Chapter One
"Watch."
That's all Mr. Bling says. I'm huddled inside his
massive, souped–up motherfucker of an Escalade and
feeling sick to my stomach. I'm sure it's nerves and the
fact I haven't eaten all day, plus the stench of Mr.
Bling's spicy cologne is killing me. Mr. Bling isn't the
man's real name. It's my nickname for the gangster who
rules my neighborhood. He's got enough gold chains looped
around his bulldog neck and even more expensive rings on
his fat cigar–like fingers that I've always called
him Mr. Bling. His reputation is as lethal as the
show–off Jeep I got hauled into on my way home from
school. For once in my life, I keep my big mouth shut.
I'm watching but don't want to. For a few minutes
nothing out of the ordinary happens unless you like boring,
no–traffic roads and skinny pine trees as a landscape
view. Then a toothpick white teen pulls up to the
run–down gas station. He fills up a red gasoline can,
goes in and pays for it and then gets back in his
beat–up blue Chevrolet. I start to fidget on the
white leather seats, thinking to myself these must be
custom–fitted.
"Pay attention, Eje," says Mr. Bling, forcing me to look
out the window.
The car pulls out of the gas station and goes about a
mile down the road and then...boom. The kind of blast you
feel all the way to the marrow of your bones rocks our
vehicle.
"What the fuck!" I scream. I'm about to open the door to
run and help the kid when Mr. Bling slaps his beefy paw on
top of mine.
"That's what happens when debts don't get paid. I heard
you were a smart kid so that's why I had you come along for
this ride. That there boy took the only option left to him.
My reputation is key and I'm not about to let some punk
take advantage of me. His other option was to watch as I
had my guys have some fun with his family ...you feel
me...then of course, we'd off them. You understand what I'm
telling you?"
I nod, but I can't process what he's telling me. Inside
I'm screaming what the fuck over and over again, trying to
figure out how the hell I ended up in Mr. Bling's car in
the first place.
"What's that got to do with me?" My voice cracks and I
can't help but gulp as the stench of smoke fills the area
like a mean storm cloud. Another minute passes before the
sounds of sirens fill the space, but still we don't move
from our hiding spot. We're parked on a dirt road halfway
between the gas station and the burnt–out car. I'm
trying to hold it together but the image flashing in my
head is that of a skinny white kid on fire.
"You," says Mr. Bling, unwrapping another expensive
Cuban cigar, which he casually lights. "Eje, you are my
collateral. You see, your father owes me a lot of money and
he missed his last payment, so considering how kind I am, I
thought—why go to the father when I could go to the
son?" He grins. I shiver. "A son, who I'm sure will want to
help his family."
I blink. "My Pa owes you money." I know that comes out
sounding stupid, but I'm in shock. First the kid who
literally blew up in front of my freaking eyes and now
this...this shit, Pa said he'd never do again.
"Smart. That's right, your father owes me a good twenty
G's and normally I'd laugh that away but since he didn't
pay his interest, well, you know how it is. Reputation is
key."
He laughs, like the dozen fire trucks screeching to a
halt is nothing new to him. "So you want me to talk to
him?" My glance keeps sliding to the car on fire and that
sick feeling I had earlier comes back to life. I force
myself to calm down. Mr. Bling loops his arm around my bony
shoulders, drawing me in close. His body sweat, cologne and
cigar do nothing to ease the bile trying to work its way up
my throat.
"No, Eje, I'm giving you a month to get me five
thousand, or I'll be collecting what was owed to me my way
and trust me your sister won't like it."
Okay, I'm not a genius but only an idiot wouldn't get
his meaning. I might not like my sister, Keisha, much at
the moment because of our early morning fight, but she's
still my sister. And, right now the hatred I feel for my Pa
is roaring like the car fire down the road, totally out of
control.
* * *
You've got to be kidding me! I should have stayed home
today. Instead I do what I'm told. Get my butt in gear and
go to school, like Pa orders. Why can't he do what I want?
Stop gambling. Since that's about as likely as me ending up
without a detention today, I'm not holding my breath.
Instead I'm here and hurting from round three with the
school's bully. Since he's twice my size and thinks of me
as his latest punching bag my gut still feels on fire. I
knew I should have waited for Charlie this morning.
Charlie's my friend, but more than that he's a homegrown
boy who's got tough stamped all over him. One side glance
from Charlie to bully means I'm safe. Not so today because
Charlie overslept and my attempt to get to class on time
only earned me a black eye and fat lip along with any hope
of not being labelled a coward in my neighborhood .
My lip's bleeding and my knuckles hurt like hell. My
feet feel like lead as I make my way to the office. I stick
my head inside the room and the secretary gives me the
look. Disappointment. Yeah, that I understand. Thing is,
I've been disappointed with my life since I came to this
place. God I hate it here. Well, that's not entirely true.
I just hate where we live and the how of it. Don't get me
wrong, this place is like a freshly mowed lawn compared to
the refugee camp we were stuck in for five years. But
Canada, with its cold, sleet and snow hasn't offered up one
of those cozy Hudson Bay blankets for an immigrant like me.
"He's not very happy with you." That's an understatement
coming from Mrs. Sharp. Rumor has it she's been with the
school since its start–up. From the look of this
place that's got to be close to sixty years ago. She's got
the right name, too. Everything about her white, pasty face
is all hard lines and sharp angles, including her
so–called fashionable pointy eye glasses. Someone
should tell her they were in fashion in the 1950s.
The "He" she's referring to is Mr. James Smythe, the
principal of Central City High School. He's tough as nails
and won't put up with shit.
Twenty minutes later, I'm the disappointed one. Should
have known better than to think he'd believe my end of the
story. Of course, sporting a new shiner and fat lip wasn't
sitting in my favor, but if he thinks for one second I'm
following his damn advice he's so wrong. No way am I
picking option one, which basically amounts to me enrolling
in something he calls "The Stroke Forward" program, which
sounds a lot like a load of crap. And option two, well,
getting kicked out of school will kill my Pa, so looks like
I'll have to wrestle up another option. Pull up my marks,
keep my head down and try to become invisible in my
neighborhood.
Since I've got about as much hope for that as a
Pit–bull making peace with a cat, I shuffle to class
feeling defeated and deflated. The world ain't offering up
any chips in my favor these days. With my luck, Principal
Smythe will call home and have a heart–to–heart
with my Pa, who then will have a man–to–man
talk with me, layering on the guilt about everything he's
sacrificed to get me where I am. Since I have no idea where
I am in my life or what I want to do, the guilt feels like
well–chewed gum, tasteless.
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