Excerpt of A Texan's Promise by Shelley Shepard Gray

"Vanessa, honey, why you crying?"

Clayton! He stood in the doorway to the stables, his pres- ence both a soothing balm and a source of panic.

Vanessa gingerly leaned back against the wood behind her, willed herself to relax, but it was no good. It was going to be some time before she could calm down again. "I’m sorry I woke you."

"You didn’t." His eyes narrowed as he stepped closer. "It’s midnight. Isn’t it awfully late for you to be out of bed?"

Yes. Yes, it was. It was too late for a lot of things now. Wiping her eyes with the side of her fist, she shook her head. "I’ll go in soon."

Clayton crouched beside her, his knees brushing her skirts. A puff of dust flew up, mixing with his scent, all bay rum and horses. "Care to tell me what happened?"

She was thankful for the darkness. "No."

He rocked back on his heels. "It might make you feel better." Just his presence made her feel better, but that was how it always had been. Though only twenty-nine, Clayton Proffitt was the foreman of her family’s ranch, had been soon after her pa had hired him six years ago. When Pa had died, Clayton kept the place going for her mother.

Now that Ma remarried, Clayton had proved to be the most upstanding man she’d ever met. The differences between him and her stepfather were like night and day.

He’d always been patient and kind to her. Had always had time for her when no one else had. Even more importantly, he knew the Bible well, and often referred to it whenever she sought his advice. Consequently, his opinion mattered more to her than anyone else’s.

Which was exactly why she couldn’t tell him what hap- pened. Desperately, she breathed deep. Inhaled his scent, his goodness, before tucking her chin to her chest. "It’s nothing. I’m . . . fine, Clay. I’ll be out of your way in a minute. Sorry I disturbed you."

She moved to get up, but his hand stilled her. "I didn’t say you disturbed me. I don’t think you ever could." Peering closer, his expression softened as one calloused finger touched her cheek. "Now. There’s got to be a reason you’re out here crying after midnight. What happened?"

She wanted to tell him. But if she did, he’d just shoulder all her hurt and responsibility, making her wish that she was less of a burden.

She hated being nineteen and unmarried. Too old to ask for help; too innocent to be self-sufficient.

"Well, if you’re not going to get up, I guess I’m just going to have to join you, hmm?" Clay sat beside her, stretched his legs out next to hers, making her feel petite and insignificant. With no small amount of humor in his eyes, he sighed dra- matically. Just like he had when Delaney Brewster had teased her about having arms and legs like sticks. Back when she’d taken to praying every night for God to stop taking His time to make her a woman.

"Looks like you’re going to make me guess," he teased. "Let’s see . . . George Law forgot to call on you today."

Oh, Clay was so sweet to her. She hated to disappoint him. "It’s not that."

"Ben Forte didn’t say how pretty you looked in that peri- winkle gown you like so much."

Periwinkle. Vanessa hiccupped. The only reason Clay knew such a word was that she’d corrected him when he said her purple dress was fetching. "I’m not crying about a boy."

"Well then?" He folded an arm around her shoulder and was about to squeeze her tight when she winced.

He turned, one knee facing her hip. "Vanessa?" he mur- mured. His voice turned concerned. There was no trace of humor lingering in his voice. "What happened?"

How could she tell him? "It’s nothing." It was everything.

His eyes narrowed. "I don’t think so." With one finger, he tilted her chin up, tilted her head so it moved into the lone ray of glimmering moonlight shimmering down from the loft’s window.

She knew the moment he saw the bruise on her cheek. "I’ll be fine."

Tender fingers, so gentle, brushed her hair back from her face. But his gaze had hardened. "You’re bleeding."

"My cheek is, too?"

"Too?" Shifting again, he propped himself on one knee. Looking her over a little more closely. "Vanessa, what happened?"

"I . . . I didn’t realize . . . " Shame—and the lethal glare in his eyes—cut off her words. What would she do if he thought she was unworthy? Ever since her pa had died, she’d felt alone except for Clay. If he turned away from her, she’d have no one left.

"Realize what?" His voice was hoarse. Urgent. Still he touched her, petting her hair, tracing the swelling on her cheek.

Against her will, the tears flowed again. Frustrated, she mopped them with her sleeve, then winced as the action brushed fabric across her back. "I . . . I can’t do this, Clay. I can’t say it."

Clayton changed to a near crouch. Gone were all the traces of brotherly affection. In its place was everything that had made him a brilliant soldier. Determination. Fortitude. Strength. "Let me see you. Let me see your back."

Clay’s voice was firm. It was the voice he used when order- ing cowhands around. The tone he used when Lovey, Vanessa’s shepherd, forgot she was supposed to be working and there were still twenty head of cattle to bring in.

It was the tone Clay used with her brother Miles when Clay’s patience was at its wit’s end. He’d never spoken that way to her before. Ever.

"Now, Vanessa."

Obediently, she turned her shoulders, closing her eyes at his sharp intake of breath. As he very gently touched her torn gown, she stiffened, then exhaled in relief when his touch didn’t hurt, it was so butterfly-quick.

"Who did this to you? Price? Was it Price?"

She turned back to face him, stunned to find him shak- ing. Stunned to see mist in his brown eyes. Almost roughly, he cradled her jaw with one of his hands. "Answer me, sweetheart."

Sweetheart. He’d done that for years. Called her a whole host of endearments whenever they were alone. She supposed it was because a couple of months after they’d buried her daddy, she’d confided to Clayton how she missed the words. Her pa had been openly affectionate, her mother far less so.

Clayton now called her "baby," "darlin’," "sweetheart," and "honey." Anything to make her smile. Anything to make her feel wanted.

Never had the words seemed anything but teasing.

Never had they sounded as heartfelt as they did this minute.

"Vanessa, did your stepfather do this?"

She couldn’t lie. The truth hurt, almost as much as the belt had. Yet, lying to Clay would hurt worse. She nodded.

Clayton looked at her for a good long moment, then, as if he made a decision, he stood up and carefully helped her to her feet. "Come here, honey." Taking her hand, he led her to his room.

She’d seen it before. When Pa had gotten so sick, he’d asked Clay to build himself a nice suite of rooms in the back of the barn so their foreman could be within shouting distance of the house. Made up of two rooms, it had a bedroom and a small sitting area, complete with a stove. Her pa had insisted on that, since everyone knew Clayton Proffitt liked both his coffee and his privacy.

Her brother Miles said Clayton was uncannily self-suffi- cient. He often chose to eat by himself instead of eating with the ranch hands or joining the family in the dining room.

She’d knocked on his door a time or two. Or fifty. He’d always come out to help her with her horse or to listen when she had a problem. More than once he’d made her tea as he listened to her prattle on about anything and everything.

But now, as they entered his bedroom, Vanessa hardly had time to do more than inhale the scent of tobacco and mint before he motioned for her to sit. She perched atop his quilt, a crazy quilt she’d made for him four Christmases ago.

After checking to see that his curtains were drawn, Clay lit a kerosene lamp. Then he crouched in front of her again. When he spied her cheek in the better light a look of such concern crossed his face that Vanessa felt a fresh surge of tears struggle to come forth. She bit her lip and hoped for strength.

"Van, honey . . . what happened? You’ve got to tell me the truth. At the moment, I’m thinking the worst."

If she said the words out loud, it would mean it had really happened.

And that was too hard to come to grips with. "I . . . can’t."

"It would be best if you did."

Those eyes of his, so gentle and soft brown, ended her struggle. Tears fell again. "Please, Clay. Not yet." When she saw her hands were trembling, she pushed them under a fold in her skirt.

After a moment, he sat next to her, edging closer when he saw what she needed. "Come here, honey."

With a sigh, Vanessa rested her head on his shoulder. She closed her eyes and breathed deep, taking in his scent, his warmth. Finding comfort in his powerful strength. Maybe he wouldn’t leave her when he found out the truth. Maybe, just maybe, everything was going to be okay.

Clay didn’t know where to put his hands. Vanessa’s back was marred by two thick bloody welts, each one a good six inches long. The tender skin was bruised and mottled. Fabric from her dress looked to be embedded in each one.

And that was what he could see.

He was afraid she had other injuries, areas that hadn’t drawn blood, hurts he couldn’t see. Finally settling on her upper arms, he gently rubbed her, said all those nonsense words his mama had said to him a hundred times, back when he was small.

Said those words Vanessa had always craved, loving words that showed she wasn’t alone, that someone cared.

"Hush now, sweetheart. It’ll be okay, Van."

Her crying continued, making his shoulder wet and his heart break. Figuring she needed to shed the tears and he needed time to control his anger, he held himself stiff and fought for patience.

After another few minutes, she pulled back. "Oh, my! Clayton, I’m so sorry—I’ve made a mess of you. I’ll just go and—"

"You’re not going anywhere." Tilting her chin up, he prayed she’d trust him. "Vanessa, please. Tell me. Now."

She seemed to weigh her choices, then just as quickly, gave them up. "Price . . . hit me."

Clayton swallowed hard.

Oh, Price had done more than that. In the dim light he saw the swelling under the bruise on her cheek, the cut on her lip, the awareness in her eyes that a man’s strength could hurt her badly.

Clayton was also well aware of the damage a leather strap could do. "Why did he hit you?"

"Because he . . . because I wouldn’t . . . " She halted, swal- lowed hard. Met his gaze, looked back down.

Oh, Lord, no. "Because you wouldn’t . . . what?" Examining her closer, he spied a rip in her gingham near the collar. Caught sight of a fingertip bruise.

"Because I wouldn’t . . . because he wanted . . . me. Me?" She looked at Clayton, wonder in her eyes. "He said horrible things. I couldn’t. I couldn’t, Clayton." Her eyes turned wild.

He sought to calm the memories. Rubbing her arms, still afraid to touch her anywhere else, he looked at her directly. "I know, honey."

"Price grabbed me. Grabbed the collar of my dress. I screamed."

"Then what happened?"

"He blocked the door, and I . . . I ran to the window."

She was shaking now, reliving the memory. Clayton linked his fingers through hers. When she gazed at their joined hands and drew a fortifying breath, he pushed her some more, just like he used to do with the young boys in his unit during the war. Sometimes, even the worst truths needed to be admitted. "And then?"

"He went mad. He hit me. I tried to hit him back. And then . . . then he pulled off his belt." She shuddered. "I was so afraid."

"I know." Clay had seen Price display acts of violence more and more throughout the past year.

Her pretty green eyes, so luminous and desperate, stared at him in wonder. "I . . . I didn’t understand, Clay. Why? Why now?"

Because she was beautiful. Because she was untouched. "I don’t know," he lied.

"He struck me. I screamed and cried and tried to get away—

but there was nowhere to go." "And then?"

She paused. "And then Momma rushed in and pulled him away." With a ragged breath, she looked down at his quilt. "Thank goodness she came."

She’d come far too late, by his estimate. Carefully, Clay turned to look at her back again. "He struck you more than once."

Back down went her chin. "I know."

"Did he . . . Vanessa, tell me the truth. Did he . . . do more than that?"

Alarmed, she shook her head.

He was frightening her. Praying to the Lord for the right words, Clayton carefully spoke again. "Honey, you can tell me. You can tell me anything, remember?" he coaxed. "Did he. . . undress?" He gazed at her legs, curled tightly underneath her. "Did he force you to—" He couldn’t say it. "Tell me the truth, sweetheart. I won’t think—"

She stopped him by putting two fingers across his lips. "When Momma came, he left. All Price did was hit me. I promise."

Clayton glanced at her back again. The blood was drying, right in sync with how the skin had swelled. Most likely, she’d have scars across her upper back for the rest of her life.

The thought of anyone hurting her so brought forth another wave of anger. "Where was your brother? Where was Miles?"

"I don’t know. Maybe in the hall? After Momma and Price left, I locked my door and turned off my lantern. But I got so scared, Clay. The room smelled like him. When things were quiet, I came out here." She looked at him, begged him with her eyes to understand. "I couldn’t stay in the house any longer."

"I understand."

Wearily, she brushed a lock of hair away from her forehead. "I . . . I don’t know what I’m going to do in the morning."

He did. "I’m taking you away from here. You can’t stay another night."

"But—"

"There’s been rumors that Price has a disease," he said slowly, wondering how much to tell her about what the women in Camp Hope were saying about Price, "that it’s affecting his mind. You’re not safe." No way was he going to let Price get within ten feet of Vanessa again.

"I can’t leave. Then I’ll have no one."

"You’ll have me." Once again, Clayton wished her family had done more than gone to church when time allowed it. Vanessa never seemed to realize that the Lord could be on her side—if she’d open her heart to Him.

"But—"

"If we don’t leave, a locked door will never be enough to keep your stepfather away." He gripped her shoulders. "Do you understand, honey?"

"I do." She winced as she shifted.

Her pain brought him back to his responsibilities. He needed to take care of her. Taking care of her had always been his most important duty.

"But before we do anything, we’re going to have to fix you up, sugar." Grateful for the small stove he’d insisted on having, he stirred up the dying fire then poured a small amount of water into the kettle he kept nearby. As it heated up, he poured more water in a basin, then sorted through his trunk and found his softest broadcloth. The fabric was old and worn, too soft to wear on the range—but perfect for Vanessa’s tender skin.

Finally, he searched and found an old handkerchief, faded but clean. After pouring a liberal amount of hot water in the basin, he crouched in front of Vanessa again. Placing his hands on either side of her knees, he said, "We need to doctor your back. Will you trust me?"

After a long moment, she nodded.

Oh, he hated this! Swallowing hard, he said, "Your shirt— it needs to come off." Obediently, she fumbled with her top button. Clay watched her attempt loosen it but her hands shook so; tears of frustration pooled in her eyes again. "Let me," he whispered, moving her hands to one side.

Still kneeling in front of her, he unbuttoned the next two, taking care not to brush her skin with his fingers. Finally, the top of her blouse was open, a white camisole peeking out underneath. A pair of dark bruises mottled the fair skin near her collarbone.

He wanted to beat Price Venture.

After moving to sit by her side, Clayton gently guided her arms out of the sleeves, then did his best to lift the fabric from her back.

Vanessa winced as it stuck. "Oh, Clay."

"Lie . . . lie down on your stomach, sugar," he said, giv- ing her his pillow to cradle. After smoothing her long brown hair to one side, he dipped his bandanna in the warm water. "I’m going to dampen the fabric, see if I can remove the cloth easier. I’ll try not to hurt you."

"I’ll be fine, Clay."

Gingerly, he dabbed the top cut, heard her sharp intake of breath, but continued when Vanessa said nothing.

After moistening it again, he loosened the fabric, gently pulled it away from her skin. Clay’s hand shook as he made progress. Finally one welt was revealed, then a second. Under the second was evidence that Price had stuck her a third time, her skin was bruised and swollen.

How could this have happened? What’s more, how had he allowed it? How had he not heard her cries?

"Clay? Are you done?"

Her damaged shirt was wadded in his hands. Before him lay Vanessa’s back, covered by a plain white cotton camisole. Swallowing hard, he gently traced the line of the top cut. To his eye, it was obvious cotton fibers were still embedded. Though he hated the thought of hurting her further, he knew he had no choice. If he didn’t clean it well, infection would set in. "I’m going to have to wash out these cuts."

"I . . . all right."

She squeezed her eyes shut. He didn’t blame her. During the war, men had whimpered over less. Gently squeezing the curve of her shoulder, he murmured, "It’s okay if you cry."

"I think I’m all cried out, Clay."

Knowing nothing would get done if he didn’t do it, Clay steeled himself to her pain. Systematically, he cleaned her injuries, doing his best to concentrate only on his duty, not her sounds of discomfort. Finally, he poured a liberal amount of hot water onto his bandana and dabbed.

Vanessa’s back arched in pain.

"It’s over, sugar." With shaking hands, he helped her sit up. Next, he handed her one of his old shirts then turned away so she could cover herself again in at least the illusion of privacy.

"I’m dressed now."

He tried to smile at the picture she made. She was indeed covered; his too-large shirt was wrapped around her securely, like a robe. But it was her face that held his attention. Her eyes were filled with tears, but she was valiantly doing her best to keep them at bay.

"Some ointment would be a good idea, but it’s in the back of the barn," he said, hardly recognizing the rasp in his voice, thick from worry over her. "I’ll get it when I go inside to get your things."

She moved to stand up. "I’ll go with you, Clay."

"No you won’t. I won’t let you go near Price again. Tell me what you need."

"Dresses. Boots. Undergarments." After a brief pause, she said, "Clay, maybe we should talk about this, talk about your plans. I can’t ask you to leave the Circle Z."

"You didn’t ask me."

"This—what happened—it isn’t your concern."

How could she imagine it wasn’t? He’d promised her father he’d take care of her. Had promised it with a hand on his Bible. The vow was irrevocable. "It is. You are my concern."

"Maybe Miles—"

Clayton cut her off. "Miles didn’t look after you tonight. He won’t protect you tomorrow. Neither will your mother. And this—" Able to look at her again now that she was cov- ered, he added, "This will happen again."

"Maybe—"

"Honey, you know I’m right."

After a long moment, she nodded. "What can I do?"

On a peg was his mother’s old carpetbag. "Put some coffee, beans, and bread in here." Remembering her tender skin, he pointed to a soft wool blanket. "Roll that up, it’s cold out." He opened the door, whistled for Lovey. The pretty shepherd came running. "Stay," he ordered the dog. "Guard Vanessa."

Unable to help himself, he turned to stare at Vanessa again. She was standing by his lone chair, doing her best to look brave but failing miserably. Lines of exhaustion rimmed her eyes. The knowledge that it would be some time before she could rest made his tone harsher than he meant it to be. "Lock this door behind me. Don’t open it until I come back. Do you hear me?"

Her eyes darted to the lock as if she wondered if it could really keep her safe. "I do."

Her voice sounded unsure. Would she try to bolt? "Vanessa, promise me."

His knot of fear dissipated as trust filled her gaze, gifting him with a present he could hardly bear to accept. "I promise. I won’t open this door for anyone but you."

"I’ll be back within fifteen minutes."

"I’ll be waiting."

Clay knew where her room was. After letting himself in through the back door, he climbed the stairs, then strode toward her room. He hadn’t bothered to remove his boots; he supposed half of him was itching for a fight.

When he heard nothing, he searched Vanessa’s room, pull- ing out sturdy boots, undergarments, and calicos with the ease of a lady’s maid. He silently thanked his sister Corrine for being such a ninny. From the time she’d been eight, he’d had the misfortune and experience of serving as her dresser, thanks to their mother passing soon after their little brother Scout had been born.

The silly chit had been blessed with a penchant for numer- ous buttons and the sore inability to fasten them easily.

The memories of Corrine’s vanity reminded him to grab Vanessa’s silver-backed brush and combs. He was just gazing at the pale ivory wool shawl she wore on Sundays, remembering how pretty she looked with it wrapped around her shoulders on her way to church, when Miles stepped in.

"Clayton? What are you doing in here?"

Miles was one year older than Vanessa. At twenty, he was more than old enough to be a man. Unfortunately, no one had seen him that way.

His father had ignored Miles’s assertions that he was ready to manage the ranch, leaving it firmly in Clayton’s hands.

When Price had come along, he too had kept a firm grip on the boy, ignoring his ideas, tamping down his efforts to accept responsibility. Now, few on the ranch thought much of Miles. The twenty year old seemed destined to falter forever on the brink of manhood—old enough to be responsible but too green to be of use.

His somewhat tentative, almost lazy disposition had driven

Clayton to distraction more than a time or two.

And now the boy had the audacity to ask why he was gath- ering Vanessa’s things in the middle of the night. "I think you have a fair idea why I’m here. It’s obvious your sister can’t stay near Price a moment longer."

Miles’s eyes bugged. "You can’t just take her."

Clay felt like he was speaking to a child. "I can, and I will." Twin spots of color splashed across his face. "You’ve got to keep her here. You don’t know what Price will do if she’s gone missing."

A sharp image of Vanessa’s back, damaged and hurting, struck him hard. "I believe I do."

"Clayton, you need to stop and listen. Price . . . he didn’t mean to get out of hand."

"Out of hand?" His patience snapped. Gripping Miles by the shoulders, Clay pinned him in place. "He hit your sister with a leather strap. He tried to do far worse."

"I know." Miles’s skin turned a pasty white. "But—" Disgusted, Clayton dropped his hands, shoved Miles to one side. "If you intend to talk some more, do it outside. Your sis- ter’s waiting." Clay scooped up Vanessa’s clothes and brushes, stuffed them into a pillowcase. At the last minute, he added her shawl, her diary, and her ivory fountain pen. There’d hardly been a day go by that he hadn’t seen her writing.

He strode out the room, pausing as Marilyn peeked out from the master suite. A cheek was bruised and swollen, accentuat- ing the lack of color in her face.

Gesturing to the stuffed pillowcase, she whispered, "You taking Vanessa, Clay?"

"I am."

Overwhelming relief flooded her features. "Good. Price drank almost a bottle of whiskey. He won’t wake for sometime. I’ll do my best to keep her disappearance quiet for as long as possible."

Clay struggled for control. "Yes, ma’am."

She stepped forward and gripped his arm with a shaking hand. "Tell Van I love her. I did my best—"

Clay couldn’t bear to hear anymore. To his way of think- ing, Marilyn’s best had been a poor effort. "I will," he said, cutting her off.

He felt sorry for Marilyn, but not enough to give her com- fort. The woman should have known better. They’d all known Price had only courted and married Marilyn for the Circle Z. The man had never been anything but a drunkard and a schemer.

Marilyn should have cared about that. She should have done more for her daughter. Didn’t she remember what the Bible said about taking care of God’s children?

With a start, Clayton realized Miles was still by his side. "I need to go," he said to the boy before quickly sprinting down the stairs as Marilyn disappeared back into her room.

Miles padded after him. "Where will you take her?" he asked as they walked through the kitchen and out the back door. "What will you do with Vanessa?"

The night was still dark but already a mockingbird cried in the distance. He needed to saddle up Lee and get going. "You don’t need to know."

"How will I find her?"

"She’ll find you—if she ever cares to."

Miles’s soft face went slack. "There was nothing I could do, Clay," he whined. "Price was going crazy. You should’ve heard him."

"I should have heard him?" All the anger Clayton had held at bay from the moment he’d seen Vanessa’s back burgeoned forth. Violently, he grabbed Miles by the neck and slammed him against the barn door. "You make me sick, huddling in the hallway while your stepfather did his best with your sister. Listening to her screams. Allowing him to lay a hand on her. To touch her."

"But Clay—" "Don’t."

"Clay! Price is gonna be so angry when he finds out. He’s going to send for the sheriff. Form a posse."

Clay knew that to be true. What he was doing was a hang- ing offense, and no one would say different no matter how many scars decorated Vanessa’s back or face.

He was about to thrust Miles away from him when he spied something new in his expression. Determination? Bravery?

Clay dropped his hand. Gave him one last chance. "You’re at a crossroads, Miles. You can tell Price what I did and help him get your sister back or you can be a man and protect her. I will keep her safe, you have my word."

Miles straightened his thin shoulders. "I know you will. I’ll . . . do my best to help you."

Clay shook his head. His best wasn’t good enough.

Miles darted out a hand, stilling him. "Clay—stop. I will protect her. The posse will be called, but I’ll send them north. Clay. You . . . you have my word. My vow."

His vow.

Clay looked at the horizon. Dawn would be breaking in three hours and they had a long way to go.

But perhaps tonight Miles had finally decided to become a man. "Don’t disappointment me."

Miles reached in his vest and pulled out a wad of cash. "You’ll need this. Vanessa’s got some money at the bank in her name, but this should tide you over."

Clay took the money. He, too, had some funds, but not enough for an extended length of time. "Thank you."

As he slipped it into his pocket, Miles called out, "Should

I pray? You said Jesus answers prayers."

Clayton paused, memories of leading boys to battle flashing before his eyes. "Jesus does," he said quietly.

"Then how come this happened? How come Price came into our lives?"

"We let him."

"But his being here, it’s not right. Now Van’s got no one." A sense of calm rushed over Clayton, thankful to Miles

for reminding him of who was in charge of all of them—who always was, who always had been. "You’re forgetting that God brought me here to the Circle Z. I’m here to take care of her. Maybe I’ve been here all along for that reason. Good-bye, Miles."

When Miles slipped back into his house, Clayton stepped quickly back into the barn. When he reached the locked door, Clayton did his best to make his voice tender once more. "I’m back, Vanessa."

She opened the door immediately. "Clay."

He couldn’t help but stare. She’d pulled back her hair and had tied his shirt in a knot at her waist. She looked young and beautiful. She looked like Vanessa.

Then the shadows shifted and the bruise on her cheek came to life. Unable to help himself, he brushed her cheek with one finger. "You okay, honey?"

She closed her eyes at his touch. "I will be. Now."

Clayton closed his eyes for a brief moment as well. How in the world was he going to last being her savior when all he wanted to do was hold her close and never let her go?