators stood out by the self-assured way they
staked out their space.
As far as parties went this one was living up to past
history. The soda was cold to the point ice crystals
formed when he opened the can, while the hot dogs were
burnt because his sister had insisted on working the
grill. People came for the tradition of it, not for the
food.
He'd driven up from Pensacola, Florida, where he was
based, to Norfolk, center of gravity for military
operations in the state with nine military bases for Air
Force, Navy, and Marines clustered within the Hampton
Roads area. He'd come for the weekend because his sister
had invited him. He had news to share that was best done
in person. And he'd come to see Grace.
He didn't have to search to find her; he'd kept track of
her in his peripheral vision throughout the afternoon,
anchoring her as part of his frame of reference. Grace
stood out in red. The sweater over jeans was a simple bold
splash of color in a sea of white. His sister's best
friend, the cohost of this party, had been in his sights
for years. Jill had introduced them. Lieutenant Grace
Yates was one of the self-assured naval aviators. She was
going to spend the next six months hurling off the deck of
the USS George Washington in an F/A-18 Hornet.
He watched her mingle and chat with the other squadron
pilots; she'd long ago been accepted into their exclusive
ranks. Ever since the combat exclusion rules had eased in
1993 to allow women to fill combat flight roles, she'd
been showing she had the right stuff. Not flashy, not
pushy, just one of the best pilots he'd ever met. She
exemplified grace under pressure.
He admired what she'd done and how she'd accomplished it.
She loved to fly and she turned that passion into a single-
minded focus to be the best. She'd picked up Gracie as her
call sign. She rarely commented on the ground she broke in
her profession but she'd done so about the handle. Grace
thought it was too soft a call sign. Bruce thought it
summed her up in one word. It suited her.
Grace was the deep waters while Jill was the clear
shallows. Grace rarely talked about herself. How many
layers were there to the mystery that made her who she
was? He was determined to find out. He was on a mission.
Grace was the objective. And his profession had taught him
well the value of good reconnaissance. He had known her
for years, but only in the last few months had he decided
to do that digging.
He liked what he had found. She was loyal to her friends,
was close to her family. She sang with her church choir,
rather badly he thought. She liked vanilla ice cream,
scary movies, skiing, and anything related to flying.
Competitive in sports, tall, slender, fast on her feet,
she had the arm and wrist strength to play a tennis game
that decimated opponents. She'd broken her arm skydiving,
had crashed her car at age seventeen and had to be talked
into driving again, and never had more than a goldfish as
a pet. There was a tightness to her mouth when she was mad
and a smile that came easy around friends. He'd enjoyed
the reconnaissance.
She'd dated Ben Grossel for many years. Bruce had met Ben
a couple times and he'd found the former Navy pilot turned
astronaut an exceptionally nice guy. Ben had been killed
in a car accident two years ago while Grace was on her
second sea tour. Bruce suspected that had rocked her life
pretty hard although she had never said much.
A young boy in a blue sweatshirt slammed into the back of
Grace's knees, enveloping her in hug. She turned with a
laugh to rescue him and haul him up to perch on her hip.
She was often being tailed by her own fan club at parties
such as this one. She'd started a kids' flying club last
year with some help from his sister and had become a bit
of a hero to the kids. She had the rare touch of not only
being a good pilot but also a good teacher.
His dog moved and Bruce reached under the chair to ruffle
the dog's ears. Today was going to be his last chance to
see Grace for six months. He was a patient man. This
gathering was scheduled to go until seven. His plan was
simple, and he needed to accomplish only one thing with
her today. He had the luxury to choose the right moment.
"Have you told Jill the news?"
Bruce looked over at the Navy SEAL trying to relax beside
him in a patio chair too small for his frame. Life itself
often seemed too small for Grace's cousin, Tom "Wolf"
Yates. They were rivals and competitors in the best Air
Force versus Navy tradition. The women in their lives had
been best friends for years, and on that common ground
they had long ago forged an amicable friendship. "Coward
that I am, I was hoping you would mention it first."
Wolf grimaced. "We're a sorry lot."
"Have you heard how long you're going to be gone?"
"Twelve weeks. You?"
"Sixteen."
Silence stretched as the implications set in. They were
both going to miss Jilly's birthday on May 19. And not
just any birthday-her thirtieth birthday. Bruce watched
his sister turn hamburgers on the grill and laugh with the
sailor keeping her company. The young man stood at relaxed
attention, hands behind his back, being friendly in a very
polite way. He wasn't a fool. Jill was dating Wolf. It was
dangerous territory to tread on.
"We need to do something special." Bruce had planned to
arrange another weekend like this one, come up and take
Jill out for dinner, probably buy her a nice necklace
since she loved jewelry. Rushing to do that before he
deployed would just not be the same. Jill would be having
her birthday without family, without her best friend
Grace, without her boyfriend Wolf. She was getting a raw
deal.
"I got her that inlaid jewelry box she fell in love with,
but I'm doomed before I even wrap it. She's going to feel
like the gift is compensation."
"She'll cry," Bruce predicted, knowing his sister. She'd
cry, get over the disappointment, then put on a smile to
tell them goodbye. But the initial news would hurt. Big
days mattered, and through the years she'd been asked to
spend so many of them alone.
Jill had a love-hate relationship with dating someone who
put her third in his life behind God and the Navy. Bruce
understood where she was coming from. It was one thing to
pay that price of separation when you held up your hand
and volunteered to take the oath of service; it was
another when you had no choice but to accept it.
"To top it off, I'll probably be somewhere that doesn't
have a phone."
"She likes you too much to dump you over this."
Wolf growled at him for suggesting it. Bruce laughed and
wondered not for the first time how he'd handle having
Wolf for a brother-in-law. Wolf was good for his sister.
He was a solid man with a strong faith who didn't get
troubled by events; he simply solved the problem. Like
most SEALs he was addicted to adrenaline rushes and was
intensely competitive. But he also had a maturity well
beyond his years, and Bruce knew the man's heart. He could
trust the man to be gentle with his sister. Jill was high
energy and laughter, a lady who loved making sure people
had a great time and who would go the second and third
miles to help a friend.
He hoped it worked out for the two of them. Jill dated
Wolf because she admired him and what he did; she just
hadn't escaped the hurt that went back to childhood with
their dad always putting the Air Force before family.
It was hard being a big brother. It wasn't until their
parents died three years ago that he realized it had been
four months since he'd last seen his sister, and a month
since he had talked with her. He'd been ashamed of that.
He wasn't going to miss events in Jill's life unless it
was truly unavoidable. His focus had changed, but this
deployment was coming at a vulnerable time. He wished he
had another six months stateside before he had to do
another TDY.
Her birthday party would be disrupted, her vacation plans
forced to change as she had been planning to come down to
see the house he was remodeling. And he'd have to
reschedule the date he could come up and help her fix up
the new offices she was in the process of leasing. Lord,
how do I tell her? He wished he had the right words. She
didn't adjust too well to the long absences. And Bruce
knew part of that was his fault for how he'd handled the
past ones.
She'd be busy while he was gone. Her business was thriving-
Stateside Support, Inc. had over a hundred clients. While
the sailors were deployed overseas defending U.S.
interests, Jill would be doing everything that needed to
be done back on the home front from watering plants and
caring for pets to paying bills and supervising yard work.
Those lucky enough to be a Stateside, Inc. client got gold-
plated care. Grace and Wolf were both clients. He'd be one
just as soon as his sister opened an office in Pensacola.
Bruce could send Jill roses for her birthday, tickets to a
concert, something he could arrange before he left. For
Jill, being remembered on the correct date mattered as
much as the gift. The options were depressing. He needed
to have the day with Jill as much as she did.
Bruce jolted as a hand slid across the top of his right
shoulder. Grace moved past him and leaned over the back of
Wolf 's chair. "We need more ice."
Tom tipped his head back to look up at her. "I brought
four bags."
She smiled down at him. "Cougar wants to make homemade ice
cream. He's found the hand turn freezer and the rock salt,
and he's got some concoction on the stove. Go corral your
partner before he gets in over his head."
"Yes, ma'am."
Wolf got to his feet and towered above her. They were
cousins but closer than most.
Gracie handed him her empty glass. "And Jill is getting
lonely."
"Is she?"
"Shoo."
"You want your favorite chair back."
"And you normally catch on faster. My feet are killing me.
We've got too many friends."
Wolf laughed. "I'll bring you some ice cream if it turns
out to be edible."
"Appreciate it." Grace settled with a comfortable sigh in
the chair Wolf had vacated. "I'm glad you could make it,
Bruce."
An odd tension settled in his gut to replace the
relaxation of moments before. Early thirties, brunette, a
smile that flirted with the camera, and blue eyes that
were alive-she was a photogenic dream. He'd borrowed one
of Wolf's wallet pictures months ago. "Good party."
"Enjoying yourself?" She held down her hand and his dog
emerged to say hello.
"I always do," he replied truthfully.
"Jill mentioned you had acquired a pet. She's beautiful."
"Timid."
"She's old," Grace corrected, smiling at the animal.
Bruce watched her focus on his dog, her voice softening as
she murmured a welcome. It shouldn't be so hard to get to
know her. He'd worked around pilots for over a decade.
Everything he knew about her suggested he was talking with
the person likely to become the first female squadron
commander. The problem was basic-just under that smile and
friendly welcome was an impenetrable wall guarding her
thoughts. What went on behind those blue eyes? Was she
content with her life? Lonely? Having a good year? A hard
one? She tended to deflect questions and it suggested a
deep reservoir inside. Finding answers was a challenge,
but he liked a challenge.
"So where are you going?" she asked as she scanned the
crowd.
She'd kept her ear to the ground, or else she cornered his
partner Rich who was wandering around this party
somewhere. "Turkey." Operation Northern Watch over
northern Iraq had its headquarters at Incirlik Air Base,
Turkey, and the no-fly zone had been a low-grade constant
conflict for years. The Twenty-third Special Tactics
Squadron would be replacing PJs who were stationed there
for the last three months.
She turned to give him her full attention. "The GW is
heading to the Med for part of this deployment."
"I know." The USS George Washington would be handling some
of Operation Northern Watch's flight assignments. "I'll be
playing catch on the ground if you get in trouble," he
teased her. He had been pulling pilots and Special Forces
soldiers from behind enemy lines for twelve years. If she
got in trouble, his unit would be the one getting the
call.
"It's interesting flying, but please," she teased
back, "antiaircraft artillery and surface-to-air missiles?
I can fly my way through that clutter in my sleep. I'm
more curious about what Wolf will be doing over there."
There were only 313 PJs and a few thousand SEALs on active
duty. They trained in similar ways: to fight behind enemy
lines, to be experts in night insertions by air or water,
to be the best at unconventional warfare. But in roles
they were very different. The SEALs went out to accomplish
their mission at all costs, were often sent into
situations where military muscle had to be exercised just
short of war. The PJs deployed for only one mission:
rescue. Bruce knew his friend. Wolf would downplay the
assignment, but a rotation to Turkey meant the SEALs would
probably be doing some work inside Iraq.
"Getting into trouble," he predicted.
"I think he was just born to do difficult things," she
agreed. "I saw you on the news." The lightness in her
voice had turned to subtle concern.