"I HAVE NOTHING to declare," Marissa Suarez told the
customs agent in a voice like broken glass, "except that
my boyfriend's a swine."
A snicker rose from the crowded line behind her. The bored
official merely stamped her customs declaration form
without looking up. "You can't bring pork products into
the country, ma'am."
Marissa squinted. "Oh, don't worry. I left his bacon miles
behind."
Paul Beckwith, forthwith known as Cheating Slime, was
still in the Cayman Islands hobnobbing with his clients.
If he'd missed Marissa it was only because she wasn't
there to slather sunscreen on his perfectly trapezoid
shoulders and back. But any bunny off the beach could
handle that duty. Paul would have no objections. When he
hadn't been ditching her for "vital" meetings, he'd been
drooling over every pair of bouncing breast implants on
Seven Mile beach.
Marissa Suarez was not a woman who put up with that kind
of bullshit.
She was, unfortunately, a woman who chose the kind of man
who shoveled it.
Every...damn...time.
With a clenched-teeth smile, she took the card from the
customs official and tucked it into her passport. She
truly had nothing to declare. Returning five days early
from a supposedly romantic getaway, she was not only sans
boyfriend, but minus the promised toasty tan and post-
coital bliss, too.
However, she had acquired a resolution during the flight
into JFK: no more bad choices, no more mistakes.
Next time — because, let's face it, she wasn't going to
swear off men altogether — she would pick a guy who was
the antithesis of the handsome, career-driven charmers she
usually went for. Someone sweet, tender, laid-back.
So what if she wasn't sweet, tender or laid-back herself?
Opposites were supposed to attract.
New arrivals jostled into the roped-off customs line. A
fat woman with a bad sunburn and a floppy hat jarred
Marissa's elbow just as she'd twisted to tuck her official
papers into the straw bag hanging off her shoulder.
The documents flew from her hand. When she bent to reach
for it, the woman beaned her in the head with a bulging
carry-on.
Marissa bounced off the cordon and pitched forward in her
spike-heeled sandals, falling onto her hands and
knees. "Ouch!"
"Let me help," said a deep male voice. The French accent
seemed to be authentic, but in Marissa's current state of
mind she was prone to doubt the sincerity of the entire
male species. "These people have no manners."
The stranger knelt near her suitcase, smoothly offering
one hand to help her stand while swooping up the passport
with his other. He was dark and slight, with a seriously
I'm-too-French-for-razors stubble happening below his
gaunt cheekbones. He reeked of tobacco. Smoky sunglasses
concealed his eyes, but she sensed he'd evaluated her in
one lizard-like blink.
Marissa rose and brushed away the strands of hair that had
come free of her ponytail. Her knees stung. "Thank you,
but please let me have that," she said, being politely
firm as she reached for her passport.
The Frenchman had maneuvered her around so that her back
was to the bustling meet-and-greet area. His eyes crawled
over her photo ID and return ticket. Marissa steeled
herself to deflect a suave compliment on her ebony hair or
exotic eyes — she'd heard them all — but he simply handed
over the passport without comment.
After a glance past her shoulder, then the faintest twitch
of a smile, he melted away into the nattering crowd of
arrivals who'd cleared customs. "Good day."
Odd. Marissa snapped the passport shut and pressed it to
her breastbone, feeling the way she did when a shadow
passed over the sun. She checked her luggage, half
expecting that he'd lifted her wallet. But all was intact,
including the tagged and processed bag sitting at her feet.
"Outta my way, supermodel," said the fat woman in a Bronx
patois that hacksawed through the moment of unease. She
trundled by with a large stack of luggage.
"Pardon," Marissa trilled. Thankful that she'd traveled
light, she reached for the small suitcase that was packed
with little more than damp bikinis, shorts, tanks and a
couple of sundresses. The big straw carry-all she'd
purchased on the island held a stash of Evian, her wallet
and passport, makeup bag, camera, the current issue of
French Vogue and five crumpled sheets of stationery from
the Grand Cayman Beachcomber.
Paul — Sorry, but I'm leaving. I was annoyed when you
abandoned me at the hotel bar, but to ditch
Paul,
Next time you invite a girlfriend on a business trip,
don't claim it's a romantic getaway.
Dear Paul,
Clearly, we are not working out. It was a mistake to get
involved in the first place, so I'm sure we can agree to
pretend that this never hap
Dickhead — I'm so out of here!
Dear Paul — I've booked an earlier flight with my return
ticket. First class. Don't worry, I paid the difference
myself. Enjoy the rest of your midnight "business"
meetings.
Your ex, Marissa THE FINAL VERSION of the letter was the
one she'd stuck on the mirror in their suite, then removed
at the last moment. She was better at face-to-face
confrontation. But there'd been no time to wait around for
that, and, anyway, he'd deserved to be left in the dark
about her sudden departure.
She'd swept the wadded-up notes into her bag so he
wouldn't find them, grabbed her swimsuits off the shower
curtain rod and hurried to the lobby to catch the late
airport shuttle. After making a couple of calls to friends
to let them know she was on her way home, she'd turned off
her cell phone for the duration of the trip.
She had no intention of listening to Paul's outrage at
being left in the lurch. Recriminations weren't her thing.
Neither was wallowing and weeping. She always recognized
when a relationship was over and believed in lopping off
dead meat with a quick, decisive cut.
Which would be much easier if she hadn't made the colossal
mistake of hooking up with a workmate from Howard,
Coffman, Ellis and Schnitzer, the Manhattan law firm where
she'd been employed since graduation from Columbia Law.
Fortunately, Paul would be even less inclined to bring
their breakup into the office. She was still one of the
multitude of associates, while he was on the fast track to
junior partner. He had more to lose.
Marissa left the customs area and stepped sideways around
a couple of city cops with radios clipped to their
shoulders and holsters at their hips. They were
coordinating with an airport official and his uniformed
security staff, passing out photocopies of a suspect's mug
shot.
Uh-oh. Security sweep. Get a move on.
Marissa slipped in and out of the crowds of huggers and
criers, still worrying about her job. She'd known it was a
foolish move to get involved with Paul, yet she'd done it
anyway. Even in the early days of the romance, when he was
charming and attentive and neither of them had been
thinking of practical matters, she hadn't expected to
avoid office gossip entirely. The legal secretaries always
knew which of the firm's employees were getting their
briefs filed, even when the senior partners were oblivious.
Worse, she couldn't blame Paul for the bad decision. She'd
made the choice. She'd believed he was worth a risk. She'd
believed maybe this time...
"When will I ever learn?" she muttered, digging into the
straw bag to find her cell. She flipped it open and
checked her messages, dodging an overzealous gypsy
cabdriver who tried to snag her arm.
Four messages from Paul. She got a petty but satisfying
spurt of retribution by deleting them with a punch of her
thumb.
She almost bumped into a young woman in religious sect
garb: head kerchief and a plain calf-length dress with a
white collar and black stockings. The girl turned, smiled
modestly and offered Marissa a bloom from the bucket of
daisies and tulips at her feet.
A pure white Stargazer lily. "Beautiful," Marissa said,
surprised. Even though she didn't usually slow for
hucksters, she dug into the straw bag and pulled a five
out of her wallet. "Blessings on you." The young lady
nodded. "May you find true love."
"Yes, here's to love." Marissa meant to be sarcastic, but
no conviction remained. Although coming home early was a
smart step, she would have to continue traveling in a new
direction if she hoped to find true love.
Ah, but did she? That was a question to ponder. Not
looking for love wasn't working. How likely was it that
she'd have any luck if her expectations were even higher?
Juggling the phone, she tucked the lily behind her ear,
then returned to her messages. One was from her mother in
Miami, who had the notion that any time Marissa flew over
Florida she should stop in to say hello, as if the
airlines issued parachutes along with packets of stale
peanuts.
The last message put a smile on Marissa's face. Jamie
Wilson. Her best friend, guy version. If there was anyone
who could untwist her insides and aim her in the right
direction, it was Jamie. She speed-dialed him.
He answered on the first ring. "Where are you, babe?"
"Back on U.S. soil. Making my way to the taxi lane." Jamie
was the only man she let call her "babe." From a snake
like Paul, the pet name would ooze with condescension.
From Jamie, it was about cozy familiarity, as if they were
an old married couple who finished each other's thoughts.
Which they almost were. Jamie was the straight Will to her
Grace, proof that men and women truly could be "just"
friends.
"Did you practice your yoga breathing on the plane like I
said?" Jamie was always telling her she needed to slow her
usual pace — full speed ahead.
"With a carpet salesman from Jersey and his horking wife
at my elbow? Not a chance. But after the attendant had
removed the airsick bags, I did wind down with one of
those itty-bitty bottles of rum."
"You'll be dehydrated then."
"I know. Want to meet me for drinks? Maybe a little cheese
with my whine?"
"How about actual food?"
"I guess." Her stomach was hollow, but she was too hyper
to eat. Normally she'd channel her energy into a good
workout — either at the gym or in the bedroom — but that
was out for the time being. Tomorrow, she'd get back on
the treadmill, literally and figuratively. If she never
found an appropriate man, at least she'd qualify for the
fitness Olympics.
"I need to stop by home first to dump my luggage," she
said, tugging at the shoulder strap of the suitcase.
"Meet you there." Jamie lived upstairs from her, in a
vintage brownstone in the Village.
"Where are you now?" he asked.
She glanced up. "Almost to the exit. If the taxi line
isn't too long, I'll be in the city by —"
"Turn left," Jamie said.
"But —"
"Just do it."