Lark? Are you okay?" He stands in the shadow of the trees,
hidden from view.
I shake my head and hope he'll go away. I don't want him
to see me like this.
"You need to leave, Beck. You can't be around me."
He ignores my order and crosses the expanse of sand. "I
need to talk to you."
"I don't think this is a good idea. They're probably
already looking for you." I hide my face from him.
"Doubt anyone is looking for me," he says. "They sent me
to find you."
So that's how it is. Beck's here to do what I know he has
to: send me away. Tell me he doesn't want me.
He's here to tell me things we both know are lies.
I twist the chain of my necklace around my fingers and
wish this moment away. Even though I know he doesn't mean
it, I still don't want to hear those words. I take a deep
breath and prepare to have my heart ripped out.
But instead of doing what he needs to, Beck sits next to
me. His warmth envelops me and pushes some of the sadness
and worry away.
"Not the best day, is it?" His voice is heavy, but
there's not a trace of sorrow.
"You could say that." I stare out into the night. Tears
stain my cheeks and I pray he doesn't notice. I hug my knees
to my chest and rest my head on them.
Beck's hand strokes my hair. He tugs at the ends and
wraps them around his fingers. I close my eyes and savor the
feeling of being close to him again.
With that one gesture, I realize he's not going to do it.
Beck won't tell me to leave. He won't lie to me.
I turn my head toward him, my hair falling across my
face. Through the strands, I study him, trying to discern
whether or not it's really him or Henry again. His eyes look
hopeful, not sad.
Not at all worried. I sigh. Only Beck would be optimistic
when everything seems hopeless.
He's making this worse.
All my life, I've turned to him when I haven't known what
to do. But now, it's my turn to lead. I need to be strong
and do the right thing: If Beck won't let me go, I'm going
to have to make him not want me. I'm going to have to force
him away.
I fumble with the clasp of my necklace. When it falls
away, I gather it in my hand and force it into his. A faint
tingle runs along my skin when my hand brushes against his.
Beck stares at the necklace before clenching it in his
fist. He holds it for a moment, closes his eyes, and then
drops it into his pocket. When my lip trembles, I realize
I'd been hoping he'd refuse it, or maybe even clasp it
around my neck again.
"What do you want, Beck?" My flat voice sounds empty,
like I feel.
"You."