Prologue
October 1101
Constantinople
The damned incense hung eternal, like death, cleaved only by
the baneful dirge of screams and curses. Each clang and ring
of metal—tool on tool, tools falling into bowls and against
remnants of armor and ruined weaponry—was piercing. Sonorous
Latin droned from the colorless lips of the robed men who
mindlessly haloed the long, plastered room as if puppeted by
the enormous crucifix hung at the far end. Bodies thrashed
on pallets, fighting to free themselves from the hands of
the surgeons who sweated and strained and worked like the
dogs their patients swore them to be.
Surely this could be no faithful hospital.
For Roderick, it was Hell’s antechamber.
Sobs roiled within the fiery incense as well, as if
attempting to dampen the cloying stench of rot and disease
merely by the weighty emotion of upward of 150 men. Men like
himself, laid like so much half-butchered meat in a
smokehouse. The choking smoke was death, in Roderick’s
swollen and bruised mind. He could feel its close, burning
char against his already-fevered skin, licking away at his
sanity, slurping up his very life.
He waited his turn with the surgeon, who would come soon,
Hugh promised. Very soon.
Roderick would have added his own screams to the miserable
din—he certainly had pain enough to warrant them— but after
three weeks of worsening agony, he had no strength left to
utter the feeblest whimper. From the ill-fated battle at
Heraclea, Hugh had brought him, returning them both to that
grand city of Constantinople—and ultimately its hospital—
against Roderick’s protests.
“In Constantinople you will be cured,” Hugh had promised
repeatedly. “You must only persevere until Constantinople.
You must, Rick, you must!”
And Roderick had, although how, he knew not. He wanted to
die. To escape the pain of his injuries. To avoid returning
to his father in England a failure.
Yes, that was the worst of all, the thought that made
Roderick’s functioning eye well with thin tears—Magnus
Cherbon, awaiting his son’s return with hopes of the same
treasure and holy favor that Magnus himself had received on
his own pilgrimage. Roderick could hear his father’s
condemnation already: Worthless failure! Weak, weak, weak!
From your mother’s damned womb you were like her. Weak! No
son of mine. A disgrace. Roderick had heard the words so
many times, they were verse in his memory.
A tear at last escaped Roderick’s left eye and rolled dumbly
down his cheek to leap from his face onto the rough blanket
beneath his head. The tear left behind a wet path as cold as
the hatred it represented.
“He comes, Rick! Look!” Hugh grasped Roderick’s left
shoulder and squeezed, his voice sounding as if he was
putting on an air of excitement for a very young child.
Roderick’s left shoulder and arm were the only places where
his friend could touch him without causing further agony,
having been saved by the stout English shield strapped to
Roderick’s forearm.
Roderick let his head fall to the left, thankful that the
surgeon did not approach from the other side of the room,
lest Roderick’s injured face—bloated and stitched up like
saddle leather by a young Saracen boy—prevent him from
anticipating the man’s approach. Roderick felt the crude
courses of thick gut pull in his swollen flesh all the same—
from the bridge of his nose, over his cheekbone, across and
beyond his right temple. His view of the long hospital
chamber was reduced to a horizontal sliver through his left
eye, and he could see nothing at all through his right.
Perhaps it was no longer even in its socket; Roderick could
not bring himself to ask Hugh. His nose was broken badly,
his cheekbone likely fractured as well. Since he’d been
dragged from his mount during that bloody slaughter, the
only sound in his right ear had been a dull roar, like an
ocean tempest beyond the cliffs of his old home, Cherbon.
His head injuries were serious, Roderick knew. But his arm
was so much worse—his right arm, his sword arm. And his left
leg . . .
The surgeon neared Roderick’s pallet, his long leather apron
and tunic beneath stained a terrible and ghastly black. Two
pale, thin lads bobbed along in the surgeon’s wake, carrying
his instruments in flat, shallow baskets. The man’s white
hair was long and thick to his shoulders, some strands
escaping the tight knot of leather at his nape, and the ends
looked as if they’d been dipped in blood. His eyes were deep
set and wintry, his mouth hard and nearly invisible. He
walked quickly, the hands swinging at his side looking as
though they had been stolen from a Saracen— stained a deep,
deep brown, his fingernails in black relief.
A squealing fear raced up Roderick’s spine at the surgeon’s
approach, and he prayed with everything left of his soul
that he would die before the learned old man reached him.
He’d never imagined fear like this, and it caused Roderick
to scream and thrash and beg for reprieve inside his broken
shell of a body.
But outside, that shell did not so much as twitch.
“What is it?” the surgeon asked of Hugh, reaching out his
nightmarish hands and speaking even before coming at once
over the pallet. Hard fingers probed either side of
Roderick’s forehead, roughly turning the splintered skull in
a starburst of fresh agony. “Head wound, yes?” Hands with
the strength of Goliath pressed his shattered right arm.
“And arm, I see. Both stitched as well as can be. Fever, yes?”
Hugh seemed to at last regain his voice at the brusque
questions and statements, given with little apparent
sympathy. “Yes, yes, maestro. Fever, yes. The stitches seem
to be holding well, but his fever has steadily worsened
since Heraclea. I think perhaps it is his leg—”
Before Hugh could finish, the old man swept down upon
Roderick’s left leg and jerked up the stained covering.
Roderick fancied he could smell his own wound on the breeze
the surgeon created, although his nose had been too swollen
to take air in more than a fortnight.
Hugh stepped toward Roderick’s feet and continued. “Perhaps
the lance which pierced him was tainted with p—”
“Poison, yes,” the surgeon interrupted. “And through the
thickness of his calf, no less. I’ve seen it often enough.
Nasty trick.” The surgeon dropped the blanket back over
Roderick’s leg and flicked his fingertips to the lads
hovering behind him, indicating the boys should move on.
They trudged past Roderick’s pallet without a glance.
The old man looked at Hugh. “He’ll die.” Then the surgeon
stepped directly into Roderick’s line of sight, putting
angular cheekbones before his face. “Awake, yes? Good.
You’re going to die, my man,” he nearly shouted, as if he
knew Roderick’s hearing was not in its finest capacity. “Do
you understand?”
Roderick wanted to nod and thought his chin may have
twitched downward. He was so thankful that the man would not
be touching him with those black fingers. He let his eye close.
“No!” Hugh shouted. Roderick didn’t want to open his eye
again, but the sounds of a scuffle prompted a distant
concern for his friend. Hugh appeared again in the narrow
slit of Roderick’s vision, having seized the surgeon by one
arm. “No, he can not die. There must be something you can do.”
The old man pulled his arm free with a cold look of warning.
“The poison’s been in him too long. Had I been at his side
when he fell, perhaps. But now, any potion would be wasted
on him—like pouring it upon the ground, and we have not
enough as it is. He’ll be cold by the morrow’s light. I am
sorry. Good day.”
“No!” Hugh shouted again, and this time nearly pulled the
surgeon off his feet. “You must try to understand—he saved
my life. Anything you can do—”
“Good sir, you see the men lying about this chamber, yes?”
the surgeon demanded. “Think you their lives are worth less
than this man’s?”
“Yes,” Hugh answered immediately. “Yes, I do.”
“Well, I do not,” the surgeon shouted, and Roderick silently
agreed with him. The surgeon turned to go, but Hugh grabbed
at the man’s hand once more, this time falling to his knees
behind him.
“Please, maestro, please! I beg of you.” At the reedy catch
in Hugh Gilbert’s voice and the sight of him pressing his
lips to the surgeon’s bloodstained hand, Roderick let his
eye close once more. He could not bear to see the man plead
for a cause so hopeless and unworthy.
“Do you not think I would save him if I could?” Roderick
heard the surgeon say in a quieter, slightly gentler voice.
“Please,” was Hugh’s only reply.
Roderick heard a curt sigh, and then, “Boy!” After the
pattering of quick footsteps and a rustle-clink: “This will
ease his pain. It’s all I can spare, I’m afraid. Small dose
at first, yes? Only from the fingertip, lest you wish to
show him mercy and kill him outright. He may stay until he’s
dead, and then he must be moved. I need the pallet.”
The surgeon’s steps fled impatiently from Hugh’s “God bless
you, maestro. Thank you, thank you!”
In the next moment, Hugh’s breath huffed a cool, hammering
breeze on Roderick’s fevered and throbbing face, and
Roderick heard the pip of a small cork. “Here we are,
Rick—what I had hoped for. Open up now.” He felt Hugh’s
rough finger push inside his lips to scrub at his gums. A
tingling warmth filled his mouth and then Hugh’s finger
returned. And again.
Was his friend trying to kill him? Roderick opened his eye
as best he could while his head started a slow, buzzing spin.
Hugh’s face swam before him, milky and pebbled with sweat,
as he tried to fit the stopper back in the small, colored
glass bottle with fumbling fingers. “Come on, come on, for
fuck’s sake!” The cork at last slid home and Hugh slipped
the vial away inside his tunic.
“Hugh?” Roderick tried to whisper, but he heard only a
gurgling “oo” blurt from his lips. It was enough to get his
friend’s attention.
“It’s a lot, I know,” Hugh rushed as he reached over
Roderick, gathering together into a rough sack their few
belongings scattered on either side of Roderick’s pallet.
“But you need it—we’re getting out of here, Rick. I’m taking
you to—”
“Oh,” Roderick choked.
“Yes.” Hugh stood and disappeared from Roderick’s line of
sight, but his words were still painfully clear as Roderick
felt the rough blanket he rested on lift his head and
shoulders. “Try to sleep,” Hugh said with a whoosh of
effort. “It will—”
But the rest of his friend’s statement was lost to Roderick
as Hugh jerked on the blanket and began pulling it like a
makeshift gurney. Roderick’s body started, and the white
pain that exploded from the rough movement, combined with
the sizzling, dazzling substance Hugh had slipped into
Roderick’s mouth ensured that he did, indeed, sleep.
Roderick didn’t know how long he’d been unconscious, or how
far Hugh had dragged him, but he didn’t think it had been
very long or very far, for the acrid taste of the hospital’s
incense was still thick and gritty in his mouth. He heard
the voices before he could try to open his remaining
functioning eye, which refused to cooperate at that moment,
any matter. As it was, whatever drug Hugh had given to
Roderick was affecting his already-disadvantaged hearing,
distorting the voices and, in spots, blanking them out
altogether.
He felt no pain—indeed, he was largely numb, save for the
uncontrollable trembling which had seized him. Perhaps he
was cold. Or fevered. Roderick could not tell.
A quieter voice beyond the black curtain of Roderick’s
awareness now deteriorated into a sob, and then Roderick
heard Hugh.
“I wanted to come to you first, but I didn’t know—”
“No, no,” a woman said. “I understand. I am glad you’ve
brought him, although I doubt I can help him.”
The voice, low and sweet and lilted, filtered through
Roderick’s brain in a familiar pattern. He knew this
speaker. Who? Who . . . ? Aster? Ophelia? No . . .
“You gave him too much, Hugh.” The woman spoke again, closer
to Roderick this time. He could feel her warmth near his
left side. “He may not wake.” A brief image of dark,
sloe-eyed beauty draped in purple silk flashed through
Roderick’s memory, but was gone before
Ardis? No, that wasn’t it either. . . .
“Oh, God!” Hugh cried, and Roderick could hear the very
depths of his friend’s misery. He felt a distant sympathy
for the man, obviously in a pain which Roderick could
blessedly no longer feel. “I knew not what else to do! He
was in such agony—I thought moving him with any less would
kill him.” A shuffling of feet and then Hugh’s voice sounded
closer, hushed though, as if speaking a quiet blasphemy. “I
think he wants to die.”
“Then he likely will,” the woman said. “Without the will to
live, there would be little I could do were his injuries
even half.”
Those sloe eyes again, and music. Dancing . . .
“You are his last hope, Aurelia,” Hugh said, his words
nearly a gasp. “Our last hope.”