Cassidy Novak stared into the seething water. It couldn’t
end this way.
Gray waves buffeted against the 179-foot schooner and fog
billowed through the spiderweb of rigging that snarled
skyward. Heavy white sails furled, the Atlantic Devil’s
triple masts lumbered in formation like dead trees.
Gabriel stalked from the bow to mid-ship, his black
turtleneck and slacks contrasting with his pale face.
Cassidy’s pulse hammered in her throat as she searched his
sober expression.
His full lips curled into what would have been a grin for
most people. For Gabriel, the Grim Reaper, it mimicked a sneer.
He withdrew a saber from the metal sheath belted at his
waist and gripped the hilt beneath the curve of the
scoop-shaped hand-guard. Above the main mast, the black and
white skull and crossbones flag thrashed in a wind dance.
Cassidy glanced at Reggie, the last surviving competitor
besides herself. He rubbed the back of his shaved head and
connected his fingers behind his neck. Her own posture
locked tight. One of them would go home a millionaire.
The other … she wouldn’t reflect on that.
After three months isolated from society on the new reality
show Sink or Swim, Cassidy wanted that prize money and the
fame that accompanied it. Hope fortified her very bones.
Maybe her days of scrambling to pay off debts and working a
lousy job were over.
It’s yours. It has to be.
Just then, Gabriel caught her eye and gestured over his
shoulder. Cassidy followed his index finger toward the
gangway. To the plank.
Cassidy’s daredevil smile, practiced in the mirror before
setting sail, faded like mist.
Her clever comebacks, which she’d imagined quoted at the
water coolers of America, were not heard.
Her cascading red hair that she’d tossed like a drama queen
– an invention strictly for TV – went taut around her finger.
She’d lost. The overall point tallies had come in, and she’d
lost. Her dreams weren’t coming true after all.
"Game over. You lose. Close call though, Reggie beat you by
five points." Gabriel dragged her across the deck by the arm
and pushed her up onto the wooden board that projected over
the water.
Cassidy winced, emptiness invading her body like a physical
hurt. Five points. If only she hadn’t screwed up furling and
unfurling sails during the first episode, or if she’d done a
better job mopping the deck that time she had a cold. After
all Cassidy had been through, two simple mistakes cost her
the game.
She’d been five points away from a new life.
Under the show’s set-up, twelve contestants had competed in
four teams. The crew awarded marks based on skill and
neatness, with team members pooling their numbers to win
privileges like movie nights or dinners in the officers’
mess. Every Monday, a low-scoring contestant walked the
plank and went home on a rendezvous ship. Cassidy had lasted
until the final cut.
Gabriel’s sword blade brushed her back. Not only were her
dreams drowning, she was about to undergo torture. The
humiliating kind.
Her breath rasping, she eyed the twenty-foot drop. The end
of the plank seemed miles away, though it was only ten feet.
Trying not to look down, Cassidy inched forward. At the
verge, she halted and willed her gaze toward the dark cold
water below.
Gabriel stepped up behind her and touched the cold sharp
steel to the nape of her neck. "Time to sink or swim."
Don’t show emotion. You’ve got to lose with dignity. Cassidy
said a silent prayer, folded her arms across her chest and
vaulted off the plank. Ice cold waves pressed around her
shoulders as she thundered underwater. Cassidy gulped a
mouthful and shot back up into a straight line, desperate to
break the surface.
Stinging water overflowed her eyes and Cassidy pawed her
eyeballs with wet hands. She squeezed her clogged ears with
her fingers, swallowed to ease her raw throbbing throat.
Treading water, Cassidy hiked down the sopping shorts that
rode up her legs and adjusted her soaked tee-shirt. She swam
over to the rope ladder dangling against the side of the
ship and craned her neck. Dozens of faces gaped down at her.
She climbed the ladder, the rungs burning her hands and bare
left foot. Her right canvas shoe slipped on each notch;
Cassidy’s other shoe had floated away. Teeth chattering,
Cassidy extended her leg over the railing and dropped onto
the deck with a bang. A production assistant tossed her a
Navy blanket. Muttering her thanks, Cassidy wrapped herself
in the scratchy warmth.
She had to cheer up. Even though the amount was a mystery,
the runner-up won a prize. Maybe it would be a hundred
grand. Even $25,000 would help to eradicate her college
loans and car payments.
But, it wouldn’t finance an affordable private health club
where participants could work out with personal trainers, a
pilot site that could have eventually blossomed into a
full-blown franchise via all the endorsement money and
popularity showered on savvy winners of Top Ten reality shows.
It wouldn’t propel her into an overnight success.
Cassidy turned her back from her shipmates, hoping the
production crew got the hint that she needed a few minutes.
She didn’t like losing, whether it was a game of Trivial
Pursuit or a reality TV show with million dollar stakes.
Teachers had always called her a perfectionist who expected
too much of herself.
Cassidy never thought it was too much. She should have
learned her lesson by now. The universe didn’t want to work
in her favor.
Besides, she’d had enough of the cameras and microphones in
her face every minute. The tallies were in. Somehow, Cassidy
had to get over it before opening her mouth on national
television. She snagged a towel off a deck chair and rubbed
her limp red curls.
An assistant passed her a steaming mug of coffee. Cassidy
cradled the mug between her fingers, whispers of heat
curling into the air as rivulets dripped down her bangs.
Cassidy never drank coffee unless it was decaf, and even
then she rarely accepted the stuff, but now she brought the
cup to her lips. Black bitterness warmed her throat and she
took another sip. They’d arrived in New York Harbor the one
cold dreary day in August.
Clasping the mug in one hand, Cassidy wiped her eyes with a
corner of the blanket. Here they came. Cameramen advanced
from opposite directions, ready to zoom in and capture her
disappointment. Technicians trudged behind them, hoisting
portable studio lights. This would air tonight, the plank
and all the other footage collected that morning
interspersed during a special live broadcast/cast reunion.
Cassidy’s stomach muscles clenched.
In less than ten hours, America would witness her making an
idiot out of herself.
As the crew approached, host Gabriel Collins checked his
fine black hair on a monitor and whisked a stray strand off
his forehead. Cassidy had done the addition. He’d left the
soap opera world fifteen years ago. He must be pushing
fifty, but his hair stylist and plastic surgeons had chopped
off a decade.
Gabriel thrust a mike into her face as the crew gathered
around them. "How does it feel to come so close to winning?"
he asked in his smooth silky voice.
She forced a dry laugh, reminding herself to act gracious.
"It’s great."
"Tell us the truth, Cassidy. Is second place good enough?"
"I would have liked to win, but Reggie played a good game.
What can I say?"
Reggie Elliott swaggered over, black stallion tattoos
gyrating on his muscular biceps as he pumped his arms high
over his head. Cassidy shook her head in disbelief. He
danced and pointed with both hands, then cocked a double
thumbs-up for the cameras. On second thought, she could
think of a few things to say, but all of them would get
bleeped out.
"The champion!" he yelled. "Yeah!"
"How will you spend the money, Reggie?" Gabriel asked.
Reggie winked. "Buy myself a Jacuzzi and invite over some
ladies. Hey, Cassidy, want to come over for another dip?" He
leered at her, an overgrown beetle with his bushy black
eyebrows and bald skull. Maybe she equated him to an insect
because he was a pest.
"With you? I’d rather walk the plank." Cassidy strode out of
camera range and hastened toward the bow, away from the
production crew. One of the producers, a middle-aged woman
she’d truly liked, fell into step beside her.
"Cassidy, we have a counselor available to you back at the
studio," the producer said, brimming with sympathy. "I know
how tough it must be to make it this far, then …"
"That’s okay," Cassidy interrupted. "I don’t need a counselor."
"You have to talk with him for one session and sign a paper
stating that you’ve been seen. We required that of all the
contestants."
Cassidy’s eyebrows shot up. "In case anyone decides to jump
for real? Like off the Brooklyn Bridge? I’ll meet with him,
but it’s not necessary." She was bummed, not suicidal.
"I’m afraid it is, legality-wise. Thanks, hon."
Finally left alone, Cassidy pressed her elbows against the
rail. Manhattan skyscrapers rose through the pearl gray
mist, looming outlines ghostly. Land.
This time it wasn’t a tease. Soon she’d walk solid ground.
No more staring wistfully as the Atlantic Devil cut endless
circles through the North Atlantic, passing Nova Scotia,
Iceland and Greenland.
No more scrubbing toilets, chipping paint off bulkheads or
climbing ratlines to furl a sail. After the wrap-up stint in
New York, she was going home, back to Garrett,
Massachusetts, a quiet town no one had ever heard of. She’d
sleep in her warm bed instead of a wire-frame airless berth
stacked three tiers high.
Cassidy wished she could hibernate in that bed. She cringed,
picturing herself crawling back to her boss Spike and
resuming her lowly role as assistant manager of his health
club. Spike would crack plank jokes for weeks, while
everyone else would feel sorry for her.
Then there was her kid brother, who idolized her, at least
until now. He must be crestfallen.
Lacing her fingers, Cassidy leaned over the railing. Choppy
gray water led to the Statue of Liberty. The lady’s spiked
crown, raised torch and flowing robes splintered Cassidy’s
heart with dread.
As much as she craved the comforts of land, nothing could
change the reality that she was going home a loser.