I tweeted over the weekend (Sunday to be precise) that I had typed those two
fabulous little words at the end of what might be arguably a dirty first draft:
the end. Typing these words is both a catharsis and a relief, but it is also a
disappointment. For months, you live, breathe, sleep and think the novel. You
are in the heads of these characters; you ride their emotions and experience
your own emotional journey. When you finally type those two little words, it is
both wonderful and terrible.
Wrung Out
Delighted as I am to be done with the dirty first draft and as excited as I am
to getting ready for the edits, it is very much the same feeling you have after
nine months of pregnancy and hours of labor. I am almost too exhausted to be
bouncing off the walls thrilled. Unfurling inside is a deep sense of personal
satisfaction: I did it. I achieved my goal. I told my story. However, coupled
with this satisfaction is the realization, that now I have to nurture this new
little life, edit it, nudge it and shape it so that it can stand up and walk on
its own two feet.
Ages and Stages
Many authors think of their books as their babies and they are. They gestate in
our minds, they keep us up late into the night, they wake us at odd hours and
they can be capricious in their demands, not always doing what we want them to
do. You could argue that the gestation to the page is the most difficult age and
stage, for some authors it is. However, as with children and their parents,
every novel is different.
This novel has been brewing in the back of my mind for many years. I'd written
the first chapter in 2003. So it's not a surprise that I wanted to go back and
shepherd it along – but what I first envisioned in 2003 became very different in
2010. I reworked that first chapter, wrote a couple more and then hammered the
vision down into a plot framework. That plotting was a new step for me. I've
always been a pantser (someone who just writes from the seat of the pants and
worries about organizing the plot later), but I chose a different route this time.
Of Plots and Particulars
Plotting presented a new set of challenges. I had to think about what was
coming, so it made layering foreshadowing and hints in earlier chapters a little
easier. I didn't have to go back to season those in later. It also required that
I dig deep for the emotion and the action, eliminating any "digressions" that
pulled me off the path. From start to finish, it was roughly 13 weeks to write
this dirty first draft. Since the novel is about 15 chapters in length, I was
writing roughly one chapter per week. Not bad when you consider how little time,
I actually spent with the characters in the great grand scheme of things.
Now comes the hard part – what you thought writing that first draft was hard?
Challenging? Yes. Hard? Not so much. No the hard part is the editing, the
refining, the tweaking and the massaging. It's going back through and choosing
which words to trim back, which to enhance and where to add more story and where
to take away. Now the metaphor is not so much about pregnancy and giving birth
as it is about taming the unruly, wild garden into something civilized, exotic
and inviting – not always three words you hear together.
Shaking the Post Partum Book Blues
In addition to a head cold and a sick kid, I've wrestled with my post partum
book blues. I've coped with the inevitable wrung out feeling and now I'm getting
excited. Now I get to go back and read to refine – that's exciting. So rather
than hearing finality when I type those two wonderful words, I'm, often reminded
of the Black Eyed Peas version -- you know: The E.N.D. -- the energy never dies.
In three weeks, my dirty draft and I are on the road to a Margie Lawson workshop
where I get to have some quality Mommy-Book time to really make the process
complete. Exciting, n'est-ce-pas?
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