IT WAS starting to snow; the feathery flakes fell
soundlessly in a kind of slow motion, turning the old-
fashioned gabled houses lining the canal into a painting
by Pieter de Hoogh.
The girl at the window stood quietly, staring down at the
people in the streets below as they bustled to and fro
over the narrow arched bridge in front of the house,
intent on getting home before the weather worsened. She
was a pretty girl, small and slim with nut-brown hair and
wide grey eyes heavily fringed. Her nose turned up the
merest trifle and her mouth was too wide, although it
curved enchant-ingly. She looked happy too, which was
surprising, for Constantia Morley, twenty-six years old
and an orphan for twenty of those years, hadn't a great
deal to be happy about.
She had been brought up by an aunt, unmarried and
straitlaced, who had tried in vain to make Constantia
straitlaced too and quite failed; but she had been kind to
her niece after her fashion, and educated her well and
raised no objection when Constantia evinced a desire to
become a nurse. She had died a year after her niece had
taken her finals, and because she had overlooked the fact
that the will she had made many years earlier held no
provision for Constantia, she had left her nothing at all.
The modest amount she had left went to various charities,
and the house to some distant relation Constantia had
never heard of, who, taking possession of it with almost
indecent haste, couldn't wait to show Constantia the door.
From then on Constantia had lived at the hospital where
she worked, on the fringe of London, with plenty of
friends with whom to spend her free time but no home or
family to visit. But she wasn't sorry for herself; self-
pity wasn't going to help her to make her way in life, and
if she were lucky one day she would marry and have a
family of her own. Indeed, she had had several proposals
during the last few years, but although she had liked the
proposers well enough, none of them had swept her off her
feet, and she wanted to be swept off her feet...
By the time she had reached her twenty-sixth birthday she
was beginning to wonder if she was expecting too much of
life, and egged on by a restlessness she couldn't
understand, she gave up her post as Sister on the medical
wards, and went into private nursing. She had been told at
the time that it wasn't the life for her; she was a good
nurse and used to hard work and the pressures of a busy
ward; she would be bored. But she hadn't been bored,
although she was willing to concede the fact that life
wasn't all roses.
She had had a variety of patients during the last six
months, spending the first few weeks in a Scottish castle
miles from anywhere, followed by a mercifully brief period
in a remote Welsh cottage with no telephone, a very sick
patient and only a deaf old woman for company. Then there
had been a wholesale grocer in the Midlands who worried
unceasingly about his money, and then a small spoilt girl
in Bournemouth and a charming old lady in a London flat.
And now here she was in Holland with what she had to admit
was the worst patient of the lot.
She turned away from the window at last; her sharp eyes
had seen Doctor Sperling's Renault coming over the bridge.
He would be at the house in a few moments now and she must
go down and meet him in the hall. It was one of her
patient's little foibles that Constantia should always be
waiting for the doctor; she had to wear uniform too,
which, when she considered how little nursing there was to
do, seemed ridiculous. She suspected that she was a
prestige symbol and that her cap and apron were needed to
substantiate her patient's boasting.
She reached the dark hall just as Nel, the elderly maid,
opened the door and the doctor entered.
He was a man of middle age, tall and balding and,
Constantia had to admit, as fussy as an old woman.
He greeted her with a condescension which made her grit
her small even teeth, remarked on the in-clemency of the
weather: 'It is, after all, the last day of February," he
informed her in the manner of someone handing out vital
information, and then, divested of his coat and hat: 'You
will lead the way to your patient, nurse?"
He had said that each day for just over a week and she had
answered, just as she had done each time he came, "Of
course, Doctor," and led the way upstairs again to her
patient's room.
Mrs Dowling was lying on a day bed drawn up to the old-
fashioned stove. She was a thin woman, made even thinner
by the diet she had insisted upon keeping to until it was
discovered that she was a diabetic. Her hair was grey,
curly and short and her features strong, with a perpetual
expression of annoyance upon them. Her voice was loud,
penetrating and bossy.
She responded to the doctor's greeting with a languid nod
and broke at once into complaint. "You really must explain
to Nurse, Doctor Sperling, that I am quite capable of
compiling my own diet." She didn't look at Constantia as
she spoke, indeed she could have been invisible. "And you
must do something about my headaches."
Doctor Sperling put his fingertips together and looked
wise. He said, in almost perfect English: 'Dear lady, your
condition, unless controlled by insulin, would be cause of
those headaches. You must allow me to guide you in the
matter. I will discuss your diet with Nurse and see what
alternatives there are to the diet I prescribed. And now
you must tell me how you feel today, Mrs Dowling."
His patient spoke at some length, her voice grating
unpleasantly on Constantia's ear. But she had heard it all
before, so she felt justified in allowing her thoughts to
wander. Tomorrow, she reflected, she would have the half
day Mrs Dowling so grudgingly gave her twice a week. She
had glimpsed the town briefly already, now she was going
to explore it; its churches, museums, old houses, canals
and narrow alleys. After all, she might never have the
chance to come to Delft again. She was really very lucky,
she could have been up to her eyes on Women's
Medical...the Nieuw Kerk first, she decided, and then the
Town Hall...
Mrs Dowling had paused for breath; Constantia switched her
mind back to her present surroundings, and although she
wasn't required to speak, looked intelligent.
Ten minutes later she was attending Doctor Sperling to the
door. The new diet had been discussed, written down and
approved by the patient. The insulin doses the doctor had
tactfully left until he was alone with Constantia; she
listened carefully to his instructions and smiled a
goodbye, quite sorry for him because although he was well
thought of by his colleagues in the medical profession and
had a fashionable practice, he still had to suffer the
tiresomeness of patients like Mrs Dowling. And it seemed
as though he would have to suffer her for some time yet,
for she harboured the notion that her complaint was
something she could ignore if she wished, and indeed
before the doctor had persuaded her to have a private
nurse she had played ducks and drakes with both her diet
and her insulin.
She hadn't liked the idea of a nurse at first, but after
the beginnings of a diabetic coma, luckily nipped in the
bud by the doctor, she had changed her views and even got
a good deal of satisfaction from having a nurse to look
after her. She had a number of friends, hard-faced women
like herself who were addicted to bridge and the bullying
of those they considered beneath them, and as none of them
had had a private nurse at any time, she derived a good
deal of satisfaction from Constantia's presence. But not
pleasure; she had tried in vain to bully her, but
Constantia wasn't to be cowed. She had learned to show an
imperturbable front which quite disconcerted her patient,
and although she had a nasty temper upon occasion, she
kept it well in check.
The agency for whom she worked had thought that she might
be in Holland for two or three weeks, no longer, but
already a week had gone by and if Mrs Dowling was going to
insist on doing exactly what she liked about her diet,
then Constantia could see that she might be there for very
much longer. Given a sensible patient, the diabetes could
have been controlled within two weeks, diets worked out
and the insulin doses adjusted, so that an occasional
visit to the doctor would have been quite sufficient. But
Mrs Dowling wasn't sensible, she was also very rich and
moreover suffered from the illusion that money would and
could smooth her path. Quite why she needed Constantia was
a puzzle, and certainly she had said nothing about her
leaving. Constantia, who liked to nurse patients who
needed all her skill and care, felt impatient when she
thought about it — but if she were to go, the chances were
that Mrs Dowling would do something silly like eating
éclairs for tea and forgetting her insulin, and end up in
hospital in a coma.
Constantia went back upstairs and spent the next half an
hour persuading her patient that Vienne snitczels just
wouldn't do for her dinner that evening.
"I sometimes wish that I were back in England,' complained
Mrs Dowling. "I could go to one of those health hydros
where I'm sure my wishes would be carried out."
"Well, there's no reason why you shouldn't," said
Constantia briskly, "if you want to."
Her patient cast her a look of dislike. "When I want your
opinion I'll ask for it," she snapped. 'What have you to
offer in place of Vienne snitczels?"
Constantia was ready with quite a list; Mrs Dowling
rejected first one and then the other and then finally,
seeing that Constantia had no intention of ordering the
snitczels, graciously allowed that Parma ham cut wafer-
thin might do very well. Constantia retired to the kitchen
to confer with the cook and on the way back again lingered
for a moment at a downstairs window.
The snow was coming down thickly now and it was almost
dark. Across the bridge she could see the shops lighted
up; it would be pleasant to wrap up warmly and explore —
tomorrow she would do just that.