SHE was running. Forcing herself onwards down a long
straight road, where flanking trees threw grotesque
shadows in front of her. Shadows that she did not want to
enter. Her breath tore at her lungs, and her legs ached,
but she could not stop. And dared not look behind.
Must keep going. Need to move on. The words beat a rhythm
in her brain. Have to run. Have to...
Cally Maitland sat up, gasping, her body damp with
perspiration, as the sudden shrill of the alarm clock
invaded her subconscious and brought her with shocking
suddenness to the reality of a new day. She reached out a
shaking hand and silenced the noise, then sank back
against her pillow, trying to clear her head.
My God, she thought. What was all that about? But of
course she already knew. Because she'd had that dream
before. Several times.
The sun was pouring into the room through a gap in the
shabby curtains, and it was clearly a beautiful May day.
But Cally felt a chill in the air, and wrapped her arms
round her body with a faint shiver.
She said softly, half under her breath, "It is —
definitely — time to go."
She pushed back the thin quilt and got out of bed, running
her fingers through her tousled light brown hair,
smoothing it into its usual shoulder-length bob. That was
one thing she had refused to economise on — her monthly
trip to the best hair-dresser in town.
There were shadows under her long-lashed hazel eyes, she
realised, giving herself a swift, critical glance in the
mirror, and the flowered cotton pyjamas she'd bought from
a market stall covered her slim body without grace.
She felt, she recognised with bewilderment, like a
stranger in her own skin. A being totally alien to the
cherished, pampered girl she'd been eighteen months ago.
That girl had vanished for ever.
Her mouth tightened with sudden bleakness. But there was
no time to linger feeling sorry for herself, she thought,
squaring her shoulders. Kit had phoned the previous
evening to call an emergency breakfast meeting at the
Children's Centre, and she couldn't be late.
She collected clean underwear, and one of the plain grey
skirts and cream blouses that formed her working gear, and
headed for the small dank shower room which had been
created in a corner of the attic room she inhabited.
The landlord had thrown up cheap plywood partitions to
divide the living space from the sleeping area, and pushed
together a rudimentary kitchen with a sink and a gas stove
in an alcove. He felt that entitled him to christen the
whole thing a flat, but it was still nothing more than a
draughty bedsit.
To call it adequate would pay it an undeserved compliment,
Cally thought, grimacing over the fact that her towel was
still damp from the day before.
It was not the kind of accommodation she had ever
envisaged for herself. But it was just affordable, and it
was also the last place on earth where anyone would think
to look for her, and that was its major — its sole —
attraction for her as far as she was concerned.
Still she would bid it goodbye without a moment's regret.
Although she couldn't say the same for Wellingford itself,
oddly enough.
She'd chosen it for the same reasons she'd picked the
flat. It was a small, nondescript market town beside an
unexciting river. A neutral background that she could
disappear into. Somewhere to provide her with breathing
space to think and consider her long-term future.
She had not expected to like it, of course, Cally thought,
trying to coax hot water out of the reluctant shower. She
had certainly not anticipated being happy here either, yet
somehow, against all the odds, she'd achieved a measure of
both.
There were times when she'd almost managed to forget her
reasons for being there. Almost, but not quite.
And now it was time to leave, she told herself. She'd
already stayed more than a month over her allotted time,
and she simply couldn't risk remaining any longer.
Otherwise she might start to feel at home, and that was
dangerous. She needed to keep moving. To cover her tracks.
Although there was no actual proof that this was
necessary, she reminded herself. No evidence of any
attempt to trace her, as she'd feared. She could well be
panicking unduly. Yet some gut instinct — some sense of
self-preservation — seemed to be warning her again.
Otherwise, why the dreams?
In any case, there were valid, practical reasons for her
to leave Wellingford.
For one thing, the job she'd enjoyed so much no longer
existed, and at the end of the week she would receive her
final wage packet from the Hartley family. Who would
begrudge her every penny of it.
She sighed as she cleaned her teeth. She could still
hardly believe that Genevieve Hartley was dead. She'd
seemed indomitable — eternal. Even now, six weeks later,
Cally half expected to see the large car draw up at the
end of Gunners Wharf and Mrs Hartley's small, silver-
haired figure alight.
Riding to our rescue, Cally thought grimacing. Except it
was far too late for that.
I hope the dead can't see the living, she told herself
with sudden fierceness. I hope Mrs Hartley doesn't know
what her ghastly sons and their expensive wives did to her
dream for Gunners Wharf even before she was cold in her
grave. All those hopes and plans and hard work just swept
away. All those people suddenly discovering they needed
somewhere else to live.
It shouldn't have happened, of course. Mrs Hartley's
intentions had been very different. She'd meant the
Gunners Wharf project to survive and thrive even when she
was no longer there to supervise it. She'd been to see her
lawyers, to draw up the necessary adjustments to her will,
only to succumb to a sudden devastating heart attack
before the all-important document could be signed.
Even so, the residents had all hoped that her wishes would
be respected. She'd made them clear enough even to her
resentful children.
So they'd collected for a wreath, and attended the funeral
to demonstrate their affection and respect for the woman
who'd encouraged their visions, only to find themselves
totally ignored by the family, their presence unnecessary
and embarrassing.
A bad omen, Cally had thought at the time, unease twisting
inside her.
And her premonition had been quite correct.
Within two weeks all the tenants had received notice to
quit, and Gunners Wharf had been sold for redevelopment.
They'd protested, naturally, but legally, they'd been
told, they didn't have a leg to stand on. Their leases had
been privately agreed with Mrs Hartley, and the rents kept
deliberately, unrealistically low.
But there'd been nothing in writing, and her sudden death
had prevented her from regularising their position in law.
Besides, it had been added, in a final blow to their
hopes, most of the houses were still waiting to be
renovated, and could well be deemed unfit for human
habitation.
As she put on her clothes Cally tasted the acid of tears
in her throat, and swallowed them back. She'd become
genuinely fond of Genevieve Hartley, and her death had
been a personal blow, quite apart from all the other
ramifications.
On the other hand, the abandonment of the Gunners Wharf
housing project would give Cally a personal release.
I always knew my time here was limited, she reminded
herself, applying moisturiser to her pale skin. But I
thought I'd be the first to leave.
Once again someone she loved had been suddenly and
tragically taken away from her. And once again she was
left floundering in a kind of limbo.
Genevieve Hartley had been almost the first person Cally
had met when she'd arrived in Wellingford.
She'd been sitting in the bus station buffet, drinking
coffee while she looked through the small ads in the local
weekly paper, scanning them for job opportunities and room
rentals, when she'd spotted the last entry in
the 'Situations Vacant' column.
"Administrative assistant required for housing project
with Children's Centre," she'd read. "Enthusiastic and
computer literate. Able to work on own initiative."
Followed by a telephone number.
Less than an hour later she'd been in Mrs Hartley's
elegant drawing room, being interviewed.
She'd been unfazed to find that her future employer was a
chic elderly woman with steely blue eyes and an autocratic
manner. She was used to ageing despots. In fact, she'd
spent most of her life with one, she thought ruefully. So
Mrs Hartley's brisk, searching interrogation had come as
no real shock.
Cally had sat composedly, answering the older woman's
questions with quiet candour.
Yes, she had references, but mainly for waitressing and
shop work. She'd been taking a kind of gap year, she'd
added, mentally crossing her fingers, travelling around
and working at whatever jobs offered themselves.
"But you have worked with computers?" Genevieve Hartley
poured China tea into thin porcelain cups. "I need someone
who can do word processing, keep records and oversee the
on-going renovation scheme. Also act as liaison between
the builders, the tenants and the Town Hall." She paused
with a faint smile. 'My tenants at Gunners Wharf have not
had easy starts in life, and this has made them wary, so
sometimes the situation can become — shall we say
volatile? I'm looking for someone who can sort out any
snags before they become real difficulties."
Cally hesitated. "I took computer studies during my last
year at school."
"Which school was that?"
Cally told her, and the plucked brows rose. "Indeed?" said
Genevieve Hartley. "Then I suggest a fortnight's trial on
both sides. After all," she added drily, "you might find
some of the tenants rather too much of a problem."
I'd find not eating a much greater one, Cally thought
wryly. Thought it but did not say it.
"In addition to the administrative work you'll be asked to
take your turn at the Children's Centre, particularly
helping out in the coffee bar." She gave Cally an
unexpectedly sweet smile. 'So your past experience could
be useful, my dear."
The money Mrs Hartley had offered was reasonable, but not
lavish. It had enabled Cally to live, yet hadn't
encouraged her to put down roots. Which was exactly what
she needed.
In time, when she was entirely free of her former life,
she would find a home, and a career. Until then she would
continue to be a nomad, because it was safer that way.
Tonight, she thought, adding a muted lustre to her lips,
she would get out her map book and decide where to go next.
The river might sparkle in the sunshine, but the
brightness did no favours to the dilapidated warehouses
and crumbling sheds along Gunners Wharf itself.
In many ways redevelopment was exactly what was needed for
the entire area, Cally conceded reluctantly as she walked
down to the Centre, where the admin office was based. But
why did it have to happen at the expense of the housing
scheme? Why couldn't they have existed side by side?
Here, in the back street running parallel to the wharf,
nearly half the properties had already been restored, with
new windows and roofs, freshly pointed brickwork and
gleaming paint. A lot of the work had been done by the
tenants themselves, as an act of faith — an investment in
a future that had now been taken from them, she thought
bleakly.
Mrs Hartley had provided the Children's Centre at her own
expense, patiently providing funds to meet every new
Health and Safety regulation that the local council could
throw at them. It was no secret that it had cost her a
small fortune, and maybe this was what her sons had
resented so much. Because it was also known that Hartleys
department store, like many other High Street shops, had
been struggling for a couple of years, and needed a cash
injection.
Well, they certainly had it now, Cally thought, biting her
lip. The sale had gone through so fast that they must have
had a string of potential buyers already lined up. While
the single mothers and families in badly paid work they
were turning out would struggle to find alternative
housing that they could afford.
She sighed. But, as her grandfather had always said, one
man's gain was another's loss. And the whole scheme had
been living on borrowed time anyway.
"Cally." A girl's voice broke across her reverie, and she
turned to see Tracy approaching, pushing her baby buggy
over the dilapidated pavement. "Cally — what's this
meeting about? Do you know? Has Kit said anything?"
Cally stifled a sigh, and pulled a silly face at the baby
in the pushchair, an act rewarded by a lopsided grin.
"Not a thing," she responded briskly. "But we don't live
in each other's pockets, you know."
She'd said it before so often, but no one seemed to take
her denials seriously. Kit Matlock was the director of the
Centre, and the man with whom she worked most closely.
They were both, on the face of it, single, so assumptions
were made.
Nor could Cally deny that, before the recent bombshell,
Kit had been making it clear he'd like to shift their
professional relationship to a more personal level — which
was, in itself, another excellent reason for moving away.
Not that she disliked him. How could she? He was
attractive, pleasant, and endearingly short on
temperament. But they were not an item, and never would
be. And Cally had resolutely made excuse after excuse to
refuse his invitations.
Their most intimate involvement to date had only been the
sharing of sandwiches and coffee at lunchtime, in her
small, crowded office at the rear of the Centre. And that
was as far as it would ever go.
Because, she told herself, I don't cheat. 'Oh," Tracy
said, obviously disappointed. "I thought maybe he'd found
a loophole in the law or something. And obviously he'd
tell you first."