It was never easy being the daughter of Teresa and George
Thomas Donne. That day it was
harder than ever because I had to tell them I would not be
graduating. I had put in my four
years, but I had changed my major three times, and there
weren't enough credits in any of my
chosen and abandoned fields to warrant the magic piece of
paper that said I was finished.
Tess - she had insisted I call her that from the time I
could speak - said bitterly that she had
also changed her major three times but, on the other hand,
had three doctorates. And
Geo - George Thomas to the rest of the world - had a
doctorate in economics and was adviser to
presidents, kings, the chairman of the Federal Reserve
Board, and CEOs. My brother, Ben,
would start his internship almost immediately after
graduating from medical school in June. And
my grandfather was a world-renowned Shakespearean scholar.
I was an appendix in a family of
brains.
"I'll call you back," I told Tess, and hung up the
telephone. Then I cursed.
Casey, my roommate, was grinning, listening. When I paused
for breath, she said, "You're
getting better, baby. Mama in a snit?"
"God, you wouldn't believe what she wants now."
"She'll spring for a mail-order diploma."
"Don't laugh." Casey could afford to laughat me. She had
just finished her master's degree in
computer science and had been accepted to the doctoral
program at CalTech. She was mocha
colored with short, nearly black frizzy hair, tall and
lanky, all arms and legs and big brain. And
she had beautiful eyes, almond shaped, slanting, brown
with light flecks. When we filled out our
census form two years earlier, she had come to a stop at
the entry about ethnic origin. "How do
I know?" she said after a moment. "I got so many races
running in me, I could be a one-woman
marathon." She entered Martian.
At the moment she was lying on her back on the floor, with
her legs on the decrepit sofa that
had stuffing leaking from one arm; we patched it now and
then with Band-Aids. I looked from
her to the rest of the room - boxes everywhere, some
packed and taped, most not finished
yet. It looked as if the Vandals had moved in, made a
mess, and were getting ready to leave.
"Tess said since I don't have anything better to do, and
nowhere to go, I might as well house-sit
for my grandfather."
"Oh yeah? I thought he never left home."
He had never spent a single night away from home that I
was aware of. I sat down on the floor.
No chair was without a pile of stuff.
"He's been invited to lecture at Oxford. On Shakespeare.
Tess said he probably won't go unless
he knows he has someone reliable to watch the house. Me,
reliable? Hah!"
"Wow! Really?" Casey swung her legs off the sofa and sat
facing me. "Baby, that's incredible!
Of course you'll do it. What else do you have in mind?"
The question of the day. My mother had asked it, now
Casey, and I had no answer. My job at
the bookstore did not pay enough to keep even this tiny
apartment, and all Berkeley rents were
fierce. Maybe I could find a new roommate, but probably
not until the fall term, and I couldn't
hang on that long.
Then I was thinking of the day I had arrived there to find
Casey looking things over. The
housing administrator had said there was someone willing
to share an apartment, no more than
that.
"Angela Casada?" I asked that day, ready to turn and run.
"Yeah, but call me Angela and I'll cut your throat. I'm
Casey. Who are you?"
"Marilee Donne. Call me Lee."
"Merrily done?" She laughed. Her teeth were very white and
large. Then she turned and waved
at the apartment. "What do you think?"
It was small, two rooms. The bedroom was jammed with two
narrow beds, two chests of
drawers, two desks and chairs. The other one we named the
Everything Else Room; it had the
ancient green sofa, sink, stove and fridge, and a
minuscule table with a faded and cracked red
Formica top, plus everything else we owned.
"Listen," Casey said, leaning forward, all serious
now. "You can't live on the street. You'd be
like cotton candy on the midway, gone without a trace by
the end of the first hour. You won't
live in your mama's house. You can't stay here. The YWCA?
That's where they house women
with crazy men on their tails, gals on parole, addicts,
shit like that. Why won't the old man just
close up the house and take off the way other folks do?"
"Haven't you got it yet, after all these years? My family
is nuts, crazy, wacko. I don't know
why."
"Okay. Okay. Would he pay you?"
"Tess said he would, and the utilities and stuff are all
on an automatic payment schedule through
his bank."
"So you get room and board plus something. For how long?"
"He would go in July, start his lecture series in late
August, and stay until around Thanksgiving."
"Five months of freeloading. Doesn't sound too shabby."
She reached out and patted my knee.
"And, baby, you need some thinking time. Come fall, you
could go to the university there and
take a couple of classes, finish things."
Things were always simpler for Casey than for me. She had
known what she wanted to do
from the day she saw her first computer. She called me her
Renaissance pal - dabble in
everything, commit to nothing. And I had broken up with my
latest boyfriend, the one who was
supposed to be for good, just a month earlier. I dabbled
in life, too. In fact, I didn't have
anything better to do than house-sit for my batty
grandfather.
"Want to come and hang out after you visit your folks?"
"You bet. I told Pop I'd work in the store for a couple of
weeks, give him a break; but then I'll
head up your way before I check in at CalTech." Her family
lived in Phoenix, where her father owned
a small variety store. They had lived in Chicago until
Casey was ten or eleven, when her mother became
asthmatic. Casey hated Phoenix; she was doomed for a
sojourn in hell, she had said morosely when she made
her plans.
I picked up the phone and dialed my mother's number.