Chapter 1
The North Carolina Mutual Life
Insurance agent promised to fly from Mercy to the other side
of Lake Superior at three o'clock. Two days before the event
was to take place he tacked a note on the door of his little
yellow house:
At 3:00 p.m. on Wednesday the 18th of
February, 1931, I will take off from Mercy and fly away on
my own wings. Please forgive me. I loved you
all.
(signed) Robert Smith,
Ins. agent
Mr. Smith
didn't draw as big a crowd as Lindbergh had four years
earlier--not more than forty or fifty people showed
up--because it was already eleven o'clock in the morning, on
the very Wednesday he had chosen for his flight, before
anybody read the note. At that time of day, during the
middle of the week, word-of-mouth news just lumbered along.
Children were in school; men were at work; and most of the
women were fastening their corsets and getting ready to go
see what tails or entrails the butcher might be giving away.
Only the unemployed, the self-employed, and the very young
were available--deliberately available because they'd heard
about it, or accidentally available because they happened to
be walking at that exact moment in the shore end of Not
Doctor Street, a name the post office did not recognize.
Town maps registered the street as Mains Avenue, but the
only colored doctor in the city had lived and died on that
street, and when he moved there in 1896 his patients took to
calling the street, which none of them lived in or near,
Doctor Street. Later, when other Negroes moved there, and
when the postal service became a popular means of
transferring messages among them, envelopes from Louisiana,
Virginia, Alabama, and Georgia began to arrive addressed to
people at house numbers on Doctor Street. The post office
workers returned these envelopes or passed them on to the
Dead Letter Office. Then in 1918, when colored men were
being drafted, a few gave their address at the recruitment
office as Doctor Street. In that way, the name acquired a
quasi-official status. But not for long. Some of the city
legislators, whose concern for appropriate names and the
maintenance of the city's landmarks was the principal part
of their political life, saw to it that "Doctor Street" was
never used in any official capacity. And since they knew
that only Southside residents kept it up, they had notices
posted in the stores, barbershops, and restaurants in that
part of the city saying that the avenue running northerly
and southerly from Shore Road fronting the lake to the
junction of routes 6 and 2 leading to Pennsylvania, and also
running parallel to and between Rutherford Avenue and
Broadway, had always been and would always be known as Mains
Avenue and not Doctor Street.
It was a genuinely
clarifying public notice because it gave Southside residents
a way to keep their memories alive and please the city
legislators as well. They called it Not Doctor Street, and
were inclined to call the charity hospital at its northern
end No Mercy Hospital since it was 1931, on the day
following Mr. Smith's leap from its cupola, before the first
colored expectant mother was allowed to give birth inside
its wards and not on its steps. The reason for the
hospital's generosity to that particular woman was not the
fact that she was the only child of this Negro doctor, for
during his entire professional life he had never been
granted hospital privileges and only two of his patients
were ever admitted to Mercy, both white. Besides, the doctor
had been dead a long time by 1931. It must have been Mr.
Smith's leap from the roof over their heads that made them
admit her. In any case, whether or not the little insurance
agent's conviction that he could fly contributed to the
place of her delivery, it certainly contributed to its
time.
When the dead doctor's daughter saw Mr. Smith
emerge as promptly as he had promised from behind the
cupola, his wide blue silk wings curved forward around his
chest, she dropped her covered peck basket, spilling red
velvet rose petals. The wind blew them about, up, down, and
into small mounds of snow. Her half-grown daughters
scrambled about trying to catch them, while their mother
moaned and held the underside of her stomach. The rose-petal
scramble got a lot of attention, but the pregnant lady's
moans did not. Everyone knew the girls had spent hour after
hour tracing, cutting, and stitching the costly velvet, and
that Gerhardt's Department Store would be quick to reject
any that were soiled.
It was nice and gay there for a
while. The men joined in trying to collect the scraps before
the snow soaked through them--snatching them from a gust of
wind or plucking them delicately from the snow. And the very
young children couldn't make up their minds whether to watch
the man circled in blue on the roof or the bits of red
flashing around on the ground. Their dilemma was solved when
a woman suddenly burst into song. The singer, standing at
the back of the crowd, was as poorly dressed as the doctor's
daughter was well dressed. The latter had on a neat gray
coat with the traditional pregnant-woman bow at her navel, a
black cloche, and a pair of four-button ladies' galoshes.
The singing woman wore a knitted navy cap pulled far down
over her forehead. She had wrapped herself up in an old
quilt instead of a winter coat. Her head cocked to one side,
her eyes fixed on Mr. Robert Smith, she sang in a powerful
contralto:
O Sugarman done fly away Sugarman done
gone Sugarman cut across the sky Sugarman gone
home....
A few of the half a hundred or so people
gathered there nudged each other and sniggered. Others
listened as though it were the helpful and defining piano
music in a silent movie. They stood this way for some time,
none of them crying out to Mr. Smith, all of them
preoccupied with one or the other of the minor events about
them, until the hospital people came.
They had been
watching from the windows--at first with mild curiosity,
then, as the crowd seemed to swell to the very walls of the
hospital, they watched with apprehension. They wondered if
one of those things that racial-uplift groups were always
organizing was taking place. But when they saw neither
placards nor speakers, they ventured outside into the cold:
white-coated surgeons, dark-jacketed business and personnel
clerks, and three nurses in starched jumpers.
The
sight of Mr. Smith and his wide blue wings transfixed them
for a few seconds, as did the woman's singing and the roses
strewn about. Some of them thought briefly that this was
probably some form of worship. Philadelphia, where Father
Divine reigned, wasn't all that far away. Perhaps the young
girls holding baskets of flowers were two of his virgins.
But the laughter of a gold-toothed man brought them back to
their senses. They stopped daydreaming and swiftly got down
to business, giving orders. Their shouts and bustling caused
great confusion where before there had been only a few men
and some girls playing with pieces of velvet and a woman
singing.
One of the nurses, hoping to bring some
efficiency into the disorder, searched the faces around her
until she saw a stout woman who looked as though she might
move the earth if she wanted to.
"You," she said,
moving toward the stout woman. "Are these your
children?"
The stout woman turned her head slowly, her
eyebrows lifted at the carelessness of the address. Then,
seeing where the voice came from, she lowered her brows and
veiled her eyes.
"Ma'am?"
"Send one around back
to the emergency office. Tell him to tell the guard to get
over here quick. That boy there can go. That one." She
pointed to a cat-eyed boy about five or six years
old.
The stout woman slid her eyes down the nurse's
finger and looked at the child she was pointing
to.
"Guitar,
ma'am."
"What?"
"Guitar."
The nurse
gazed
at the stout woman as though she had spoken Welsh. Then she
closed her mouth, looked again at the cat-eyed boy, and
lacing her fingers, spoke her next words very slowly to
him.
"Listen. Go around to the back of the hospital to
the guard's office. It will say 'Emergency Admissions' on
the door. A-D-M-I-S-I-O-N-S. But the guard will be there.
Tell him to get over here-- on the double. Move now. Move!"
She unlaced her fingers and made scooping motions with her
hands, the palms pushing against the wintry air.
A man
in a brown suit came toward her, puffing little white clouds
of breath. "Fire truck's on its way. Get back inside. You'll
freeze to death."
The nurse nodded.
"You left
out a s, ma'am," the boy said. The North was new to
him and he had just begun to learn he could speak up to
white people. But she'd already gone, rubbing her arms
against the cold.
"Granny, she left out a
s."
"And a 'please.' "
"You reckon
he'll
jump?"
"A nutwagon do anything."
"Who is
he?"
"Collects insurance. A nutwagon."
"Who is
that lady singing?"
"That, baby, is the very last
thing in pea-time." But she smiled when she looked at the
singing woman, so the cat-eyed boy listened to the musical
performance with at least as much interest as he devoted to
the man flapping his wings on top of the hospital.
The
crowd was beginning to be a little nervous now that the law
was being called in. They each knew Mr. Smith. He came to
their houses twice a month to collect one dollar and
sixty-eight cents and write down on a little yellow card
both the date and their eighty-four cents a week payment.
They were always half a month or so behind, and talked
endlessly to him about paying ahead--after they had a
preliminary discussion about what he was doing back so soon
anyway.
"You back in here already? Look like I just
got rid of you."
"I'm tired of seeing your face.
Really tired."
"I knew it. Soon's I get two dimes back
to back, here you come. More regular than the reaper. Do
Hoover know about you?"
They kidded him, abused him,
told their children to tell him they were out or sick or
gone to Pittsburgh. But they held on to those little yellow
cards as though they meant something--laid them gently in
the shoe box along with the rent receipts, marriage
licenses, and expired factory identification badges. Mr.
Smith smiled through it all, managing to keep his eyes
focused almost the whole time on his customers' feet. He
wore a business suit for his work, but his house was no
better than theirs. He never had a woman that any of them
knew about and said nothing in church but an occasional
"Amen." He never beat anybody up and he wasn't seen after
dark, so they thought he was probably a nice man. But he was
heavily associated with illness and death, neither of which
was distinguishable from the brown picture of the North
Carolina Mutual Life Building on the back of their yellow
cards. Jumping from the roof of Mercy was the most
interesting thing he had done. None of them had suspected he
had it in him. Just goes to show, they murmured to each
other, you never really do know about people.
The
singing woman quieted down and, humming the tune, walked
through the crowd toward the rose-petal lady, who was still
cradling her stomach.
"You should make yourself warm,"
she whispered to her, touching her lightly on the elbow. "A
little bird'll be here with the morning."
"Oh?" said
the rose-petal lady. "Tomorrow morning?"
"That's the
only morning coming."
"It can't be," the rose-petal
lady said. "It's too soon."
"No it ain't. Right on
time."
The women were looking deep into each other's
eyes when a loud roar went up from the crowd--a kind of wavy
oo sound. Mr. Smith had lost his balance for a
second, and was trying gallantly to hold on to a triangle of
wood that jutted from the cupola. Immediately the singing
woman began again:
O Sugarman done fly O Sugarman
done gone . . .
Downtown the firemen pulled on
their greatcoats, but when they arrived at Mercy, Mr. Smith
had seen the rose petals, heard the music, and leaped on
into the air.
The next day a colored baby was born
inside Mercy for the first time. Mr. Smith's blue silk wings
must have left their mark, because when the little boy
discovered, at four, the same thing Mr. Smith had learned
earlier--that only birds and airplanes could fly--he lost
all interest in himself. To have to live without that single
gift saddened him and left his imagination so bereft that he
appeared dull even to the women who did not hate his mother.
The ones who did, who accepted her invitations to tea and
envied the doctor's big dark house of twelve rooms and the
green sedan, called him "peculiar." The others, who knew
that the house was more prison than palace, and that the
Dodge sedan was for Sunday drives only, felt sorry for Ruth
Foster and her dry daughters, and called her son "deep."
Even mysterious.
"Did he come with a caul?"
"You
should have dried it and made him some tea from it to drink.
If you don't he'll see ghosts."
"You believe
that?"
"I don't, but that's what the old people
say."
"Well, he's a deep one anyway. Look at his
eyes."
And they pried pieces of baked-too-fast
sunshine cake from the roofs of their mouths and looked once
more into the boy's eyes. He met their gaze as best he could
until, after a pleading glance toward his mother, he was
allowed to leave the room.
It took some planning to
walk out of the parlor, his back washed with the hum of
their voices, open the heavy double doors leading to the
dining room, slip up the stairs past all those bedrooms, and
not arouse the attention of Lena and Corinthians sitting
like big baby dolls before a table heaped with scraps of red
velvet. His sisters made roses in the afternoon. Bright,
lifeless roses that lay in peck baskets for months until the
specialty buyer at Gerhardt's sent Freddie the janitor over
to tell the girls that they could use another gross. If he
did manage to slip by his sisters and avoid their casual
malice, he knelt in his room at the window sill and wondered
again and again why he had to stay level on the ground. The
quiet that suffused the doctor's house then, broken only by
the murmur of the women eating sunshine cake, was only that:
quiet. It was not peaceful, for it was preceded by and would
soon be terminated by the presence of Macon Dead.