At two o'clock on a cold February morning, Dr. Meredith
Boren came face-to-face with a dead man.
Asleep in her family's Oklahoma lake house, she'd been
awakened by a noise in the kitchen and gotten out of bed to
investigate. She'd crept down the long hallway that led from
the master bedroom, edged around the foot of the stairs and
frozen between the living room and kitchen.
In the melding shadows of night, a man stood over the sink.
Meredith's breath lodged sharply in her throat. Moonlight
glanced off lean muscle, flashing a series of impressions.
His right shirtsleeve was ripped and hanging down his arm.
His left hand pressed against his bare shoulder. Something
dark stained his flesh and the edge of the sink. The first
aid kit lay open on the counter beside him.
Hazy moonlight filtered through the window, mixed with too
many shadows to discern the color of his hair. She had a gun
in her bedside table. She couldn't see if he had one or not.
He didn't appear interested in anything except patching
himself up. Still, Meredith was calling the police.
She retreated a step, intent on slipping back to her room
and dialing 9-1-1. At that moment, the man sagged against
the counter as if it was the only thing holding him up. The
movement brought his face into profile. Pale silver light
skimmed his temple, the long planed line of his jaw, part of
a strong neck.
Meredith's heart stopped. He looked like…
No, it couldn't be. This had to be a dream, which made sense
considering the reason she'd come to the summerhouse at
Broken Bow Lake. The cool tile beneath her feet, the whiff
of cinnamon from the living area, the underlying metallic
scent of blood drifting from the kitchen all felt real,
smelled real, but they couldn't be.
Gage Parrish was dead, had been dead for a year. It was a
dream. Yes, it had to be. If this was real, the man would've
seen her from the corner of his eye and reacted.
Operating on less than four hours' sleep out of the last
forty-eight, Meredith rubbed her forehead. "No," she
murmured.
In the deep stillness, the quiet word shattered the silence.
The man jerked toward her, his hard gaze zeroing in like a
laser. Before she could blink, he roared, "What the hell
are you doing here?"
She snapped to full attention just as she did when jarred
out of sleep at the hospital to tend a new arrival in the
emergency room. This was real. He was real. How?
Something fell from his shoulder to the floor—a
stained cloth. He didn't grab for it. "You're not
supposed to be here."
"Neither are you!" Numb, she stared at the filmy
silhouette of her ex-fiancé. She could barely think. Was she
breathing?
With his left hand, the man—Gage—gripped the
counter's edge. Even in the dim light, Meredith could see
his unsteadiness, the waxy sheen of his face.
It was the blood tracking down his shoulder and arm that got
her moving. "You're hurt."
She reached him about the time he crumpled into the cabinet,
banging it hard. She grabbed his left arm to steady him.
This wasn't possible. He was dead. Dead!
Her mind was unable to process anything except that he was
wounded, bleeding. She draped his uninjured arm around her
shoulder and started slowly toward the nearest bed. Her bed.
"Are you hurt anywhere else?"
"No," he said hoarsely. "Gunshot."
Surprise jolted her. He'd been shot. Why? How far from here?
And completely apart from the gunshot wound, how was it even
possible that he was alive? Meredith's head began to pound.
Sweat broke out over her body. What was happening was too
unreal, too much. Too raw. She couldn't function if she
dealt with that right now. Judging from how heavily Gage
leaned on her for support, he wasn't up to it, either.
He faltered, his weight pulling her into the wall with him
as he propped himself up there.
His warm breath feathered against her face and an unexpected
knot of longing shoved painfully under her ribs. She
dismissed the emotion.
He struggled away from the wall. "Okay."
She wondered if he'd be able to make it the rest of the way.
They reached her room, painstakingly crossed the silver
carpet to her queen-size bed and she eased him down on the
edge of the mattress. Reaching over, she flipped on the
bedside lamp and stood, paralyzed.
Her mind fought to sort this out, to make sense of it.
Believe it.
Blood smeared his shoulder, her sheet. He groaned, jerking
her out of her stupor. He was hurt. She knew how to deal
with that. Unbuttoning his black button-down shirt, she
eased it away from his injured shoulder, then stripped it
off.
"Meredith."
The deep, grainy voice had her looking straight into his
pure blue eyes. Eyes she'd thought to never see again.
Meredith started at the realization that there was more than
pain there. He looked exhausted and… haunted.
Tenderness tugged at her. She tore her gaze from his.
Putting herself on autopilot, she palmed off his shoes then
eased his legs onto the mattress and laid him back on the
pillow. Leaving his jeans on, she knelt beside the bed and
got her first good look at the wound. The bullet had gone
through his shoulder, entering close to his clavicle. Where
the subclavian vein and artery ran. Concern streaked through
her.
"You're… not s'pposed to be here."
His words were slurred. Depending on how much blood he'd
lost, he'd be getting dizzy. And thirsty.
"It's winter."
She understood his surprise. The lake house was used only in
the spring and summer, for fishing, boating and
water-skiing. And with her Thunderbird in the garage, it
looked as though no one was here.
"Never would've come." He reached up, his fingers
brushing her mouth.
Hit with panic and a sudden streak of fear, she jerked away.
"Baby, I'm sorry."
"Be quiet!" She didn't know if he was aware of what
he said. She didn't want to hear the endearment he'd always
called her. All she cared about was stopping the bleeding.
"Don't move," she ordered. Pushing to her feet, she
hurried to the kitchen and grabbed the first aid kit,
snatched some hand towels from the nearest drawer then
returned to him.
He was still, unnaturally so, and dread stabbed at her. She
felt for his carotid pulse. Weak, but there.
"Thirsty," he croaked, his eyes slitted against the
pain.
She hurried into the adjoining bath and filled a small glass
with water, then returned to hold up his head and help him
drink.
After placing the glass on the bedside table, she examined
his wound. He was bleeding out externally, not into the
chest. Of the two, that was preferable. No broken
collarbone, no collapsed lung. The man was beyond lucky.
"How long ago did this happen?"
"An hour." He struggled to get out the words.
"Or two."
Using one of the towels, she pressed firmly on the wound,
noting the deep penetration, the torn flesh, his shallow
breathing. "You need to go to a hospital. McCurtain
County's hospital is about thirty or forty minutes
away."
"No. No hospitals."
"Gage."
"They'll report it." His raspy voice was firm.
"No cops."
"But—"
"A cop shot me." His agitation started his blood
flowing heavily again. "No hospital."
"You need to calm down." A cop had shot
him? What was going on? Blood seeped out from under the
towel and Meredith pressed harder against the wound.
"Promise me." His face was colorless, and desperate.
He groped for her right forearm with his left hand and
squeezed hard. "Promise," he rasped, struggling to
sit up.
"Be still." Her voice was sharper than she'd
intended. She pushed against his opposite shoulder until he
eased back into the mattress. "I promise. Now be quiet
and let me do what needs to be done."
He must've been using every bit of his strength because when
she finally agreed not to contact anyone, he passed out.
Questions hammered at her. Emotions, too. Anger, confusion,
pain. But there was no time to deal with that right now. She
could only deal with Gage and his GSW.
Working quickly, she slowed the bleeding, cleaned the wound
with alcohol as best she could then stitched the ragged hole
near his collarbone. There was no anesthetic. She prayed
he'd be out for a long time.
She was cool, precise, steady. She trimmed the stitches.
Applied a pressure bandage. Then sat back on her heels and
stared at him, her heart thundering in her chest as if she'd
run the two hundred and fifty miles from here to Presley.
She began to shake all over.
His dark blond hair reached the base of his neck, longer
than she'd ever seen it. His skin was weathered by the sun,
putting lines around his eyes that hadn't been there
eighteen months ago when she'd broken things off between
them. Six months after that, she'd gotten word he was dead.
She'd believed it. They all had. So how could he really be
here? Really be alive?
Swept up in a sudden swirl of anger and confusion, she wiped
streaks of blood from his neck and lower jaw, the back of
her hand lingering on the sandpapery roughness of his skin.
His familiar woodsy scent was faint beneath the antiseptic,
but she could smell it. Smell him. The lanky, wounded man in
her bed was really Gage and he was alive.
She thought she'd shed her last tear over him, but one fell
anyway.
Gage opened his eyes, increasingly aware of the searing pain
in his right shoulder and torso, a comfortable bed and a
soft feminine fragrance. A familiar apricot scent on the
sheets, his pillow. Then he remembered. "Meredith,"
he murmured.
The bathroom door across the room opened and there she was.
She paused, soap-scented steam floating around her. Her hair
was freshly dried, wild blond curls loose around her
shoulders. Her cream-and-rose skin was free of makeup, her
blue eyes crystal-bright and wary. She was so beautiful, it
hurt to look at her. His memories didn't do her justice.
He'd missed the hell out of her, but despite the telltale
spike in his pulse, seeing her was the worst thing for both
of them.
Last night hadn't been a hallucination due to pain and blood
loss. She was really here. And looking damn good.
"You're awake." She stepped into the bedroom. Her
tall lithe figure gloved in a long-sleeved red T-shirt and
faded jeans brought to aching life the memory of every bare
inch of her.
A slight flush pinkened her skin from her bath. She
preferred those to a shower, he knew. And bubbles to bath
beads. Apricot or vanilla to any floral scent. Hell. Gage
wished he'd forgotten things like that in the past eighteen
months, but he hadn't.
Forcing his gaze away, he glanced at the bandage curving
over his shoulder and clavicle. "You patched me up."
She nodded.
He made a lame attempt at humor. "Will I live?"
Her eyes went cool. She looked at him as if she didn't know
him. "Won't that interfere with your being dead?"
Ouch. There were a thousand things he should say, all
starting with "I'm sorry." He soaked her in, storing
away another image for when he had to leave. "You're
really here."
"I think that's my line." Her words were as sharp as
her laugh.
She was angry. What did he expect? "No one's ever at
this house in the winter. I never would've come if I'd known
you would be here."
Hurt flared in her eyes. "You're lucky I was or you
would've bled out over my sink."
She thought he meant because he didn't want to see her.
There wasn't anything he wanted more, but it was dangerous.
He couldn't involve her any more than he already had.
Quietly, he said, "Thanks for saving my life."
She gave a curt nod, eyeing him warily. Gage hated it. And
there was nothing he could do about trying to correct it
before he left. "What time is it?"
"Almost noon. Are you hungry?"
"I could eat." Once he did, he would have to say
goodbye. Again.
"All right, I'll get you something." She folded her
arms under her breasts and nailed him with a look. "Then
I want to know what's going on."
He could tell her some, not all. Nodding, he pushed himself
up on his left elbow.
"You lost a lot of blood," she snapped. "You
shouldn't try that yet."
"I'm almost there." It was an effort to rise into a
half-sitting position against the headboard. He bit back a
moan as agony ripped through his shoulder.
She stood close enough for him to see the light brush of
freckles across her nose, but the distance between them
yawned like a canyon. Her eyes were remote, blank. He wanted
to see her smile, just once.
But the steady gaze she trained on him said that wasn't
going to happen. He knew what she wanted. Letting out a
shaky breath, he asked, "Where do you want me to start?
"
"How about with when you died? I'll get your lunch. We
can talk while you eat."
She left and he sagged into the headboard. He had no energy,
felt as if he could barely lift his hand. Through a fog, he
looked around the room where he and Meredith had stayed
during their frequent visits.
His gaze moved left to the closet and the piles of clothes
stacked neatly beside its open door. In the back of the
closet, he could see what he knew was the tip of his slalom
water ski. The pale gray walls were missing a couple of
pictures, but he couldn't call them to mind at the moment.
He felt outside of himself, as if he were barely holding on
to consciousness.
Meredith returned with soup, a ham sandwich and a large
glass of water on a tray that she set across his lap. "I
imagine you're thirsty, but even if you aren't, you need to
drink that."
He nodded. "You're not eating?"
"Not hungry."