Larissa Nielsen had imagined how she'd look when she saw
Jacob Danforth again. None of her ideas involved wearing her
oldest pair of leggings and a tie-dyed Florida T-shirt. But
the early-morning call from Jasmine Carmody, a reporter with
the Savannah Morning News, had left Larissa no
choice. She needed to talk to Jake before Jasmine told the
world who Peter's father was. Now Larissa was sitting in
her car in front of Jake's Savannah town house like some
crazy ex-girlfriend stalker. She wished she were just waking
up back at her house in Riverside. She wished their morning
routine wasn't disrupted and she and her three-year-old
son could welcome the day on their dock overlooking the
Savannah River. Instead, she was about to do something, her
conscience reminded her, she should have done a long time ago.
She shone the light of her tiny flashlight on the pages in
front of her. A collection of Robert Frost poetry had always
been her saving grace. She'd used it to escape from life
more than once and this morning, while she waited for time
to creep by, it provided the escape she desperately needed
from her chaotic thoughts.
A rap on the car window startled her. She glanced up to see
the faint outline of a man. The man leaned down and she
looked into dark brown eyes she'd never forgotten. His
tough-guy look faded, replaced by a welcoming smile when he
recognized her. She unlocked her door and Jake opened it.
Larissa wasn't a person anyone would call timid. But
suddenly she felt like the Cowardly Lion. And it wasn't
anything like the green floating head of the Great and
Powerful Oz that scared her. She knew the man behind the
curtain and she knew he would be royally pissed when she
told him he had a three-year-old son.
Peter slept quietly in his car seat and she double-checked
that his favorite blanket was tucked next to his chin before
getting out of the car. The March morning air was chilly.
She shivered a little and rubbed her hands on her arms,
praying the tinted windows wouldn't reveal her son until
she had a chance to tell Jacob herself.
"What are you doing parked in front of my house at seven
in the morning?"
Jake was dressed in running shorts and a sleeveless T-shirt
that was stained with sweat. He must have left before
she'd arrived. She smoothed her hair down, wishing
she'd had the time to make herself look more presentable.
He looked as good as she remembered. Would he feel as good?
Somehow she knew he would, despite the fact that it had been
almost four years since she'd had sex. She forced her
gaze from his muscled chest to his face.
"It's a long story."
"About four years long?"
"You have no idea."
"Well, then let's get comfortable. Come inside and
I'll make you some coffee. You know I'm famous for
it."
She couldn't help but smile. Even when they'd been
nothing more than friends, Jake had always been able to make
her laugh. But she couldn't leave Peter sleeping in the car.
"Actually, I have something to tell you."
"And you can't do it inside?"
"Well…no."
She leaned back against the driver's door and tried to
find the right words. She swallowed once then licked her
lips. "Um…this is harder than I thought it would be."
"I wish I could help you out, Larissa, but I have no
idea what you're trying to say."
She shook herself. She'd be matter-of-fact. She was
known for her practicality. "Remember that night at the
reunion?"
"How could I forget?" he asked, running the tip of
one finger down the side of her face. Shivers of awareness
coursed through her. Jake had always elicited a response
from her even when he wasn't trying to.
"I haven't forgotten it either," she said.
"Is that why you are here?" he asked. He leaned
closer toward her, surrounding her with the heat of his body
and his earthy scent. His dark eyes focused on her lips and
she felt them tingle. Without thinking, she licked her
bottom lip and he tracked the motions with his gaze. Dammit,
this was getting out of hand. His touch on her face moved to
her mouth, stroking her bottom lip with his thumb.
"Larissa Nielsen on my doorstep. I can't quite
figure out why. Why now? Why are you here, Larissa?"
"A reporter contacted me about your uncle's senate
bid." Larissa knew the only way to the truth was through
the story of what had happened. Because the reason she'd
been keeping Peter a secret hadn't changed and if
Jasmine Carmody hadn't called her, Larissa would still
be at home in Riverside watching the sun rise and drinking
D&D Coffee's special morning blend.
"Those damned reporters. They won't leave any of us
alone." Jake ran his fingers through his thick curly
hair in a gesture she'd seen her son make when he was on
the verge of a meltdown.
"I'm sorry," she said, knowing Jake treasured
his privacy above just about anything else.
"Hey, babe, it's not your fault. So why are you
here?"
"She knows about our one-night stand," Larissa
blurted out.
"I wish you wouldn't call it that. I wanted to see
you again."
He'd called her several times, but she'd dodged his
calls. Eventually she'd moved to Atlanta with her
college roommate to make sure Jake never found out their one
night had consequences.
Jake hadn't been ready for fatherhood then. D&D's,
the coffeehouse Jake had co-founded with his cousin Adam,
had been about to go national and Jake hadn't really
changed all that much since college. He was still the
fun-loving, Saturday-morning-soccer-playing guy he'd
always been. And she knew from bitter experience that a
woman who tied a man down became a burden. She'd vowed
long ago to never become a burden.
"I had my reasons for not meeting you in Cancun."
She nibbled her lower lip. Just tell him.
"Our one night together isn't really that
newsworthy, honey. Don't worry about that."
"Actually, it is," Larissa said.
"Why, did the reporter have pictures?" Jake asked
with a bad-boy grin that brought that night back in vivid
detail. It had been a steamy summer night, and in his arms
she'd felt like the most beautiful woman in the world,
not the plain Jane she'd always been.
"Yes, but not of us."
"Then who?" he asked, becoming exasperated.
Oh, God. "Our son."
Jake staggered back from her. "Did you say son?"
"Yes, his name is Peter, Peter Jacob, and he's three
years old."
Jacob reached for the back door but it was still locked.
"Unlock it."
She did and he opened the door and looked down on their
sleeping son. Peter's curly hair was the same dark shade
as Jake's. He reached out for Peter's head with a
touch so gentle that she knew she'd made a mistake in
not telling him sooner.
But the past had taught her a bitter lesson, and she'd
always dreamed that her life would be sit-com perfect.
Instead reality was very different. All the excuses
she'd made to herself for the past three years sounded
lame now and when Jake glanced up at her, she knew he'd
think so, too.
"My son," he said, looking down on Peter with a
wealth of emotions that she hadn't suspected Jake could
feel.
His son. He still couldn't really take it in. Parenthood
was an alien concept to Jake. He reached for the buckle on
the car seat but couldn't figure out how to operate it.
Nothing in his life had prepared him for this. He'd have
to give his brother Toby a call later; he was the only
expert on fatherhood he knew.
"Get him out," he said to Larissa. His hands were
shaking. He was a father.
She brushed past him. Her slender body had remained
unchanged over the years since they first met. Her clear
blue eyes had always struck him as the most honest he'd
ever looked into—until today.
Larissa put her hand on his back and leaned into the car.
One of her breasts brushed against his side and arousal
moved through him like lightning. He felt the heat from her
hand on the small of his back burn through his shirt.
She pushed against him as she leaned into the car, balancing
herself with the touch on his back. Reaching out, she
ruffled Peter's hair. "Morning, sleepyhead."
"Morning, Mama," he said.
They had a bond. A bond that Jake had never wanted but now
suddenly envied. Maybe this was what he'd been searching
for lately. Maybe this would fill the restlessness that his
work and partying couldn't.
Jake reached for his son and the boy recoiled, pulling a
ragged-looking bear and a tattered blanket closer. Tucking
the edge of the blanket between his lips, Peter looked at
Larissa.
"It's okay, baby. Jake's a friend." Larissa
turned toward him, her breath brushing across his cheek. Her
mouth was fuller than he'd remembered.
"He's kind of shy around new people," Larissa said.
"The word Dad is foreign to him?" Jake asked, to
remind himself that Larissa wasn't the sweet girl from
his memories. She was the woman who'd had his child and
kept it a secret.
"He's only three. Some things take time to
remember."
"Did you have a problem remembering too?" he asked
sarcastically.
Jake had always loved women. He'd never had any trouble
with them. Women were meant to be protected, he knew, even
though his track record on this front wasn't great. But
how did you protect someone who had betrayed you?
She sighed. "If you're going to treat me the way I
deserve to be treated, I'm going to take Peter home and
come back by myself. To him you're a stranger who's
mad at his mom."
He realized she was right. For better or worse, Peter's
entire world revolved around Larissa. And making Larissa cry
or angry probably wouldn't help Peter to like him. He
straightened from the car and took the two steps back to the
sidewalk.
She lifted their son out, brushing a soft kiss against the
top of his head and rubbing his back before setting the boy
on the sidewalk. It was obvious how deeply Larissa cared for
her son. He shouldn't be surprised. She'd always had
a nurturing quality about her. Originally it was what had
drawn him to her.
Peter clung to the back of Larissa's leg, watching Jake
with the same intensity that his mother did. Why hadn't
she trusted him enough to tell him he had a son?
"Did that reporter follow you?" he asked.
"I don't think so."
"Let's go inside just to be safe."
She nodded and bent to pry her son's hands from her
thigh. She took the small hand in her own and as Jake
watched them, he realized the two of them were watching him.
Waiting to see what he'd do. Frankly, he was out of his
element.
He bent down on one knee and held out his hand to his son.
Peter hesitated, then handed Jake the bear. "Oh,
he's giving you Mr. Bear. That means he likes you."
"I'm glad one of you does," Jake said.
Larissa watched him with those soulful eyes of hers. And he
felt like a big mean bully. He tried to get past his anger
so he could remember all the reasons he liked her but he
couldn't.
"Oh, Jake, this isn't about liking you," she
said, softly.
He glanced up at her. "Then what is it about?"
"Me not being the right woman for you."
"Well, I do tend to like a different sort of woman."
"I know. Tall, blond and built."
"Nice opinion you've got of me, Rissa. But I'm
not that shallow. I meant honest. I like my women to be
honest."
She flushed. He knew that anything else he said now would be
mean and sarcastic, but sending her away with the son
he'd just discovered wasn't an option.
He pivoted on his heel without saying another word.
Unlocking the door to his town house, he turned left and
entered his living quarters. The living room was sleek and
sophisticated. All chrome, glass and Italian leather. The
entertainment center was top of the line and he'd just
had a new large-screen plasma TV installed on Friday.
Larissa and Peter stood in the doorway as if afraid to
enter. How old was his son? He knew she'd told him, but
he'd been trying to grapple with the fact that he was a
father and hadn't paid attention. It had been almost
four years since he'd seen Larissa so Peter would have
to be about three. What did kids that age do?
"Does he watch TV?"
"Yes. But only PBS."
Figures, Larissa would be all about educational television.
He looked at the serious little boy.
His son. He felt a stirring so deep inside that it made his
anger pale. This was his son. His future was tied to this
little boy, and he knew he had to make the situation right.
He knelt in front of Peter again. The boy had his eyes. He
studied Peter until the boy reached out and touched the
stubble on his chin. "You're prickly."
"I didn't have time to shave yet."
Peter glanced up at Larissa. "How come you don't
feel like that? "
"Girls don't," she said.
"Girls are different," Peter said, turning back to Jake.
"They sure are."
"You got any food?" Peter asked.
"Peter."
"It's okay. Come on, I'll fix us some
breakfast." He stood and led Peter down the hall to the
kitchen. "Then your mom and I need to talk."