I spent a solitary day this Christmas. It was an unsettling
experience but I made the most of my time alone, taking a
walk, reading my new book, relaxing to Christmas cCarols on
the radio. Just before ten10 that night, I snuggled in an
armchair by the cozy warmth of the coal stove, reading one
more chapter before going to bed. Sudden, loud pounding on
my front door made me to lurch to my feet. I winced as the
book hit the floor with a thump but didn’t pause to pick it
up on my way to the door. Only bad news comes late at
night. I flung open the door with dread.
‘Merry Christmas!’ two voices shouted.
‘Ruthie!’ I couldn’t believe my old roommate was standing
on my doorstep. ‘I didn’t think you were coming back until
Sunday.’
‘Changed our minds,’ Ruth said. ‘Hey, you haven’t met my
sister. This here is Irene. Irene, Libby. Irene doesn’t
work in our building, she’s got a job up at the guest
house.’
The two young women slipped off their shoes and stepped
inside. Irene reached her hand forward and said, ‘What do
you know, what’d you say?’
I couldn’t help grinning at the latest slang and
repliedying with some of my own, ‘Doing swell.’
Ruth continued, ‘Yep, Irene meets a lot of important people
working up at that place.’ ‘
Irene shrugged. ‘Who knows? Those cats act like they’re
important and they’re treated like they’re important, but I
don’t know who they are really. There was this funny-
looking, little fella with a big gap between his front
teeth here last month. He spoke with an Eye-talian accent –
—couldn’t quite figure that one out – —I thought we were at
war with Italy. But anyway, he said his name was Mr.
Farmer. An Eye-talian named Farmer? I just said,
“‘swell”.’’
‘The all- purpose answer,’ I laughed. I wondered if Mr.
Farmer was actually the brilliant physicist Enrico Fermi –
—the description did fit the photographs I’d seen of him.
And he certainly would be important enough to have a code
name.
‘Sure is cold out there tonight,’ Ruth said. ‘But we
brought something back from home that’ll warm us up.’
Both girls reached up under their skirts and pulled out a
bottle of Jack Daniels. ‘Good old Tennessee sipping
whiskey,’ Ruth said, ‘made right in our hometown.’
‘How did you get it through the gate?’ I asked.
Ruth snickered, ‘We stuck it in our underpants and slipped
it up under our waistbands to hold it in place. They might
be particular about security, —but there are still places
they wouldn’t dare search.’
‘Or at least, they’d better not try,’ Irene added. ‘We were
raised on this stuff – — put it in our bottles from the
time we were babes. It’s a sin it’s illegal in this part of
Tennessee – —downright un-American.’
‘Oh, stop it, Irene. You’ll have Libby thinking we’re a
bunch of backwoods moonshiner trash.’
‘Well, Grandpa, did . . .…’
‘Irene!’ Ruth scolded.
Irene laughed. ‘Ah, Libby knows I’m just joshing. Still,
this stuff is Killer Diller. Have you ever had any, Libby?’
‘No, I can’t say that I have.’
‘You’re in for a treat, honey. It’s pretty loco, but we
live in a dry county, too, and yet we make barrels of
hooch,’ Irene said.
‘Not any more,’ Ruth added. ‘They’re still distillin’
alcohol but instead of using it to make this fine whiskey,
it’s all going to fuel for torpedoes. It’s a good cause but
it sure is a high price to pay.’
‘How did you manage to get these bottles, then?’
Irene and Ruth exchanged a grin. ‘Uncle Reuben!’ they said
in unison.
‘He was a taster before the war,’ Ruth said.
‘And he was a smart one,’ Irene added. ‘He saw the war
coming long time afore it got here. He spent a couple of
years, buying a bottle a week to tuck away in his cellar.’
‘Now,’ Ruth said, ‘hHe’s got cases of this mighty fine
stuff. He’s not too willin’ to part with it but he said
since we were doing work to end the war, least he could do
was give us each a bottle for Christmas.’
‘God bless Uncle Reuben,’ Irene said, hoisting her bottle
in the air. ‘Well, gotta run. My fella’s waiting.’ Irene
stuck her bottle back under her skirt and was gone.
Ruth slipped out of her coat and said, ‘Got any glasses?’
I went into the kitchen and pulled two juice glasses out of
a cabinet. Ruth filled them both with whiskey. ‘Now, sip it
slow,’ she warned.
I brought the glass to my lips, hesitating for a moment
before taking a tiny sip. My tongue went numb and burning
heat sped down my throat and into my stomach. I felt my
eyes pop and my jaw drop. ‘Oh my!…’
‘Good, isn’t it?’ Ruth said while laughing at what must
have been a comical expression on my face. ‘Packs a lot
more kick than that puny 3.2 Barbarossa bBeer.’
I nodded and dared to take a second sip; —this swallow was
different. I felt a warm, soothing smoothness as the liquid
trickled down. I felt as if I were glowing from the inside
out. I led Ruth back into the living room where we both sat
on the floor in front of the coal stove.
‘That Irene is somethin’ else, Libby. Just as I think she’s
a pig-headed, selfish little thing, she does or says
somethin’ sweet. Like on the ride back on the train, she
said that we oughta give you one of these bottles and split
the other one and I said that was a good idea. So I’ll
leave this one here when I go,’ Ruth said.
‘No, don’t do that,’ I objected. ‘Take it back to the
dormitory and give some other girls a treat. It wouldn’t be
a good idea for me to sit around here drinking alone.’ I
hadn’t been raised in a teetotaling household but I’d heard
plenty of stories from Pprohibition of friends and
neighbors whose lives were destroyed by excessive
consumption of bathtub gin and corn whiskey distilled in
someone’s barn. I just didn’t feel comfortable with
anything stronger than sherry around the house.
‘Are you sure?’ Ruth asked.
‘Absolutely. Now, tell me about your Christmas.’
‘We had so much fun! On Christmas Eve, Christmas carolers
from the church came by the house. Ma invited them all
inside for cocoa and cookies. I couldn’t believe she found
some cocoa. I hadn’t had any since soon after the war
started. Ma was so cute about not tellin’ any of us where
she got it. Irene started teasin’ her, askin’ her if she
had a beau. Ma swatted her with the kitchen towel but never
did answer. I sure hope she is seein’ someone. She’s been
alone a long time.
‘Christmas morning, we opened presents and the best part of
that was watchin’ our little brother. I gave him a new sled
—he busted up his last winter when he went flying into a
tree.’
‘A tree? Was he badly hurt?’ Libby asked.
‘Just his pride—you know how boys are. He rolled off before
the sled hit and got a few bruises but that was it. Anyway,
he was as excited as all get out with my gift until he
opened his present from Irene. She got him a Flying
Fortress aviator suit from Sears. Oh my, he ran out of the
room and put it on right away. Said he would wear it
forever and never take it off. He wasn’t too pleased when
Ma said he couldn’t wear it to bed, but I’d bet she let him
wear it tonight. It came with one of those cardboard glider
plane models. He ran around the house for hours, holding it
up in the air and pretending he was flying in it. Nothing
like a kid to make Christmas special.’
As I listened, my mind drifted off like wisps of smoke in a
breeze to those long ago Christmases when Dad was still
alive. The bittersweet memories stirred up comingled
feelings of happiness and sadness that left a dull ache in
my chest. I shook it off and turned my full attention back
to Ruth. ‘Sounds like you were having a great time. Why did
you come back early?’
‘Oh, it was Irene’s idea. She’s really been worryin’ me.
She’s been edgy all weekend like somethin’s bothering her.
On the ride up, I thought maybe she was afraid I’d tell Ma
she’s seein’ a married man. So I told her I wouldn’t say a
word. She just snapped at me saying she didn’t care what I
said to Ma. Then, she started on me about returnin’ earlier
than we planned. She didn’t let up the whole time we were
there.’
‘Did she say why?’ I asked.
‘She said she missed her boyfriend, —but I think there’s
somethin’ more to it. She was so touchy and when she didn’t
think anyone was lookin’, she had this awful expression on
her face like she was standin’ in front of a firing squad.
Even Ma noticed. Asked her what was wrong.’
‘What did she say to your mother?’
‘She didn’t really answer. She just got on Ma’s case for
agreein’ with me about the two of us being roommates. She
reminded Ma that she wasn’t a kid no more and that I wasn’t
her mother and she was real tired of my bossiness. But I
can’t boss that girl around. She don’t do nothin’ I say any
more. Hey, forget about my sister. She said she wouldn’t
stay out late tonight so I’ll see her soon enough in the
dormitory.’
We chatted and sipped for a couple of hours, slipping back
into the easy exchange we had developed when we lived
jammed together in a room built for one occupant. It was
pleasant to set aside the turmoil of the world around us
and be nothing more than two women who enjoyed each other’s
company. The commonalities of our childhoods had drawn us
together while work, our relative positions in the
workplace and even the war itself faded into the
background.
Around one in the morning1 A.M., Ruth pushed herself to her
feet and said, ‘I’d better get up and get going while I can
still walk.’
‘You want me to walk you to your dorm?’ I offered.
‘If you do that, Libby, who’s gonna walk you home?’
Why didn’t I think of that? I shook my head, stirring up a
wave of dizziness that made me realize how tipsy I felt. I
had to focus hard to untangle my thinking and respond.
‘I’ll watch you go down the street. And you come back soon.
We can listen to some radio shows.’
‘Do you like Fibber McGee and Molly and The Shadow?’ Ruth
asked.
‘They’re two of my favorites – —it’s a lot more fun when
you have someone to laugh with or get scared with.’
‘I’ll be back for sure and we’ll listen together.
‘I wonder if we’ll ever have television in our homes?’ I
mused, not realizing I’d spoken out loud until Ruth
responded.
‘Television? You mean moving pictures in our house? You’ve
got to be kidding.’
‘I saw one at the Chicago World’s Fair a few years ago. I
thought we’d have them by now.’
‘Maybe after the war, then. A lot’s gonna change after the
war,’ Ruth said.
The falling temperatures after nightfall made the steps
treacherous. We helped each other down to the boardwalk.
‘You could stay here, Ruthie.’
‘Nah, if I don’t get back to the room, Irene will be
worried. I’ll be all right. You be careful going back up
those stairs.’
I watched Ruth’s back as it grew smaller and then
disappeared at a bend in the road. I went back up the steps
with exaggerated care. I thought about banking the fire or
cleaning up the kitchen but it just seemed too much. I
dropped face forward on the bed believing I’d rest for just
a minute and then get up and take care of everything.
Next thing I knew, early morning light was streaking into
the bedroom under the curtains. I was clutching myself from
the cold and my head was pounding so hard, I could hear it.
It took me a moment to realize that the noise was coming
from the front door, not a hangover. I rolled over and sat
up. The alarm clock read 7:30. Although I was usually up by
that time, on this morning, it seemed far too early. Served
me right for enjoying a little too much whiskey the night
before.
Before I could throw my legs out of bed, I heard the front
door bang open. ‘Libby, Libby, Libby!’
Ruthie? What would she want at this time of morning? ‘Is
something wrong?’ I asked as I slide my reluctant feet onto
the floor and forced my unwilling legs to carry me into the
living room.
‘Irene never came home last night.’
‘Are you sure? Maybe she came in and left early.’
‘She would’ve left a note – —well, maybe she wouldn’t, —but
she sure would have made a mess. I’m cleaning up after her
all the time. She never makes her bed and it was as neat as
it was when I made it before we went home for Christmas.
I’m scared, Libby. I know Irene can be a little wild. And
sometimes she stays out too late. But she always comes back
to the room . . .…’
‘Could she just have spent the night in someone else’s
room?’
‘I checked with all her friends. None of them saw her last
night. And she wouldn’t be working, she wasn’t due in again
until Monday.’
‘Do you know where she went last night when she left here?’
‘She said she was meeting her boyfriend.’
‘Where?’
‘Towncenter.’
‘But all the shops were closed yesterday, all day long. Why
would she meet him there?’
‘She said they always met there. I don’t know. I’m worried
she might’ve fallen down and broke somethin’ or stepped in
a big mud hole somewhere, sprained her ankle, broke her
arm, and can’t pull herself out. And it’s so cold this
morning the way the wind is blowin’.’
‘Let’s go find her.’
I quickly got myself ready and then off we went. I Libby
was startled by the dramatic difference in the noise level
outside. Yesterday, when she’d walked, a blanket of quiet
peace had spread over the community. Today, life had
returned to normal as if Christmas had never happened. Even
though it was Saturday, I could hear bulldozers roaring at
the construction sites and see legions of workers streaming
to the bus stops.
At Towncenter, none of the stores had opened for business
yet but lights shone in the back of the A&P as workers got
ready for a new shopping day. Ruth and I looked around the
front of the shops, peering in the windows and then circled
around behind them, lifting up trash can lids and searching
behind piles of cardboard boxes. —Nno sign of Irene
anywhere.
‘Let’s go up to the high school,’ I suggested.
‘You think Irene went up there?’
‘I don’t know. Maybe her and her boyfriend wanted to take
in the view.’
‘Maybe they went up for the view. Or maybe they went up
there to make-out – —I hear it’s a pretty popular place at
night. Probably oughta check the picnic grounds behind the
Chapel on the Hill – —that’s another spot.’
Well, that was a surprise. The high school and the picnic
grounds as trysting spots? News to me. ‘How do you know
that, Ruthie?’
‘Never you mind,’ Ruth said with a laugh.
We walked around the semi-circular driveway in front of the
school and looked out over the Towncenter, the
aAdministration bBuilding and the dormitories. I wasn’t
sure why I stared down at the scene below for so long and I
doubted that Ruth had any idea of what answers she expected
to find down there, either. After a few minutes of watching
the bustle of a town awakening for the day, we turned
toward back toward the school and trudged around the
perimeter of the building, then over to the athletic field.
When I spotted the shoed feet twisted at an unnatural angle
under the wooden seats of the bleachers, I turned to Ruth.
She did not seem aware of them yet. When I saw no signs of
life – —no rising and falling of breath, no twitch in any
of the limbs, something that felt solid lodged in my
throat, making it difficult to breath. I wanted to run
toward the stands but didn’t want to excite Ruth, so I
didn’t alter my pace as we drew closer to the ominous
sight.
When Ruth gasped and broke into a run, I rushed after her.
‘Wait, Ruthie, wait.’
But Ruth would not stop. I could tell her gaze was riveted
on those shoes and heard her whisper her sister’s name. A
flash of memory sparked and I recognized the coat and hat
as the ones Irene was wearing the night before. Ruth
crawled under the end of the bleachers on her hands and
knees and threw herself on top of her sister’s body.
‘Irene, Irene, Irene,’ she wailed.
I kneeled on the seat right above them. I saw a scarf tied
tight around Irene’s neck and turned my head away from the
bulging eyes dotted with pinpricks of hemorrhage. Acid
rolled up from my stomach, dissolving the lump in my
throat. I swallowed again and again to keep the tears from
flowing. This was a crime scene and it had to be preserved.
I forced a calm I didn’t feel into my words. ‘Ruthie,
Ruthie. Come out. We have to get help.’
‘No, no, no. She’s just sick. Everything will be okay.’
I wanted to crawl into that seductive cocoon of denial with
her but knew I didn’t dare. I slipped under the bleachers
to Ruth’s side, wrapping an arm around her shoulders.
‘C’mon, we can’t do anything here. Let’s go get security
and let them take care of her.’
Ruth pushed me away. ‘No. No, you go. I’ll stay here.’
I lifted my head and looked around the field, fearing that
someone lurked on its edges, frightened that it would not
be safe to leave Ruth here alone. ‘Ruthie, we need to get
help. You can’t stay here. Whoever did this to Irene might
still be nearby.’
‘Watchin’ us?’ Ruth’s brow furrowed as she stared at Libby.
‘Maybe. Let’s go. Being here is making me very nervous.’
Ruth looked down and stretched her hands toward the scarf.
I grasped them firmly in mine. Ruth struggled to pull away.
‘Look at me, Ruthie. Look at me.’
Ruth turned her head away from her sister and faced me.
‘Don’t touch that. It’s evidence.’
‘How can I leave that around her throat?’ Ruth moaned.
‘You have to. The investigators will need to see that. It
might help them find who did this. Let’s go.’
Ruth sighed and made no further move to loosen the scarf
but she didn’t budge an inch either. ‘I have to stay here,
Libby. This is my sister. I can’t leave her here all alone
– —in the cold. I can’t. Go, get help. I’ll stay with
Irene.’
‘Are you sure?’
‘Yes. She’s my little sister. I’m supposed to take care of
her. I promised Ma. Just hurry, Libby. Hurry!’
I ran down the hill on the boardwalk, past the Towncenter,
to the police station in the administrative building. I was
panting by the time I reached the officer at the front
desk. ‘Please help me! My friend’s sister is dead. We found
her body under the bleachers. In the athletic field. At the
high school.’
‘Okay. Slow down. Catch your breath. Now, you found a
body?’
‘Yes. It’s Irene Nance. Someone killed her.’
‘You saw a body?’
‘Yes. We need help. Please send help,’ I turned away from
the counter and took a step towards the door.
‘Miss. Hold it right there. I’ve got to get more
information from you.’
‘I can’t leave my friend out there alone,’ I objected.
‘I thought you said she was with her sister.’
Idiot! I came back to the desk and slapped my hands on the
wood. ‘You’re not listening to me. My friend is with her
sister’s body.’
The officer pulled out a sheet of paper. ‘Okay. Your name
please.’
‘I’ve got to go back out there.’
‘Miss. I have to fill out this report if you want help.’
Exasperating! ‘Libby, uh, Elizabeth Clark.’
‘Your address?’
‘384 East Drive.’
‘Where do you work?’
‘Y-12. Beta lab.’
‘Secretary?’
‘No. I’m a cChemist.’
The officer raised an eyebrow. ‘Wait right here.’
‘I’ve got to get back to my friend.’
‘I’ll be right back, Miss.’ He said, nodding over my head
at someone or something.
I turned around and saw an officer stand in front of the
door, his legs spread wide, his hands behind his back. He
stared up at the ceiling but I suspected he would not miss
a move I made. I paced the width of the room until the
first officer returned.
‘Follow me, Miss,’ he ordered and led me back to an office
where the door was marked Captain Wilson. ‘Elizabeth Clark,
sir.’
‘Have a seat, Miss Clark,’ Wilson said.
‘Thank you but I really need to get back to my friend.’
‘We have people on the way, Miss Clark. You’ll just be a
distraction. We need you to wait here. Can I get you a cup
of coffee or glass of water?’
‘Is it real coffee?’ I asked, hoping against hope.
‘Are you kidding?’
‘What was I thinking?’ I said, rolling my eyes. ‘I’ll take
that miserable excuse for coffee with a lot of cream.’
Wilson smiled. ‘The cream does take the edge off the
chicory bitterness, doesn’t it? I’ll be right back.’
I grew more restless with every passing moment. It seemed
as if it was taking him far too long for the simple task. I
stood back up and resumed my pacing, wondering if I ought
to try to leave. Would the officer really physically stop
me? It was hard to believe but, still, I hesitated, afraid
of the man’s reaction. Right now, Ruth needed a friend, —
not some nameless police officers. I cooled my simmering
impatience by turning my thoughts to recollections of Ruth
and the unlikely sequence of events that conspired to make
us fast friends.