Outside the window of the bus, Mo Kincaid saw a sign with
a stylized caribou and the message WELCOME TO CARIBOU
CROSSING. It was a fancier sign than the faded one he had
walked past when he left almost twenty years ago. Seemed
the town had changed. Well, so had he.
He figured he’d be about as welcome here as a dead car
battery in the middle of a mid-January snowstorm, but
here he was all the same. Compelled, driven, maybe
obsessed. Selfish or honorable? Hell if he knew.
Unable to sit still now, he rose, grabbed the battered
backpack that contained all his worldly goods, and made
his way up front. “Can you let me off here?” he asked the
stocky, middle-aged female driver.
“Don’t want to go all the way downtown?”
“No, ma’am.” Not quite yet. He’d left Caribou Crossing on
foot, his thumb out, hoping for a ride. Somehow it felt
right to reenter town striding along the dusty shoulder
of the road, one purposeful step at a time.
“It’s against the rules to make an unscheduled stop.” She
cocked a bushy brown eyebrow, waiting to see if he’d try
to persuade her.
He gave her the lazy smile that women seemed to like. “Aw
now, what’s the fun in always following the rules?” He’d
never had much time for rules. When he was younger,
there’d been plenty of women willing to break theirs for
him, and he guessed not much had changed because the
driver’s foot shifted over to the brake.
She grinned, the mirth in it lending her face an
unexpected beauty. “Good point, mister.” With a wink, she
added, “Promise you won’t tell on me.”
“I surely won’t. Much obliged.” He tipped his head to her
and went down the steps.
When both feet were planted on the ground, he stood there
as the driver waved and drove away. The bus disappeared
and still Mo stood, alone on a nondescript country road
in the middle of British Columbia, wondering if he was a
damn fool. He could cross the narrow two lanes, stick out
his thumb. No one would know that he’d almost come to
town, but had turned around before getting anywhere near
his ex-wife or his son.
Mo would know, and he’d beat himself up for it. He’d
already debated this trip for a good two years before
quitting a decent job in Regina, shoving his belongings
in his pack, and heading to the bus depot. Real men were
supposed to be decisive, but then real men didn’t let
booze get the best of them; they controlled their anger;
they didn’t hit women or kids. It had been a very long
time since he’d done any of those bad things, but they
still weighed on his conscience. The doing, and the
weighing, those were the reasons he would not cross that
road. He couldn’t change the past, but he could, at long
last, stop running from it and try to make amends.
He buttoned his heavy denim jacket against the chilly,
early November air, hoisted his pack, and set out along
the broad shoulder of the road into town. A sullen gray
sky threatened snow, but so far the ground was clear.
Beyond a wooden fence lay ranch land scattered with
grazing cattle. After a passing glance, Mo’s focus wasn’t
on the scenery but on his thoughts.
He’d never liked Caribou Crossing. Never liked any of the
dusty dots on the map that he and Brooke and Evan had
lived in back in the old days. But then he hadn’t liked
much of anything. He’d been too damned pissed off at the
world and at how his life had turned out.
He had fumed every step of the way out of town until he’d
hit the highway and a trucker picked him up. It was one
thing to skip town as a matter of choice. But when the
police had showed up at his and Brooke’s door that day,
he’d figured he had no choice but to leave.
Mo hated the man he’d been back then. An asshole who,
when he was pissed off, got drunk and riled up. There
were no excuses for the things he’d done. It didn’t
matter that his young, pretty wife drank too much herself
and ragged on him for ruining her life. It didn’t matter
that she spent much of her time either partying herself
senseless at the Gold Nugget Saloon, or holed up in bed
with the covers over her head, or engaged in screaming
matches with him.
Whatever the folks around him did, a man was responsible
for his own actions. Way too late in life, Mo had come to
So now here he was, dragging his sorry ass back to the
town his wife and kid had called Hicksville, to
apologize. Much too little, much too late, and they would
probably—and deservedly—want to plant a boot square on
his backside and kick him straight back out of town.
If they did, maybe he’d go. But maybe he wouldn’t. He
used to walk away when the going got tough. But taking
responsibility meant not taking the easy way out.
When the compulsion had hit him to reconnect with Brooke
and Evan, he’d wondered if he would even be able to
locate them. Caribou Crossing was the only place he’d
known to start, and the online Caribou Crossing Gazette
had given him the surprising news that both were still in
Brooke was married again, to a man named Jake Brannon.
When Mo’d seen the guy’s occupation, he’d done a double
take. Brannon was the Royal Canadian Mounted Police
detachment commander for Caribou Crossing. Did that mean
Brooke had stopped drinking and causing a ruckus?
As for Evan, the boy had been smart as a whip and always
insisted he was going to go to some fancy college and
build a successful career in a high-powered place like
New York City. He’d had the dreams, the smarts, the
drive, yet now he was a small-town investment counselor.
Poor kid; having parents like Mo and Brooke had probably
Traffic had increased enough—meaning three or four cars
and trucks in succession—to make Mo refocus on his
surroundings. He’d reached the outskirts of town. A
nicely maintained barn, paddock, and hitching rails
belonged to a business called Westward Ho! It advertised
trail rides and horse boarding both long term and short.
It seemed Caribou Crossing was still all about horses.
Him, he was better with machines than with animals. Not
that he didn’t like animals. It was just easier to
understand machinery and to fix whatever went wrong. And
when it came to people . . . Well, it was ironic that he
could repair anything with an engine, but had almost
destroyed the lives of the two people he cared about the
In an odd counterpoint to his thoughts, a medium-sized
light brown animal ran around a corner and headed
straight for him. At first he thought it was a fox, but
when it pulled up a couple of feet short of him, he saw
it was a dog with a broad, wedge-shaped head. It didn’t
bare its teeth in a threat nor wag its tail, just stood
there watching him.
A dark-haired girl, late teens maybe, burst around the
same corner, and then slowed when she saw the dog.
Panting for breath, she approached slowly. Above the
collar of a puffy green jacket, her cheeks were pink from
exertion. “There you are,” she said to the animal.
It edged a foot closer to Mo, making him wonder if the
creature had been abused. God knew, Mo had reason to
recognize that kind of wariness.
The girl stood back a few feet, tugging a striped toque
more securely down over her shoulder-length hair. “I’m
from the animal shelter,” she told Mo, “and he’s our
resident escape artist.”
“He was abused?”
“We don’t think so. There were no physical signs of it.
He’d been well looked after, he’s definitely been
trained, and we found him with his leash tied to the
railing by the shelter’s door. We figure he was abandoned
because he wasn’t the kind of pet the owner wanted.”
Mo glanced again at the dog, which was staring up at him
with its ears cocked forward. The whitish face and chest
contrasted nicely with the pale reddish-brown coat. The
dog’s body was lean and fit, and it had a bushy, longish
tail. For some reason, Mo felt defensive on the animal’s
behalf. “What’s wrong with him? He looks fine to me.”
“Want to adopt him?” she asked promptly.
He grinned at her. “Nice try. No, thanks. But seriously,
why wouldn’t someone want him?”
“He’s a New Guinea singing dog.” The girl inched closer
to the animal. “The first one any of us had ever seen. We
had to look him up. They’re called singing dogs because
they have a unique kind of howl. They’re a lot like the
Australian dingo. A wild dog, though the ones that are
bred in captivity can be trained.” She glanced at Mo, her
expression earnest. “Like, a wild dog would naturally
prey on cats, but Caruso’s been trained to leave them
alone. All the same, singers aren’t your typical pet dog.
They’re, like, total free spirits. Independent. More like
cats. If someone wants a dog that fawns all over them, a
singing dog isn’t right for them.”
Mo was liking the creature more and more.
The dog had moved to sit on his left, about ten inches
from his well-worn work boot. Mo squatted. “Hey, Caruso.
I’ve never heard a dog sing. Want to give me a
As he spoke, the girl moved closer. While the dog gazed
at Mo, not opening its mouth, she clipped the leash to
its collar. Caruso shot both of them a dirty look. Mo
tried not to feel guilty.
“Come on, Caruso,” the girl said. “It’s time to go home.”
Home. An animal shelter. Well, at least the creature
would have food and be warm and dry. Seemed it didn’t
want anything more than that—like affection—anyway. Mo
and Caruso did have a lot in common.
“You sure you don’t want to adopt him?” the girl tried
Mo shook his head. “I’m a wanderer.”
“So’s Caruso. You’re perfect for each other.”
“Nope. Not happening. I’ve got enough on my plate.”
As she led the dog away, it cast a glance at Mo over its
shoulder. Not begging, not hopeful, not even blaming this
time. Just a glance.
Mo resumed his own walk, knowing exactly where he was
headed. Thanks to the Internet, he knew that Hank
Hennessey still ran his vehicle and farm equipment repair
shop, and it was still the only one in town. Hank would
be getting on now, in his mid-sixties. He must have an
assistant or two. Likely he didn’t need Mo’s help—and
wouldn’t take him back even if he did—but what the hell,
a guy had to start somewhere.
As he covered the few blocks, Mo noted changes. When he’d
lived here, the town had a used-up feel. Way back in the
1860s, the gold rush had made it a boomtown. After a few
years, the gold ran out and the place almost became a
ghost town, but a few ranchers kept it going and it
slowly grew into a little community. Back in Mo’s day, it
was a backwoods off the main highway that meandered the
interior of British Columbia in a rough vertical line.
Since then, Caribou Crossing had obviously gone through a
revival. Even on a chilly, gray Monday afternoon, people
bustled around looking cheerful. Businesses and homes
were spruced up and old buildings had been restored.
There were picturesque touches like bright awnings,
planters full of bronze and yellow chrysanthemums, and
stylized wire-frame animals that he figured were supposed
to be caribou.
Hennessey Auto Repair, when he reached it, looked much
the same. There wasn’t a lot you could do to make an
automotive repair shop look picturesque. As usual, the
parking area held a motley assortment of cars, trucks,
and farm equipment. One of the doors to the service bays
was partially open. The whirr of a drill sounded from
inside, competing with Johnny Cash on the radio singing
“Folsom Prison Blues.” Nope, not much had changed here.
Mo followed the whine of the drill to find a stocky,
overall-clad back bent over a workbench. No one else
appeared to be around. The drill shut off. Johnny Cash
finished up the song, wishing for a train whistle to rid
him of his blues.
Mo said, “Mr. Hennessey?”
The man turned, shoving protective goggles up over thin
gray hair. “Yeah?”
“Mo Kincaid?” Hank asked, stepping toward him and
narrowing his eyes. “That really you?”
“You recognize me?” He’d worked for Hank for not much
more than a year and it had been a long time ago. But
Mo’s looks were distinctive, his blue-green eyes a
contrast to his brownish skin and black hair. His birth
name was Mohinder McKeen, the first part coming from his
South Asian mother and the second from his Irish-American
“You were a good mechanic.” The shorter man studied Mo’s
“You fired me.” After Mo showed up late for work,
hungover, one too many times.
I’m a businessman.”
“I know.” Hank had been a fair employer and a decent man.
While Mo had faced some small-town racism, there’d never
been a hint of that from Hank. “And that means you don’t
likely want to give me another chance,” Mo continued.
He’d known this was a long shot, but he’d worked out what
he wanted to say to this man.
“You’re looking for a job?” Hank asked disbelievingly.
“I am. I used to be a good mechanic, and I’m better now.
And I’m a changed man, Mr. Hennessey. I can’t promise
I’ll stay for long because my plans are, uh, a little
uncertain. But as long as I’m in town, I’ll work hard and
I’ll show up on time. You don’t have to pay me much, only
enough to cover rent and groceries.” Mo had saved money
over the years, and this was less about earning a salary
than about his desire to keep regular work hours and do
something useful with his time.
The older man’s blue eyes were faded, but still piercing
as he kept them on Mo’s face.
Mo went on. “I used to have a drinking problem, but
that’s a long ways in the past.” At one point, he’d gone
to some A.A. meetings. He’d realized he wasn’t an
alcoholic, but at those meetings he’d figured out that he
was a bitter, angry man who was weak enough to seek
solace in alcohol. He’d seen that booze never offered a
solution; as with the alcoholics, drinking made his
problems worse. Blaming fate or other people wasn’t
constructive, and he’d managed to let go of his anger and
make peace with the world he lived in. He’d also decided
that, even if he wasn’t an alcoholic, it was safest to
stay away from booze. “I haven’t had a drink in years.
For the last five years, I managed an auto repair
business in Regina. I can give you a phone number and you
can check with them.”
“Uh-huh. Well, I just fired an assistant last month.
Idiot couldn’t be bothered with diagnostics, just threw
parts at the problem.” Hank’s gaze remained steady on
Mo’s face. “You say your plans are uncertain. Mind
sharing those plans?”
Mo swallowed. He wasn’t a guy who opened up to anyone
about his personal shit. But it was a fair question,
given how he was asking Hank to take a chance on him. “I
hope to see my ex-wife and my son. I know I can’t make
things right, but I owe them an apology.”
“Yeah, you do. But they’ve built good lives for
themselves. What if they don’t want to see you?”
And there it was. The worry that kept Mo awake at night.
Was he here for Brooke and Evan, as the honorable,
responsible thing to do, or was he being selfish? He kept
telling himself he had to own up to his sins, offer a
sincere apology, and see if there was any way he could
make amends. But he had no right to mess up their lives
just because he wanted to make peace with himself and
feel a little less of a shit. “I don’t know. I honestly
don’t know. Maybe this is a bad idea.”
“But for the past two or three years, I’ve had this
compulsion. I can’t ignore it any longer.”
“Your gut talking to you,” Hank said.
More like his conscience, but he’d said enough already.
“My gut talks to me,” the other man went on. “Now it’s
telling me to hire you.” He held out his hand. “Don’t
make me regret listening to it.”