Dolan knew where to find her—or at least, how. Her scent was
all over this mountainous "sky island" territory, the fat
junipers and sage and high ground. The hint of her ancient
Vigilia nature tingled beneath, along with the sharp smell
of the occasional pine.
The daughter. The one who'd grown up apart from them…who
barely realized what she was. If anyone could help, it was
her. Meghan Lawrence. Child of a Sentinel who'd
died for the cause.
A woman who'd long ago rejected them all, just as they'd
rejected her.
On the eastern horizon, menace loomed in a long, hazy cloud
that had no business in this southwestern spring sky—the
Atrum Core, keeping track of this area, their dark presence
a constant itch between his shoulder blades. For all he
knew, they and their twisted prince sought the very same
trail he now followed.
He'd have to get there first.
Nearby, an ATV crawled clumsily over fragile soil, chewing
up plant life. Dolan veered off in annoyance, a silent snarl
on his lips. The rider—oblivious beneath a helmet—crept
forward in jerks and stops, challenged by the rugged nature
of the protected ground. This, too, was why Dolan was here.
Sentinel of the earth in all ways.
He eased back down to ghost along behind and above the man,
taking up a loose-limbed trot. Biding his time. Controlling
the thrill of the hunt that made his ears flatten, his head
sink lower. This wasn't the hunt. This was the job. His
life.
And so when the time was right, when the ground slanted
sharply away but not too sharply, when the creosote and
scrub oaks offered uphill cover, Dolan coiled himself on
powerful legs and freed his ever-simmering anger, leaping to
smack the ATV rider right off his machine and tumbling down
the slope.
He almost couldn't control the impulse to follow the
hunt, the kill, the satisfaction, strong jaws crunching
bone; he took his ire out on the machine instead,
shredding the plastic and cables and vulnerable exposed
guts. Even as the rider lifted his head, Dolan whirled and
bounded into the brush, surging with instincts and impulses
that wanted to stay. To kill.
A mile away he stopped, crouching into the wispy grasses and
rough ground, panting. Leaving the man behind to return to
his own forbidden quest.
He wasn't supposed to be here. He was supposed to have
waited in Sonoita for orders, for a team. Waited until
too late. Just as his brother had.
He folded his whiskers back tight with disdain, crouched
down close to the earth and dismissed the Sentinels from his
thoughts. He closed his eyes, opened his nose and
rediscovered the trail. The woman. The dark quest he'd been
following before he'd indulged himself.
No. It's part of the job. Of protecting this
territory. Not just from the evil that menaced it, the Atrum
Core, but from the mundane things as well. The man would
think twice before returning here, embroidering the story of
his brush with death until his friends ceased to truly
believe him—but they, too, might also think twice the next
time they went four-wheeling on protected lands.
And the man might have seen a flash of black, might have
felt the brush of fur and whisker and massive paw…but
nothing more. For all he knew, he'd been nailed by a desert
Bigfoot.
Not a huge, sleek and healthy black jaguar with startling
blue eyes and a man's thoughts.
Meghan saw him coming. She knew him instantly for what he
was; her mother had taught her that much before she'd died.
Vigilia. Sentinel. Those who had failed her mother.
Those who had sent her out to die alone.
Another couple of steps and it hit her in a literal gasp of
realization—his other nature.
…a fine young man who takes the jaguar.
Jaguar. In every step, emanating from his very
being… as clear to Meghan as if he'd stalked up to her in
form, just as her mother's coyote had always glimmered
clearly to Meghan's younger eyes.
The horse knew what he was, too, and she barely managed to
secure the side rein snap before he leaped away, pulling
from her grasp to gallop in panicked circles at the outside
edge of the training pen. Around and around, flashing
repeatedly between her and the approaching man, tail clamped
tight and ears back, side reins flapping.
She walked toward the man from within the pen, her stomach
already churning. Never mind the way he moved—fluidly, each
step deliberate and yet barely contained. Never mind his
expression—so alert, so intense—or the very direct way he
approached her. She could have closed her eyes and still
known him as Sentinel. As a jaguar.
That was one of her mother's legacies. The connections,
whether she wanted them or not.
He was close now, close enough to see that his eyes weren't
black at all, but a deep, startling blue. Close enough so
the terrified gelding fled to the opposite side of the pipe
panel round pen, snorting and grunting his fear.
She slipped between the metal rails and straightened as he
came to a stop. She didn't give him time to speak. "I know
what you are. Who you are." She felt it in every
fiber of her being, a strange reverberation that raised the
hair on her arms. "You're not welcome here."
He lifted his chin ever so slightly. Instead of resentment
or disappointment, interest flickered in those eyes. "You
think you know what I am."
She fought the urge to take a step back. Nothing but cold
metal pipe behind her. "I know enough." She wouldn't make
the mistake of listening to Sentinel words—to Sentinel
requests. Especially not from this man.
He eased closer, off to the side, as though looking at her
from a slightly different angle would somehow improve his
perception of her. "I didn't know your mother." The morning
light flashed against his eyes, bringing out their clarity;
it skipped along the angles of his cheek and jaw and got
lost in the gloss of thick black hair. All black, so wrong
for this climate… black jeans, black leather biker jacket.
"But I know of her. We all do."
She snorted. It wasn't delicate. "Right, because she was
your patsy. She let you talk her into dangers she shouldn't
even have been near."
At that he shook his head, short and almost imperceptible.
"Not I."
"As if it matters," she said, bitterness leaking through
along with disbelief. The noises of the ranch folded in
around her—horses calling to each other in reaction to the
gelding's fear; human voices raised as they queried each
other, pausing in chores. They were her family now,
the people who worked rescue with her. And they didn't need
this interference any more than she did. "You know what? I'm
busy. And you're scaring the hell out of this horse. Go
away, Sentinel."
"He'll get used to me," the man said absently. "They do." He
shifted again, still watching her. Still giving her that
shivery feeling, the same one she'd felt all morning. He'd
probably been watching her that long. Abruptly, he crouched,
resting his elbows on his knees to look up at her. Damned
well settling in. "I haven't yet done what I've come for."
"You probably think it's important, too." Something to do
with saving the world. With asking too much, just as they'd
asked too much of her mother—whatever it had been. Some
vital mission. Something impossible that her kind,
life-loving mother had no chance to survive. "But I won't.
So, seriously. Go away now." With someone else, she might
have hidden her irritation, taken the blunt edge out of her
voice. But this man…
She felt as though she already knew him. As though he made
no attempt to hide any of himself from her, and as though
she had no need to hide herself in return, not even to
soften that bluntness.
And so when he started, "The Atrum Core—" she didn't let him
finish. She knew the Atrum Core organization held the bad
guys; it seemed as though she'd always known. They were
ancient power mongers, sucking energy from the land to use
for themselves, never heeding the cost to the earth or
individuals. She didn't need to be told again, and she
especially didn't need to hear what he wanted her to do to
fight them. The Atrum Core had been out of her mother's
league; they were far, far out of hers. She held up her
hand, and he stopped. He didn't like it, but he gave her
that much— here on her own land, her own turf.
"I," she said, each word distinct, "do not care. Do you
really think there's more to it than the little incestuous
battles between the Sentinels and the Core? Do you think it
matters to the rest of the world? Because if so, you need to
get out more often."
She expected to make him angry, to set those eyes flashing.
She expected a retort…she'd even hoped to send him stomping
off in reaction. But he only watched her for a long moment,
hands relaxed.
She didn't expect him to say, so quietly, "Your mother was
not a patsy. She was a hero."
Unexpected tears prickled at her eyes and nose; her throat
tightened. Ten years old she'd been when her mother died.
Ten. And she still didn't know what had happened
that night. Only that her mother had been wearily satisfied
with what she'd accomplished—and then she'd gone off to lead
the Core astray. Alone. "Yeah, well, guess what.
I'm not. Not a patsy, not a hero. Your people are
users and liars, and they're not getting both of us."
His hands tightened briefly into fists, then opened again, a
deliberate effort. He stood, abruptly enough so she
stiffened in response. "You're right. They can be both of
those things." He looked at her as though she weren't
wearing old jeans and scarred boots and plenty of barn dirt,
her dark hair escaping from its sun-streaked ponytail in
spite of the ball cap she wore. He looked long enough that
she suddenly wondered what he saw. He added, "But I'm not."
Not like that. Sure.
Her throat hadn't loosened yet. Her words came out hoarse
and a little desperate even to her own ears, though every
bit as intent as they'd been the first time. "I want you to
go."
He eased back a step; in some odd way it seemed like advance
instead of retreat. He lifted his chin slightly,
acknowledging her words. "Leaving now," he said, "would
waste your mother's sacrifice. You don't give her enough
credit…. Neither did we. But I'm beginning to understand
just what happened here fifteen years ago. I thought you
would want to know, too…to help preserve what she
accomplished."
She barely had time to process that this man knew what she
didn't—knew what her mother had done, and why she'd died.
And then, quite suddenly, he was looking at her from beneath
a lowered brow, the kind of look that seemed charming on
Clooney and yet downright dark on this man. "I'll go," he
said, forestalling the deep breath she nearly took to repeat
the demand. "But I'm not leaving. I'm not done
here, Meg."
"Meghan," she said. "Not Meg. Not Meggie. Not anymore."
He acknowledged that with the slightest tip of his head.
"Meghan. Before I go, I need to warn you—"
"The Atrum Core," she said. "Yeah, yeah."
He moved so quickly she didn't realize until too late that
he had trapped her against the round pen pipe panels. Just
suddenly…he was there, taller than she'd thought and closing
her in an intimate cage, his hands gripping the top pipe on
either side of her shoulders. There was a growl low in his
throat; her whole body clenched in response to it—a fear and
flight response, as well as the recognition of what he was.
"Don't," he said, and stopped, closing his eyes to take a
deep breath. Control. In that moment she heard
nothing but the galloping pace of her own heartbeat, loud
enough so surely he must hear it, too. He released his
breath through flared nostrils and opened his eyes to pin
her with his gaze, direct and inescapable. "Don't take them
so lightly," he said. "You may not count yourself as one of
us, but you can be sure that they do. That Fabron Gausto
does. If he finds you here, death will be the least of what
your people will suffer."
She didn't have time for a response before he tore himself
away, heading back to the ridge that rose up to the south of
the ranch buildings. Even if she'd found the words, she
wouldn't have shouted them at his back. She stood,
shell-shocked, right where he'd left her, staring dumbly
after him with just enough presence of mind to realize she
was trembling.
He stopped his ground-eating pace and turned to look back at
her, so deliberately she thought he might even return. But
instead a sudden strobe of intense blue light scattered and
fractured, startling her eyes. She blinked, and that was all
the longer it took for him to change. To become
other.
Knowing it was one thing. Seeing it was another. One moment
a man, the next… black and low and lithe, staring back at
her with intelligence. Jaguar. As she'd thought… only deep,
dappled black, not gold and rosette. The jaguar once native
to this area, stronger and heavier of bone than a leopard,
imbued with power. He hesitated there, tail held low and
twitching, as if waiting for Meghan's response.
But Meghan stood transfixed, pinned by both memories and
unwilling awe. Behind her, the gelding stamped a foot and
snorted, a high blast of alarm that would carry across the
whole ranch. The black jaguar turned and bounded away,
effortlessly scaling steep ground into the cover of juniper,
oak and pine.
And Meghan sagged against the metal pipe behind her, cursing
his presence here—cursing the Sentinels, cursing the Atrum
Core…cursing the jaguar who'd finally shown up. Hearing his
words echo in her mind.
You may not count yourself as one of us, but you can be
sure that they do.
Dolan surprised himself by returning to the slopes above the
Lawrence ranch. He'd let the jaguar have the night,
submersing most of his humanity until sunrise. He hadn't
expected to find himself here come dawn, with the hard glint
of light skipping over the tops of the opposite ridge. He
squeezed cat eyes closed against it—and opened the eyes of a
man. Colors brighter but not quite as crisp, movements
dulled from sharp clarity to mere smears.
Below, the ranch spread out in a series of outbuildings,
paddocks and a main house with a satellite casita. Still
sleeping, all of them. Even the horses were silent,
slouching in the sunshine to shake the chill of the high
desert night.
He wondered if his brother had made it this far.
Leave it alone. You'll never know.
He shouldn't have come back.