Did we kiss?
The question hung in the air. Claireβs pretty mouth was a
shocked O. She hadnβt wanted to ask the question, that was
clear. And the strong, controlled woman heβd kissed a year
ago would never have asked the question, sheβd have finagled
the info out of him, cleverly and casually.
But that Claire was gone.
In her place was this pale, shaking ghost. Man, she was in
bad shape. So thin he could feel bone when he touched her,
bruised-looking eyes with a lost look in them, the very
light tan sheβd had in Laka gone without a trace, though she
now lived in Florida.
This new Claire had had a panic attack when Stavrosβs waiter
started piling food on the table. Dan could have kicked
himself in the ass. It hadnβt even occurred to him that her
system simply wouldnβt be able to deal with it. And yet heβd
seen how thin sheβd become, held her briefly in his arms and
felt the fragility. Duh. It meant her system couldnβt handle
food.
Heβd seen that before. Heβd seen every manifestation of PTSD
there was. His gunner in Afghanistan, whoβd had both legs
blown off, had simply turned his face to the wall, unwilling
to live. Heβd had to be fed parenterally for a couple of
months to keep him alive.
Dan hadnβt thought of that. Heβd simply wanted to take
Claire to a place that was warm and welcoming, where the
food was good, and where she could relax. And Stavrosβs
place fit the bill. Except Stavros overdid the portions,
always had. Marines had hearty appetites. And
shit-for-brains Dan hadnβt thought of that.
Man, Claire had nearly fainted. Sheβd been pale before, but
as the waiter slid the dishes in front of her, sheβd turned
the color of ice. He was lucky she hadnβt fainted, or thrown up.
But sheβd had a panic attack. And in her panic, sheβd
blurted out her question and now looked as if sheβd
accidentally tripped a land mine.
This was going to be hard. But Dan was a Marine. He knew how
to do hard.
He picked up her cold, trembling hand.
βI donβt know why I said that.β Claireβs shaking voice was
high, breathless. βItβs crazy. I am so sorry. I donβt know
where that came from, it justββ
Dan laid a finger across her lips. βSh.β He couldnβt stand
to see that lost look on her beautiful face. βHush. Itβs not
crazy. Youβre not crazy.β Reluctantly, he lifted his finger
from her mouth. She had amazingly soft lips. He remembered
that, nightly. βAnd for your information, we did kiss. Just
before you left with Marie.β
βWe did? We kissed?β Claireβs huge, silver-blue eyes never
left his face, watching him as carefully as if he were a
grenade that could blow up at any moment. Or as if he would
kiss her again.
Which, well, he wanted to do. Badly. So badly he held his
right fist under the table, tightly clenched. It had taken
all his willpowerβand he had a lot of willpowerβto take his
finger away from her. He didnβt just want his finger against
her mouth. He wanted his own mouth there, too. He wanted to
be mouth to mouth, chest to chest, groin to groin, with
Claire Day. So close he could breathe for her. So close he
could feel her heartbeat.
βYeah.β His voice was hoarse. He cleared it. βAnd then you
went out and got yourself blown up.β
Her face lightened a little. It wasnβt a smile, but it was
the ghost of one. βIβm sure the two events were unrelated,β
she said. The big chandelier in the middle of the room
reflected off her eyes as she searched his, bright lances of
silver. βHow did weβhow did we get to that point? Had we
beenβ¦dating? That past week? Because I donβt remember you at
all.β
βWe didnβt date.β Dan pushed a small plate of baklava a
little closer. βEat some of that. You donβt have to finish
it, stop when you donβt want any more. But I want you to eat
a little. One. Just a bite or two of one, if you canβt
finish it. Please.β
Because now Dan knew what his new mission in life was. Dan
had been intensely mission oriented ever since he joined the
marines. He focused on his goal and he achieved it.
And now his goal was to take care of this incredible woman.
She was magic. Smart and beautiful and strong, brought low
by thugs. Heβd almost lost her and by some miracle had found
her. He wasnβt losing her again. No way.
βYessir.β A corner of her beautiful mouth lifted. For a
second, Dan had a flash of the woman that was, hidden
somewhere inside this frail, wounded creature. She wanted
out and he wanted to help her get out. βNobody disobeys the
Detachment Commander.β
That was true. In times of danger, the Detachment Commander
was Commander in Chief. He was to be obeyed instantly. He
was God.
βDamn straight.β Dan cut a corner of a piece of Stavrosβs
superb baklava. βNow put that in your mouth.β
βYessir,β she said again. He watched the forkful disappear
in her mouth, and envied it. βSo.β She tilted her head to
one side, considering him. He knew what he was. A battered
34 year old with a metal knee, no spleen, half deaf in one
ear, whoβd had to start over from scratch. A man who owned
his own home and his own business, but who didnβt have looks
and didnβt have charm.
She smiled. βI guess it was that old classic. The moonlight,
the exotic locale, the gunfire...β
βExactly.β Great. A flash of the old Claire Day. βNow eat.β