Kate has arrived in Whitby for a holiday … The wind suddenly gave a fresh gust as if to puff my sails as I left the hotel. Gulls squawked their derision as I debated which way to go, not remembering my way down higgledy-piggledy streets. I would keep to the main thoroughfares, if the streets of Whitby could be called that. Reluctantly turning my back on the sea, I took a turning that would lead me into town, passing large dwellings, many kept as boarding houses and with most of their signs stating “‘No Vacancies”’. As I walked onto Skinner Street, I paused to look in shop windows. Some were familiar from years ago. There was the post office, and when I saw that I remembered. This was the street where Gerald bought my rings. The thought should not have had such a powerful effect on me but it did. Putting off the moment when I would be drawn to the jeweller’s window, I went into Dowzells newsagents shop next door. Here I would buy postcards and a copy of the local paper for Dad. My father is superintendent of the West Riding Constabulary and whenever he goes away he likes to have a local paper, to see what preoccupies people in areas outside his own patch. My mother’s neighbour has a sweet tooth so I would buy a slab of butter toffee. The woman at the counter tilted her head and gave a smile, almost as if greeting an old friend. She looked so happy, as if she had just come on holiday herself. She was a little taller than me, and a little older, chestnut hair streaked with grey, shining eyes that appeared flecked with sunlight. She wore a cotton frock, patterned with geraniums. While I chose postcards, she stocked a shelf with chocolate bars, and then served boiled sweets to an old lady. As I paid for the postcards, Whitby Gazette and toffee, I exchanged a few words with the assistant about the fine weather and number of holidaymakers coming to Whitby this year. ‘Have you just arrived?’ ‘Yes. I’m off to hunt down a cup of tea and a bun.’ ‘Walk along the shore to Sandsend when the tide is out,’ she suggested. ‘There’s a nice little café there.’ I paid her and she offered to make space for me to write my postcards on the counter. ‘Thanks, but I’d be here an hour. It takes me ages to think what to say on a postcard.’ She laughed. ‘I’m just the same. Sometimes it’s the simplest things take the longest time. Where are you staying?’ ‘At the Royal.’ ‘How lovely, and do you have a view?’ ‘I do.’ There was a small poster taped to the counter, advertising a fund raising Bazaar, Sale of Work and Concert at the Seaman’s Mission the next day, Sunday. She saw me read it. ‘It’s in aid of the Seaman’s Mission. I do hope you’ll come along. It should be an enjoyable afternoon, and for a good cause.’ ‘Yes, I’d love to.’ ‘Excellent! I have some tickets if you’d like to get yours now.’ ‘I’ll take three tickets then, no – four.’ Alma and Felicity might want to come and Felicity would be bound to have a friend. As I left the shop, a tall, rotund man strode in, dapper and lively in striped suit and heavy watch and chain. He went behind the counter, saying to the assistant. ‘I expect you want a break.’ I smiled to myself as I heard her say, ‘Then you expect right.’ As I left the shop, a river of holidaymakers flowed downhill towards the town. I turned to join them, and then suddenly there was the jeweller’s shop. J Philips, High Class Jeweller. I stopped so abruptly that someone bumped into me. We both apologised, though the fault was mine for coming to such a sudden halt. It had been my intention to walk past, without looking, without thinking about that day so long ago. Yet look I must. Suddenly, nothing else mattered. There was the window display, hardly changed. The sensation gave me a slight shudder. As I stood in the here and now, my other self from years ago also looked into the window. I was here, alone, and also standing beside Gerald as we rather self-consciously look at rings. Our fingers touch. The memory of that moment was so strong that all that has happened since fell away. Perhaps the wind did not entirely drop to nothing, and the gulls continued their cry, but I was trapped in the past so intensely that I could not catch my breath and could not shift my gaze from the tray of rings. For a moment, I did not realise that someone was speaking to me. Bringing myself back into the present with a little shake, I saw that the man who had entered the newsagents, the owner I supposed, now straightened papers in the rack outside. He looked at me in an odd way. He was waiting for an answer, having said something – but I did not know what. He covered the awkwardness. ‘Are you all right, madam?’ ‘Yes. Thank you.’ He straightened his cuffs and his gold cufflinks shone in the sunlight. ‘Nice display, eh?’ ‘Very nice.’ The man’s voice and my inane reply had broken the spell. The window was no longer completely dominated by rings. There were china ornaments, bangles, brooches and earrings. There was even a bracelet that would go perfectly with the black and white dress I had bought in Schofields for my goddaughter, Felicity. The writer of a syndicated fashion column that appeared in our local paper gave her opinion that a black and white frock was very useful to a girl in mourning, or not in mourning. The sleeves could be either black or white. The columnist also suggested buying under-slips in both black and white. This particular frock had kilt pleats at the front, which seem to be coming in again. Not that Felicity is in mourning – that I know of – but it will be useful as well as pretty, just in case. Besides, someone is always dying. This bracelet would definitely chime with the dress. It had a delicate gold chain set with stones, alternating tiny pearls with jet beads – the jet Queen Victoria made famous and desirable when she chose it as her mourning jewellery after Prince Albert died. It amused me to see that Victoria’s favourite gemstone, readily found along the coast by fossil hunters, was now being sold in long necklaces for young flappers. Step into the shop. That’s what I must do. Otherwise, each time I came along this street I would be stopped in my tracks, caught in another time, and it would not do. After a different purchase, I would be able to walk by the shop with only the smallest pang of sadness and nostalgia, and not be overwhelmed. Besides, the bracelet would be perfect. Would the jeweller be the same man? The name scrolled in gilt across the window was the same: J Philips High Class Jeweller. I remembered him as tall and thin with bright red hair, but he was not so very old and that was before the war. Perhaps, like Gerald, he had not come back. The clapper sounded as I entered the jeweller’s shop. A glass cabinet on the opposite wall contained dainty and elegant clocks. One in particular caught my eye and asked to be taken home. It was a pretty thing, with an embossed tulip design. Sorry, clock, but I have one similar to you already. The long glass-topped counter was divided into sections for watches, bracelets and rings. I looked at the bracelets under the glass of the counter but didn’t see one I liked half as much as the one in the window. I waited. No one came. I pressed the counter bell, and waited. A grandmother clock ticked. The minute hand moved. One minute, two, three. A shop with such valuable goods should not be unattended. Whitby must indeed be an honest town. Now that I was in the shop, sealed off from the world outside, the memories returned, but not painfully. We had chosen my ring from the window. Mr Philips had checked my ring size. He was a charming man. His ginger hair had a natural wave. His skin was a pale pink shell colour. He would need to keep out of the sun so as not to burn. One of the clocks chimed. Another minute ticked by. Some quality in the tick-tock quiet of the place made me uneasy. A shop with such valuable goods should not be deserted. Perhaps that was why I went behind the counter and tapped on the door that connected to the room at the back. I called out, knocking as I did so, calling, ‘Hello. Anyone there?’ The room beyond was dimly lit, the curtains closed. Yet I sensed that there was someone there and was drawn into the room. I glanced about. The figure - – the shape - – I did not straightaway realise it was a body, lay face down in the centre of the faded square rug that covered much of the stone floor.