Crumpled balls of paper littered the carpet around the
wastebasket, the castoffs of the better part of an
afternoon spent playing office basketball and daydreaming
of a vacation in the Caribbean. Business in the previous
few weeks had been slow, nothing more than a few background
checks and the surveillance of a possible cheating spouse.
The background checks turned up nothing remarkable, and the
wife had indeed been cheating–with the best friend of
her twenty–two–year–old son. David had
been glad to collect his fees on that one, thus wiping his
hands of the messy situation. He just established the
facts, he didn't deal with the aftermath of the painful
(but truthful) revelations. Thank God.
The freezing rain beat an annoying
tap–tap–tap staccato against his office window,
an irrefutable reminder that winter still lurked outside,
and there weren't any white–sand beaches or palm
trees in the foreseeable future. Only dirty slush, bitter
winds and chapped lips awaited. Truth be told, he rarely
wandered far from Toronto's borders, and the only time he'd
left North America had been for his honeymoon, almost ten
years ago. David didn't like to think about that trip, as
it inevitably led to thoughts of the subsequent dissolution
of the marriage and the downturn his life had taken in the
wake of that particular failure. One day, he thought, I'll
be on a beach somewhere, drinking a cold Corona with a
slice of lime and none of that shit will matter.
A peek at his watch told him it was creeping up on four
o'clock, and being a Friday with no appointments on the
books, it seemed an ideal time to call it a day. Setting
his own hours and workload was one of the few perks of
being his own boss. An intense workout at the gym and a
pizza with the works beckoned.
He went about the usual closing shop
procedures–locking files away, turning off the coffee
pot–and was just about to pick up the mess of paper
on the floor when there was a hesitant knock at his door.
He took a swipe at the pile and dumped an armful of the
paper balls into the wastebasket before answering. Just
before his hand touched the handle he stole a quick glance
down at himself, glad to see his shirt was still tucked in
and his socks matched. First impressions could make or
break a deal, and he was in desperate need of a new gig.
The door opened to reveal a nice looking woman, small,
but soft in a motherly sort of way. She had sandy brown
hair, shot through with generous streaks of grey, which she
wore shoulder length and parted on the side. Her makeup was
subtle but accentuated her features, in particular her cool
blue eyes. She was dressed in a high–end wool coat,
and he would bet money that her handbag cost more then his
monthly mortgage. She offered her hand in greeting. He took
it, pleased to find her handshake firm. Nothing irritated
him more than a weak handshake, something he equated with
wilting lettuce.
"Hello. Are you David Lloyd?" the woman asked, waiting
for acknowledgement before stepping into the office.
"That's me," David said. "Please come in."
She moved past him, leaving a lingering aroma of
expensive perfume and clean hair. She took the seat meant
for clients, and he moved his lean,
six–foot–two frame around the side of the
walnut desk to his usual spot. His chair let out a soft
creak as he sat. The woman waited until he made eye contact
before speaking again.
She cleared her throat. "My name is Marjory Barrowman.
I'm sorry for stopping by without an appointment. I pass by
here often, and today I thought I'd just take my chances."
He tried not to look at her hands, which were fluttering
about like anxious butterflies on her lap, a telltale sign
of discomfort. He smiled to offer reassurance that she
should continue.
"I'm not interrupting anything am I?" she asked,
stalling the point of her visit, as many new clients did.
Pleasant circumstances generally didn't bring people to his
office, and he'd learned to be patient with clients as they
meandered their way to the purpose of coming to him.
"No, you're not interrupting." She looked about the
space, taking in everything the room contained, including
the small amount of paper still on the floor. She didn't
comment. He was thankful the carpet had been recently
cleaned and the furniture was good quality. Her presence
reeked of money and affluence, and he felt psychologically
demoted to a lower status because of it.
"Obviously I'm interested in your services but now that
I'm here I don't know if this is such a good idea. My
husband is against hiring a private investigator, but this
is more than I can handle on my own. And the police don't
seem to be taking the situation very seriously." Her hands
picked up tempo, a distraction difficult to ignore.
David leaned forward on his desk, giving her his
undivided attention. He was a handsome man, he knew. It was
just one aspect, but one that often worked to his
advantage. It made men feel he was capable, a strong
leader. With women, he just needed to put a little effort
into making them feel as though their particular problem
was the only thing that mattered to him, and then they were
able to relax and trust that he could solve their problems.
A little harmless flirting didn't hurt either. He sensed
that Marjory Barrowman needed a sympathetic ear, which
might or might not lead to an actual job, but considering
the balance in his bank account, it was worth the time.
"Why don't you start at the beginning?"
She sighed, and her eyes welled up with tears. From her
handbag she pulled a fresh tissue, dabbing at the tears
before launching into her dilemma. "It's my daughter,
Stella. She's missing."
David pulled a lined pad from the top drawer of his desk
and started taking notes. This sounded like it might
actually amount to something. "Go on. Give me the details
about her disappearance. How long? Her age? What makes you
think this is something to worry about?" He tried to keep
his tone neutral and warm, hiding the natural enthusiasm he
had for such situations. It'd been awhile since something
like a missing persons case had come to his attention.
"Stella is twenty–three years old. She's been
missing for about two months." Her lips set in a firm line,
and he could see she was struggling with the information
about to be shared.
"Two months is long time," he prompted. Marjory's eyes
searched his face, starting an ache in his bones that told
him something serious was going on.
An air of defeat came into her demeanour, knocking her
well–to–do status down a few notches. It was
obvious she was deeply troubled. "Stella has been in
trouble for the better part of the last ten years. She has
a drug problem, she's run away numerous times in the past.
She usually turns to stealing or prostitution to maintain
her drug habit, which is how her family gets back in the
picture. We get called in when she's been arrested or taken
to the emergency room. This time seems different. She
always calls to try and con me out of money, but there
hasn't been a peep from her. I'm worried that this time
she's finally gone too far, and she's lying in a morgue
somewhere."
That was a quite a bit to absorb. "How can you be sure
she hasn't just run off again? Maybe she's found someone
who's keeping her in drugs, or to take a positive spin,
maybe she's drying out somewhere." David mulled over a few
plausible scenarios in his mind.
Marjory blew her nose and managed a weak smile before
answering. "She's tried stopping before. We've put her in a
few different rehab programs, and she's tried going cold
turkey, NA, you name it, but it never lasts. She's an
addict, and there's more."
"Tell me."
"Do you know what a borderline personality is, Mr.
Lloyd?" she asked. Her tears had stopped, but her eyes were
tired and red–rimmed.
David had a rudimentary understanding of the term from
the mental health and addictions courses he'd taken in
college. It had been a mandatory part of the curriculum for
the Law & Security program he'd completed in his early
twenties. After that he'd wasted a few years as an armoured
car driver, before getting his act together and applying to
the police department. Again, that was a time he didn't
wish to dwell on. His hand rose to touch the small hearing
aid he wore under his shaggy dark hair before he could stop
himself.
"I have an idea, but please fill me in if this has some
bearing on the case."
Marjory gave a humourless chuckle. "Oh, I assure you it
does. Stella was diagnosed as a borderline personality at
seventeen. Borderlines are known to be manipulative,
unstable in relationships, quick to lash out in anger.
Their behaviour affects everyone around them. They are
impulsive and have a poor self–image, which often
leads to thoughts of suicide or inflicting injuries on
themselves. Stella liked to cut herself, and often
complained about how ugly she was, even though she was a
gorgeous girl, and I don't say that just because I'm her
mother." She rummaged about in her handbag, pulling out a
photograph, which she pushed across the desk's surface in
David's direction.
David looked down at the picture. Stella was sitting in
what looked like a dance studio, dressed in the typical
attire: black leotard, tights and pick ballet slippers. Her
sandy hair was pulled back, highlighting a face that could
have been on the cover of any fashion magazine. Her lips
were full and pouty, her cheekbones high. Bright blue eyes
regarded the photographer. She wasn't smiling though, and
her posture was tense, as though she were very conscious of
how her image would appear.
"She's beautiful," he said, after examining the picture
for a few minutes.
"Yes. She's sixteen there, a few months after her first
round of rehab, and she was still more or less keeping her
nose clean. As far as I was aware anyway."
"But she relapsed?"
"Yes, very shortly after that picture was taken. This
had been after a number of troubled years, when we'd been
to various counsellors, and dealt with endless problems at
her school. Stella had been hit by a car when she fourteen,
and that was really the start of it all, the drug problem
anyway. She came through it fairly well, but it did cause
some damage to her knee, which was a tough thing for a girl
like Stella. Sorry, I'm not telling this right. I'm jumping
all over the place. I should have mentioned that she was a
dancer. It took a few months of therapy, but she got back
to dancing. Truth was, it hurt her more than she led on,
and she became addicted to the pain–killers she was
prescribed. This led to her looking for relief from other
sources, which unfortunately she found."
"Street drugs?" he clarified, starting to see where this
was heading.
"Yes, which cost money. At first she got by on her
allowance, but then the drugs became more than just relief
from her pain, she was addicted. She stopped eating, had
trouble sleeping, and it all took a toll on school, her
relationship with her family, and she starting failing
classes. It was a mess."
"And the borderline personality?"
"Well this came out in the second rehab we sent her to.
She was enrolled in an intensive inpatient program to deal
with her addictions and get her the counselling she needed
to repair relationships, get her life back on the right
track. She was diagnosed by the psychiatrist she worked
with."
"And did the diagnosis help?" he asked.
"Not really. It just seemed to give her free reign to be
even more difficult than she'd already been. It did explain
a lot of things about her behaviour though, from even
before the accident. Stella had always been difficult,
never seemed to keep friends for long. She was very
self–centered but also overly sensitive, and often
thoughtless. I used to think it was because she was
spoiled, but her brother was never like that, and he had
the same advantages that she did."
"So there's a brother? Can you give me some information
on him? And yourself, your husband, anybody else you feel
might be helpful."
In the discussion that followed, he learned that
Christian, the brother, was twenty–seven and had
recently finished his Social Work degree. He worked for a
non–profit agency in Toronto that counselled troubled
youth. He and Stella had been close as children, and
Marjory felt that Stella's problems might have influenced
his choice of profession. He was hard–working, had a
long–term girlfriend, had never been in any kind of
trouble. In other words, the polar opposite of Stella.
George Barrowman was a high–ranking executive with
the Canadian Imperial Bank of Commerce and provided a very
nice income for his family. He had a good relationship with
his daughter, according to Marjory, but worked a lot, so he
was not always available to deal with the
day–to–day issues. She also mentioned that he
was a just a few years from retirement, which led David to
assume the man was quite a bit older than his wife, who
didn't look any older than her late forties. He made a note
to check out their relationship, to see if any family
stress might have been adding to Stella's already numerous
problems.
The family lived in an affluent neighbourhood, the kids
attended private schools, and the family vacationed in
Europe and other places that David had never been. Outside
of Stella's drug addiction and mental health issues, there
were no family heath issues. Marjory was a program director
at nearby York University, a position she'd been in for a
number of years, and an organization she'd worked for since
her mid–twenties. On the surface, nothing struck
David as odd or sinister, but many families were adept at
hiding the skeletons in the closet.
David took down a list of relatives and family friends,
work associates of both George and Marjory. He asked about
teachers and counsellors, dancers, school friends, people
Stella may have met in rehab, even any names or places
associated with her drug connections and other illegal
activities. For the most part, Stella tended to stick
around the Toronto area, though she had gone down east
once, following a boyfriend to Vancouver, even ending up on
the streets of New York City for several weeks.
When the name of a certain detective who'd picked up
Stella on a number of occasions was mentioned, David almost
snapped his pen in half. The Barrowmans had spoken with him
when they'd filed a missing person's report the month
before, and he'd been dismissive, assuming Stella had
simply run away again. Since she was an adult, it wasn't a
priority matter for the police. Marjory didn't think they'd
put any effort into finding her daughter.
It was a name he loathed to think about, a face that had
haunted his dreams for more months than he cared to admit,
and hearing it out loud was a slap to the face. He started
to sweat.
Jeremy Black.
"Are you all right, Mr. Lloyd?" she asked, taking in the
flush rising from the neck of his dress shirt.
"David, please, and I'm fine. I think I have all the
background I need for now. I guess we just need to discuss
the fees." David pulled a form from the lower drawer of his
desk and started filling in the standard information. When
he'd done all he could he handed the form over to
Marjory. "If you can make sure to fill in any and all ways
to contact yourself, your husband, your son, and the
numbers or addresses of any of the other people we've
discussed."
Marjory took the paper and skimmed over it briefly
before filling in the missing information. Her hands
trembled.
"As for the fee, I charge sixty dollars an hour plus
expenses. Any out of the norm costs, like say having to fly
somewhere, I would discuss with you beforehand, of course.
Now, for a case that could take anywhere from a few days to
many weeks, like this one with your daughter, I'd require a
five thousand dollar retainer. Any money not used would be
returned in full, but be clear that it may take two to
three times that if she doesn't want to be found, or if
something bad has happened to her."
Their eyes met and the implication was clear. "I
understand, and money is not an issue. I just want my
daughter back, or, if the worst has happened, I want to lay
her to rest. I will stop by the bank Monday morning and get
a draft for the retainer, and I'll drop it by for you about
this same time?" She handed back the completed form.
"Perfect." He looked over the paperwork, then offered
his hand across the desk. They shook. Marjory Barrowman
fumbled with the bag in her hand for a few moments, looking
like she wanted to say something else to him, but instead
turned to leave.
At the door, she looked back. "Thank you, David."
"You're welcome." The door made a loud click as it
closed.
He sat down to re–read the notes he'd taken,
trying the gauge the best place to start the investigation.
The drug associates seemed key, and any friends Stella had
remained in touch with since her school and dance days.
Time and time again his mind wandered back to Jeremy Black,
to the point that anger throbbed through his arms and legs
and anxiety tightened his chest. He needed to take a break,
eat, and refocus. Hearing the name out of the blue like
that had been a definite shock.
He was walking down the stairs to his car when his cell
phone rang. The caller ID told him it was his younger
brother Sean, and he smiled as he snapped the phone open.
"Hi."
"Hey Dave, what are you up to tonight?"
"I was just about to head to the gym, and then I was
thinking pizza and a couple of beers, try and find a hockey
game or something on the tube. Where's Cheryl?" he asked,
pleased but surprised to hear from Sean on a Friday night.
Cheryl was Sean's live–in girlfriend.
"She's out at some Pampered Chef party or some shit. I
don't get why girls go to stuff like that and then complain
about cooking dinner. Know what I mean?" Sean was a nice
guy but clueless sometimes.
"Okay, so you're free for the night then?" The wind
slapped him with gust of arctic air as he stepped out of
his office building. He pulled the collar of his coat up to
protect his naked skin.
"Yep. How about I meet you at your place around seven?
Unless you have plans with Jamie?"
"Nope. Seven sounds good." The snow, having fallen with
enthusiasm all afternoon, had turned to freezing rain,
making the streets an icy, slushy mess. His shoe sunk in a
freezing pocket of water, sloshing over the edge to the
inside and leaving his socks damp against his skin. He
rushed as quickly as he could without falling on his ass to
his nearby car, the pellets of ice sharp against his face.
By the time he was unlocking the door, tears were streaming
down his face from the bitter cold.
In the locker room of the gym he slipped on the knee
brace he'd been using for working out since the bar
incident some years before. His bum knee and the partial
hearing loss in his left ear were a constant reminder of
what he'd gone through and survived. It could have been a
lot worse, and would have been if Sean hadn't come looking
for him. His whole life David had always looked out for his
younger, smaller brother, but the one time he really needed
someone himself, Sean had come through.
David was a strong, athletic man, having grown up
playing hockey and football. He's gotten into boxing as a
teenager and belonged to the track team in both high school
and college. He liked to lift weights, and he still ran as
much as his knee would allow. He'd been a good student, a
good kid, never getting into more than the usual adolescent
escapades: missing curfew, school pranks, or an occasional
drinking bout with his buddies. Once his dad caught him
with a bag of pot, and he'd been grounded for two weeks. He
decided it wasn't worth the risk after that, and truth be
told, he hadn't had that much fun smoking it anyway.
Sean was a few years younger and always trying to keep
up with his big brother. He'd tag along whenever David
would let him, copied his hair and clothes. He worshipped
the ground his brother walked on, even after David's secret
was out in the open. In fact, Sean had been one of the
first ones he confided in, and to this day the brothers
remained close.
As he went through the various exercises of his routine,
memories of different people churned through his brain.
Hearing Jeremy's name had scared loose a bundle of odd
memories. He thought of Dana, his ex–wife, who
despite the awful pain he'd put her though, still remained
a friend. He thought of his parents and the long six months
he hadn't spoken with his father. He thought of his buddies
from the police force, most of whom had disappeared after
the assault and subsequent investigation. He thought of his
eighty–five–year–old grandmother whom he
had dinner with every Wednesday night, remembering her
support and confidence that his dad, her son, would
eventually come around.
Eventually his thoughts drifted to Jamie.