A blob of color off to the left caught Simon Task's
attention as he sped out of a town whose name he'd already
forgotten.
He immediately pulled off the highway, the truck spraying
gravel as he braked to a stop. Swiveling in his seat, he
looked back. There it was, a pink-and-orange plastic
lady-bug, the kind that attached to the top of an automobile
antenna. What was it doing buried in a wrecking yard?
His imagination got the worst of him as he waited for a
break in the traffic before making a U-turn into the parking
lot. He pulled up next to the shell of a rusty van with a
shattered windshield.
It had to be a coincidence. There had to be more than one of
those silly ladybugs in the world.
His mission, or quest or whatever you wanted to call it, had
begun twelve hours earlier when he'd driven by Ella's house
at three o'clock in the morning. Since their big fight and
their subsequent breakup a few days before, he'd avoided her
street, but last night had been a busy one. By the time his
shift had ended, he'd been tired enough to take the old
shortcut. It wasn't as though she'd be awake to see him
drive past.
Much to his surprise, her house had been visible the moment
he'd turned the corner, blazing with lights both inside and
out. He'd pulled up to the curb in front and sat there until
curiosity and uneasiness forced him out of the squad car and
up the path to her door.
Wouldn't it be the ultimate irony if the instincts and
skills honed on the police force, a job she'd begged him
over and over again to quit, now provided the very abilities
she depended on to rescue her?
Or was he reading this all wrong?
Wrenching his thoughts back to the present, he caught sight
of the small snow globe on the passenger seat and picked it
up, twisting his wrist, sending glittery "snow"
falling over an otter "floating" on a sea of blue
acrylic. On the night he'd found the lights on, he'd gone
looking to see if her car was in the garage. No car.
Instead, there was the snow globe, all alone where the car
should have been, so out of place it caught his eye.
He was here because of this damn snow globe.
But was he in the right place?
He set it back down and got out of the truck, striding
toward the fence with determination etched on the lean
planes of his face. With his thirty-seventh birthday well
behind him, he was a man accustomed to knowing what was
going on or moving heaven and earth to find out. First
things first.
Rounding a stack of tires, he could finally see through the
chain-link fence and what he saw almost froze him in place.
The antenna supporting the ladybug mascot was attached to a
silver late-model sedan, or what was left of one, the same
kind of car Ella drove. The hood was buckled inward and up,
all but obscuring the windshield. The passenger compartment
was partly crushed, shattered headlights and sprung doors
attesting to the power of the impact that had put it here in
the first place.
Had the driver walked away from this accident? More to the
point—had Ella walked away or was she lying in a
morgue somewhere? He swallowed hard.
Make sure it's her car. Bending at the knees, he
perched on his heels as he tried to decipher the bent
license plate three feet away. Every letter and number he
could make out matched up to Ella's.
"You interested in that car?" a deep voice asked.
Simon rose to a standing position as a man popped up from
behind a dented SUV, a crowbar in one big hand, two hubcaps
tucked under his opposite arm. With a shrill clang, he
dropped everything on the rusty hood of yet another wreck
and lumbered over to the fence, giving Simon the once-over.
He was fifty or so, pasty and short of breath, a layer of
sweat glistening on his brow despite the cool May day. Simon
started to reach for his badge but thought better of it.
Finding Ella was personal, not official. He said, "It's
in pretty bad shape," bracing himself to hear the worst.
"Ain't that the truth?" the man said, producing a
can of chewing tobacco. He pinched off a few leaves, tucked
the wad in his cheek and added, "Can you believe the
driver walked away without a scratch?"
Simon let out a breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding.
"Then she's okay?"
"He's okay, yeah."
Simon narrowed his eyes. "Wait a second. He?"
"The driver. Uninjured except for a scratch or two.
Amazing thing. Course, his wife got bonked on the head
pretty good. They had an ambulance take her to the
hospital." With a wave of a thick arm, he added, "It
happened just a mile or two down the road where the highway
curves as it drops to the coast. Car went off an embankment
and wrapped around a tree."
Okay, just a second. Since when did Ella allow someone to
drive her car, and what was this talk of a husband? "Did
you catch any names?"
"Sure. Carl and Eleanor Baxter."
It was on the tip of his tongue to protest that the Eleanor
Baxter who owned this car wasn't married. This had to be a
mistake. But he paused as he considered her nature. It
wasn't inconceivable that she could keep an estranged
husband a secret.
He'd actually liked that mysterious quality about her, at
least at first. To Simon, coming from a large family with
two sisters who never seemed to edit a word they said, Ella
had seemed peaceful, composed. It was the churning oceans
he'd since detected underneath her calm exterior that grew
to worry him.
The wrecker's eyes narrowed. "The Baxters were tourists.
How about you? You from around here?"
"No, I'm from Blue Mountain, high desert country. I'm a
friend of theirs from back home. Can you tell me how to get
to the hospital where Ella, Mrs. Baxter, was taken?"
"If you came from the east, you must have driven right
by it. Won't do you no good to look for her there, though.
She was released this morning. My wife, Terry, works over
there in Housekeeping. She says everyone was surprised Mrs.
Baxter left so soon."
Simon's mind was racing. "Was this woman tall with long
wavy blond hair?"
"Tall, maybe. Truth is she was in the ambulance by the
time I got to the scene. I got a glimpse of her, but her
head was wrapped in bandages."
Simon hadn't slept in well over twenty-four hours and he'd
been driving for eight. No wonder he couldn't make sense out
of anything, no wonder his eyes burned in their sockets.
Running a hand through his hair, he said, "Bear with me
while I try to understand this. When exactly did the
accident happen?"
"Three days ago," the older man said. "In the
middle of the night. Every cop in the county showed up along
with the fire trucks in case there was an explosion. It was
a real circus."
"And the female passenger was released this morning?"
"That's right."
"Do you know if she's still in town? I mean she and her
husband?"
The wrecker looked over his shoulder as though he'd suffered
a sudden stab of conscience. His wife was no doubt cautioned
not to gossip about the patients, but she obviously had and
now the wrecker seemed to realize he was repeating her
disclosures to a stranger. He spit tobacco with practiced
ease, the brown glob landing a few feet away, and scratched
his belly through a smudged shirt.
Simon casually took out the leather folder that held his
badge. It didn't give him the right to go to the hospital
and demand private information without a court order, but he
flashed it just the same and the wrecker's face lit up.
"Oh, you're a cop. I get it now. What were they, bank
robbers, drug dealers?"
"No, no," Simon said quickly. "I'm just a friend
like I told you. I was supposed to meet up with them. I'm
showing you the badge so you understand I know how to keep
my mouth shut."
The wrecker appeared mildly disappointed. "Well, the
answer is they ain't here anymore. Rented a car from Lester
down at the Pacific 88 Station, and took off. The husband
wanted to continue on their vacation over to Rocky Point."
Rocky Point—Simon had suspected as much. Actually, it
had been a toss of the dice, either Otter Cove or Rocky
Point, but he'd had a feeling it was the latter. He was
itching now to get back in his truck and make it to the
coast before dark. One way or another he'd find her. He
still didn't know what was going on, just that he needed to
see her with his own eyes. If she'd been playing him for a
fool the last year or so, well, that was the past, they
weren't together anymore anyway. But he had to know why
she'd left the house all lit up and the snow globe in such
an odd spot.
The wrecker, meanwhile, had continued rambling and Simon
tuned back in to hear him say, "Doctors said as long as
he didn't pressure his wife, it probably wouldn't hurt her,
and might do her some good. They said it could go away
overnight or take a few days or even weeks, just not to push
her."
Once again, Simon found himself playing catch-up. "What
could go away?" he asked.
"Like I said, her amnesia."
Amnesia? Ella had amnesia? Unsure how to respond to this,
Simon worked at looking nonplussed as he racked his brain
for a comment that made sense. The wrecker lowered his
voice, leaned closer to the fence and added, "The wife
heard he's not even supposed to tell her their baby lived
through the crash unless she remembers and asks about it."
The shock these words engendered on Simon's face must have
shown. The wrecker quickly added, "Her memory better
come back pretty damn quick, you ask me."
Okay, this had to be another woman. It wasn't Ella, it
couldn't be. Maybe she could have hidden a marriage, but a
baby? The sudden image of her perfect nude body, of the taut
skin covering her abdomen, flashed in his brain. He'd bet
almost anything she'd never given birth.
Now all he had to do was figure out what had happened to
Ella to separate her from her car so far from home.
The wrecker added, "My wife said the gal hasn't started
showing yet, but nature will take care of that soon enough."
"She's pregnant," Simon blurted out, unable to hide
the tremor in his voice.
The wrecker looked pleased with himself. "Yep."
That meant the woman in the car could be Ella.
And that meant the baby they were talking about could be
his.
"It's getting cold, Eleanor. Come inside," Carl
Baxter called, his voice drifting out to the outdoor balcony
through the partially open sliding glass door.
Glancing into the room, Eleanor saw that he'd stretched out
atop the king-size bed and was watching the news on television.
"In a minute," she said, wrapping the thin blue
sweater closer about her body.
Their room was on the tenth floor and overlooked the Pacific
Ocean, the distant horizon flushed with color as the sun
plunged toward the sea. The thin wind might be cold, but it
was still preferable to being inside the small room with her
husband.
Her husband! She absently twisted the gold band on her left
hand as she tried yet again to conjure up a memory of Carl
that preceded waking up in the hospital. Nothing. But the
truth was, it felt funny to think of Carl as her husband. He
was good-looking enough, with longish blond hair and an
aristocratic face, but there was absolutely nothing about
him that spoke to her on any level. He was older than she
was, forty-one to her twenty-eight, or so their drivers'
licenses revealed. His manner toward her was one of
indulgent fondness, she guessed, though it seemed as though
he might be a little on the controlling side.
For instance, on the drive from the hospital she'd begged
him to drive her home—wherever that might be; no place
sounded familiar to her. He'd told her they were going to
continue their long-planned road trip, that the doctors had
suggested traveling until she regained her memory. They
would go back to Blue Mountain when she remembered who she
was. It didn't matter that she wanted to go now; the doctors
knew best.
Who was she to argue with the doctors? Except this plan
seemed backward to her. Wouldn't her own space and
belongings trigger a memory or two? And what about her
parents or brothers or sisters?
All dead, Carl had told her, and then he'd folded her in his
arms as though comforting her, but how was she supposed to
mourn people she couldn't even remember?
Her sweater wasn't warm enough for the wind and she fought
her reluctance to go inside. She needed better clothes if
they were going to stay on the coast. A Wind-breaker, for
instance. She apparently wasn't much of a packer or maybe
her suitcase had been lost in the accident.
She could remember absolutely nothing about the crash. It
was as though her head was the inside of a pumpkin: mushy,
stringy. The irony of being able to recall the look and
smell and taste of a squash but not have a sense of self
seemed absurd, and she thought more kindly of Carl. It
couldn't be very pleasant to be saddled with a wife in such
a befuddled state. She should be grateful to him for
standing by her.
But why wouldn't he help her out a little? Why wouldn't he
show her pictures or tell her stories about her past or
explain what she did for a living, what she liked, what she
didn't like?
The doctors. That's why. He was following their orders.
The door opened behind her. Carl stood half in, half out,
the wind whipping his hair. Her own short brown locks barely
stirred.
"Time to come inside," he said, standing aside to
allow her to pass him.
He didn't try to touch her, and for this she was grateful.
As she heard the door slide closed behind her, she paused in
front of the TV. An announcer was offering details of a
homicide, the cameras scanning a weeded lot as a gurney
topped with a body bag was wheeled toward a waiting ambulance.
The picture disappeared as Carl clicked the remote. "I
was watching that," she said as she turned to face him.
"It happened a long way from here, Eleanor."
"But—"
"I don't want you to watch upsetting, unpleasant
things."
She took a deep breath. Was the man always this calculating
or had her new vulnerable state aroused his protective
instincts? "How long are we staying here?"